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Find the light of my way

I'm listening to Secret Garden. I just want to be peace in soul for a while, speed down my thoughts a little bit. Honestly I'm always been worrying about my studying. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. Seeing my friends study abroad with their scholarship make me really jealous :( Chances come and go, I didn't catch it, I deserve to be like this. I didn't try. My friend said if you didn't try from the beginning, don't even think about regretting it. She is right though.

 

I must work my ass off this year to payback 2 years ago I was wandering for so long by doing nothing and end up nowhere. I must do many exercises as many as possible, listen to the radio and writing essay, practice and practice. I have to, I must to make this, I want to get the Diploma of B2 so so much. I want to improve to none but myself that I can do this, my only hope, my only joy. I don't want to stand still in the same spot like this. I must make a move. People is right, once you take a step back, you will take another steps back. I did, unfortunately I did so many times, they way is getting up so so high and I'm losing behind. Many times I promised to myself but I never actually did anything, only do things half ways, sadly. But I'm not going to give up, that's for sure. I can't and I'd never giving up. I want to visit my teacher, I want to study abroad, I want to go far from here. To do that I must fix this and be good at it.

 

Note to self: Life is hard, you gotta be harder. Believe in myself is the only way. Fighting!

 

♪ Listen ♪

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Uploaded on July 31, 2012
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