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Day 295- Behind It All
This whole "just graduated from college quarter life crisis" thing is not meshing well with the "my sister has cancer" thing.
My not-boyfriend may stay with us for awhile around Casey's surgery. He hasn't seen me in almost 2 months, and he won't see me for another 2-ish. I'm afraid that he thinks I'm someone I'm not anymore and won't love me nearly as much as he says he does once he sees me again. I feel like I've lost sight of who I am.
Which, coincidentally, is why I don't want to have (my own) kids. I've talked about that before; how I know I would lose myself to them. And I think I've lost myself to this situation.
Ugh I hate being so emo.
Day 295- Behind It All
This whole "just graduated from college quarter life crisis" thing is not meshing well with the "my sister has cancer" thing.
My not-boyfriend may stay with us for awhile around Casey's surgery. He hasn't seen me in almost 2 months, and he won't see me for another 2-ish. I'm afraid that he thinks I'm someone I'm not anymore and won't love me nearly as much as he says he does once he sees me again. I feel like I've lost sight of who I am.
Which, coincidentally, is why I don't want to have (my own) kids. I've talked about that before; how I know I would lose myself to them. And I think I've lost myself to this situation.
Ugh I hate being so emo.