Nimil Blackwood
be a useless person, but pretty
a little bit of venting art because i'm doing horribly with my depression tonight and i tend to work through my emotions best when i can put a visual to my feelings. trigger warning, abuse.
it has been almost 9 years since i left my abusive relationship. tonight while trying to do a completely different photo, i stumbled upon this backdrop that i randomly grabbed from foxcity during saturday sale and the rest is well.. you can see.
harley quinn and the joker was a reoccuring theme within my relationship, so much so that my abuser even had "she's the harley quinn to my baseball bat" in his profile. young me thought this was romance. back then the idea of harley and the joker was that she was the only good in his poor twisted life, but the reality is that when you are the only good thing in someone's mentally ill twisted reality, you are also the thing that is destroyed the most.
many of you know, and many of you do not know, the 5 years i spent being mentally abused to the point of near suicide, coupled with the abuse i suffered physically from my own mother, its a wonder i am still here at all.
thankfully something we can learn from harley and the joker is that in the end, harley gets away, harley wins. and so did i. my mother died and i cut all ties with him. i grew up and i don't idolize the idea of harley and the joker. but i do take pleasure in the outcome, the joker has no face, and harley has confidence and yes she is crazy (and so am i), but she can take care of herself (and so will i... eventually...)
be a useless person, but pretty
a little bit of venting art because i'm doing horribly with my depression tonight and i tend to work through my emotions best when i can put a visual to my feelings. trigger warning, abuse.
it has been almost 9 years since i left my abusive relationship. tonight while trying to do a completely different photo, i stumbled upon this backdrop that i randomly grabbed from foxcity during saturday sale and the rest is well.. you can see.
harley quinn and the joker was a reoccuring theme within my relationship, so much so that my abuser even had "she's the harley quinn to my baseball bat" in his profile. young me thought this was romance. back then the idea of harley and the joker was that she was the only good in his poor twisted life, but the reality is that when you are the only good thing in someone's mentally ill twisted reality, you are also the thing that is destroyed the most.
many of you know, and many of you do not know, the 5 years i spent being mentally abused to the point of near suicide, coupled with the abuse i suffered physically from my own mother, its a wonder i am still here at all.
thankfully something we can learn from harley and the joker is that in the end, harley gets away, harley wins. and so did i. my mother died and i cut all ties with him. i grew up and i don't idolize the idea of harley and the joker. but i do take pleasure in the outcome, the joker has no face, and harley has confidence and yes she is crazy (and so am i), but she can take care of herself (and so will i... eventually...)