Kirbinator
no smoking day - not sure
I disconnected from the internet for about 4 days just because sitting in front of this thing and not moving around (physically) hasn't been the greatest thing for me when it comes to not smoking. I've NEEDED to get out of this house and get outside and MOVE AROUND.
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I signed in today to a good handful of concerned e-mails that maybe I had smoked and was hiding out beating myself up. I HAVEN'T SMOKED!!!! But I gotta tell ya, those e-mails... you guys... straight to my heart. I have never had this much support in doing this before. I'm not gonna get all Mary Tyler Moore on ya and throw my hat up spinning around touting the glory and happiness that quitting smoking is this time around ('CAUSE IT AIN'T!! IT'S STILL A BITCH!!!!) but I will say that I wish I could do something to express my grattitude. Please don't stop it coming for now.... just for awhile longer... it's helping so much.
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I think it might be my personality but the stuff that's really helping has been y'all that have been sayin', "Oh no Kirb you are absolutely right it's a total pain in the ass. This is NOT an easy thing and it may get much worse before everything settles down and LET YOURSELF HAVE RAGE and SCREAM if you have to!!!" Also the best have been those ahead of me looking back and goin', "C'mon.... I did it. You can...".
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No apologies in my rant today. Hell no. I don't care how new-agey this shit sounds. I feel good right now. NO, not always but right now yes. (and the lil' blue helpers are gone so it ain't that... (smirk))
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healthwise - Well, the scilia in my lungs are definately growing back. It tickles. No, not funny haha tickles. It's a sorta dry hackin' cough I get about 2 or 3 times a day that doesn't hurt. All about healin' I suppose. (It's not that hackin'-up-black-shit cough... I don't seem to do that one.)
My hands & feet are still sweating from the sudden overflow of circulation but, it's cold as hell outside in these parts nowadays so I don't really mind.
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I am eating food like there might not be any on earth tomorrow. I've gained 15 pounds. I don't care. I'm finally on my way to authentic beardom!! hehe...
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So.. I'm alive. Feelin' good. Manic as hell some days but aware of it when it happens so that's helping.
Nodding off as I type so.... gonna crash out here and sleep.
If you're one of my flickr friends reading this... check out my contact list and look around. My people-picker is pretty good and there's some great folks (and photographers!!!) around me. You should check 'em out. They keep me goin'.
I'm getting too mushy and WAAAAYYYYY too long winded.
'night all.
Peace,
Kirby
no smoking day - not sure
I disconnected from the internet for about 4 days just because sitting in front of this thing and not moving around (physically) hasn't been the greatest thing for me when it comes to not smoking. I've NEEDED to get out of this house and get outside and MOVE AROUND.
========
I signed in today to a good handful of concerned e-mails that maybe I had smoked and was hiding out beating myself up. I HAVEN'T SMOKED!!!! But I gotta tell ya, those e-mails... you guys... straight to my heart. I have never had this much support in doing this before. I'm not gonna get all Mary Tyler Moore on ya and throw my hat up spinning around touting the glory and happiness that quitting smoking is this time around ('CAUSE IT AIN'T!! IT'S STILL A BITCH!!!!) but I will say that I wish I could do something to express my grattitude. Please don't stop it coming for now.... just for awhile longer... it's helping so much.
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I think it might be my personality but the stuff that's really helping has been y'all that have been sayin', "Oh no Kirb you are absolutely right it's a total pain in the ass. This is NOT an easy thing and it may get much worse before everything settles down and LET YOURSELF HAVE RAGE and SCREAM if you have to!!!" Also the best have been those ahead of me looking back and goin', "C'mon.... I did it. You can...".
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No apologies in my rant today. Hell no. I don't care how new-agey this shit sounds. I feel good right now. NO, not always but right now yes. (and the lil' blue helpers are gone so it ain't that... (smirk))
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healthwise - Well, the scilia in my lungs are definately growing back. It tickles. No, not funny haha tickles. It's a sorta dry hackin' cough I get about 2 or 3 times a day that doesn't hurt. All about healin' I suppose. (It's not that hackin'-up-black-shit cough... I don't seem to do that one.)
My hands & feet are still sweating from the sudden overflow of circulation but, it's cold as hell outside in these parts nowadays so I don't really mind.
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I am eating food like there might not be any on earth tomorrow. I've gained 15 pounds. I don't care. I'm finally on my way to authentic beardom!! hehe...
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So.. I'm alive. Feelin' good. Manic as hell some days but aware of it when it happens so that's helping.
Nodding off as I type so.... gonna crash out here and sleep.
If you're one of my flickr friends reading this... check out my contact list and look around. My people-picker is pretty good and there's some great folks (and photographers!!!) around me. You should check 'em out. They keep me goin'.
I'm getting too mushy and WAAAAYYYYY too long winded.
'night all.
Peace,
Kirby