MoudBarthez
Battling Insomina: Guilt Cast in Warm Light
Earlier that day, I had to do something I never get used to participate in yet another round of downsizing at work. For the third time in the same company, I found myself either letting people go, being let go, or sitting in the gut-wrenching limbo in between.
three times...
This time, I wasn’t part of the cut but it didn’t make it any easier.
Instead, I lay there, heavy with guilt. Watching immigrant colleagues, hardworking and kind, lose their jobs in a harsh economical situation in a northen country that doesn't favor them in the labour market.
I’ve been there... Many times.
Capitalism doesn’t care.
This image of the light fixture is what I stared at while trying to fall asleep, and failing while my mind ran loops of memories.
memories of old of past terminations throughout my career, and other colleagues whom i haven't seen again since their termination, where they had to go back to their country of origin due to visa issues.
It’s was just a ceiling light But that night, it became the silent witness of the storm.
a Storm in their lives and in my mind, and it kept company throughout the night till the morning when i had to go back to work, to continue witness the rest terminations.
with no signle minute of rest, or eyelid shut.
this ceiling light was the only thing watching me spiral through another sleepless night.
This photo was taken close to midnight on April 2nd, 2025, in Niittykumpu, Espoo, Finland.
Shot with a Canon 5D Mark II with a 24-105mm f/4L IS II USM.
Fragments - 05
Battling Insomina: Guilt Cast in Warm Light
Earlier that day, I had to do something I never get used to participate in yet another round of downsizing at work. For the third time in the same company, I found myself either letting people go, being let go, or sitting in the gut-wrenching limbo in between.
three times...
This time, I wasn’t part of the cut but it didn’t make it any easier.
Instead, I lay there, heavy with guilt. Watching immigrant colleagues, hardworking and kind, lose their jobs in a harsh economical situation in a northen country that doesn't favor them in the labour market.
I’ve been there... Many times.
Capitalism doesn’t care.
This image of the light fixture is what I stared at while trying to fall asleep, and failing while my mind ran loops of memories.
memories of old of past terminations throughout my career, and other colleagues whom i haven't seen again since their termination, where they had to go back to their country of origin due to visa issues.
It’s was just a ceiling light But that night, it became the silent witness of the storm.
a Storm in their lives and in my mind, and it kept company throughout the night till the morning when i had to go back to work, to continue witness the rest terminations.
with no signle minute of rest, or eyelid shut.
this ceiling light was the only thing watching me spiral through another sleepless night.
This photo was taken close to midnight on April 2nd, 2025, in Niittykumpu, Espoo, Finland.
Shot with a Canon 5D Mark II with a 24-105mm f/4L IS II USM.
Fragments - 05