one year of retirement

so, i officially took early retirement from Sonoma State a year ago today -- and this seems like my slogan for the past year. feeling lost is not necessarily a bad thing -- but it's been surprisingly challenging, for me anyway, to figure out a sense of purpose or direction entirely on my own, without the overloaded schedule or crushing deadlines. i do not miss my old job at all (although i miss some of my lovely colleagues and students) -- but I'm also not really sure where i'm going from here...?

 

...yet also so thankful to be HERE, no better place to be lost in! plus it's a ridiculous privilege to be faced with such a challenge in the first place, so not complaining, not at all.

 

EDIT: and, it should be noted, i've got a long list of projects i feel like i really ought to be working on, yet often cannot muster the needed motivation/inspiration to actually get cracking. maybe one of these days! for now I've mostly been bobbing along like a cork in a pond, which can be deeply unsettling at times, but also really delightful at others...

Done