Kady Le
116/365 Check Up
Patient. This is all new to me, you know? You ever get that feeling where it just feels strange and you want to go back, but you can't? It's like, something's holding me back from this relationship. I can't ever get past it, you know?
Therapist. First of all, being honest, no, I don't know. Second of all, I don't even know what you're here for, what to diagnose you, what you're problem is. You're being introspective and emotional and all that stuff, but I can't read minds, Samual. You have to tell me what's wrong.
Patient. This relationship is new to me. Commitment is strange and I want to go back to being single, but I can't. I've mentioned "relationship." That should've told you I'm dealing with feelings of affection and love and all these things I never... ugh! And something's holding me back from being in love with her. It's driving me insane.
Therapist. (Puts away marker, clipboard, and glasses) Sam, I'm speaking to you as a friend now, not as a therapist.
Patient. Good, because you're a terrible one.
Therapist. (Sighs, almost annoyed) She's a wonderful girl. It's not surprising that you're not her first. Before you two were an item, you jumped at every oppurtunity to be with her, you comforted her, and you waited for her. Now that she's all yours, you're scared of not providing her needs in a partner. The needs that the others before you lacked and that's why you're holding back. It's fear, Sam. You're being cautious. Cautious is fine at the beginning of a relationship but if this goes on too long, caution can make you distant.
Patient. You're...right. I'm scared. I'm scared of losing her. I don't want to get too close with her because I know the closer I get, the harder it hurts when it ends. (Pauses) You're not bad at this at all.
Therapist. Well, we're still in college and I absolutely despise the psychology professer here. Plus therapists don't usually have a background of your childhood, your hobbies, your strengths, your weaknesses, your phobias... I'm not a good therapist. I just know how to be a good friend.
Patient. You're my best friend, Katherine. I wouldn't expect any less from you.
And SCENE! Just freewrote that duet right on the spot. My name isn't really Katherine. It's really Kady. And I'm actually a right-brained person even though me writing with my right hand shows differently. When I'm being filmed or photograph, I usually switch whatever I'm doing to my left hand to be percieved as different and more of an outside-of-the-box kind of person. I do write with my right hand, but I do just about everything else with my left hand with the exception of a few sports.
One main thing I do with my left hand is eat. If I'm eating ice cream, I hold the spoon on my left. If I eat spaghetti, the fork goes to the left. If I eat noodles, I use my left hand for chopsticks. I've eaten left-handed since I was about 11-12. I can even write neatly with my left but not as fast. However, I do find myself going up to the board in French and writing exercises subconciously with my south paw and scribbling with no difficulty.
116/365 Check Up
Patient. This is all new to me, you know? You ever get that feeling where it just feels strange and you want to go back, but you can't? It's like, something's holding me back from this relationship. I can't ever get past it, you know?
Therapist. First of all, being honest, no, I don't know. Second of all, I don't even know what you're here for, what to diagnose you, what you're problem is. You're being introspective and emotional and all that stuff, but I can't read minds, Samual. You have to tell me what's wrong.
Patient. This relationship is new to me. Commitment is strange and I want to go back to being single, but I can't. I've mentioned "relationship." That should've told you I'm dealing with feelings of affection and love and all these things I never... ugh! And something's holding me back from being in love with her. It's driving me insane.
Therapist. (Puts away marker, clipboard, and glasses) Sam, I'm speaking to you as a friend now, not as a therapist.
Patient. Good, because you're a terrible one.
Therapist. (Sighs, almost annoyed) She's a wonderful girl. It's not surprising that you're not her first. Before you two were an item, you jumped at every oppurtunity to be with her, you comforted her, and you waited for her. Now that she's all yours, you're scared of not providing her needs in a partner. The needs that the others before you lacked and that's why you're holding back. It's fear, Sam. You're being cautious. Cautious is fine at the beginning of a relationship but if this goes on too long, caution can make you distant.
Patient. You're...right. I'm scared. I'm scared of losing her. I don't want to get too close with her because I know the closer I get, the harder it hurts when it ends. (Pauses) You're not bad at this at all.
Therapist. Well, we're still in college and I absolutely despise the psychology professer here. Plus therapists don't usually have a background of your childhood, your hobbies, your strengths, your weaknesses, your phobias... I'm not a good therapist. I just know how to be a good friend.
Patient. You're my best friend, Katherine. I wouldn't expect any less from you.
And SCENE! Just freewrote that duet right on the spot. My name isn't really Katherine. It's really Kady. And I'm actually a right-brained person even though me writing with my right hand shows differently. When I'm being filmed or photograph, I usually switch whatever I'm doing to my left hand to be percieved as different and more of an outside-of-the-box kind of person. I do write with my right hand, but I do just about everything else with my left hand with the exception of a few sports.
One main thing I do with my left hand is eat. If I'm eating ice cream, I hold the spoon on my left. If I eat spaghetti, the fork goes to the left. If I eat noodles, I use my left hand for chopsticks. I've eaten left-handed since I was about 11-12. I can even write neatly with my left but not as fast. However, I do find myself going up to the board in French and writing exercises subconciously with my south paw and scribbling with no difficulty.