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This is the place where my insecurities start and end. There are days when I will cry as I rummage my closet trying to find something to wear. I gained nearly 30 pounds since moving to Belgium and most of it is in my belly. It has made the last few years really hard. I have refused to buy bigger pants because I feel like I am giving in to my weight problem. But I refuse to do whatever it takes to make myself lose the weight. I know what I have to do, but I love food and I hate the gym.

 

I'm not here fishing for comments. I am here to face my fears. To get out of my comfort zone. To look at everything I hate about myself and either learn to love it, or fix what I hate. Those are my only fucking options.

 

P.S. I bit all my nails off tonight.

 

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The Vent - Outside of my comfort zone

 

This will be my picture for week 1 for this amazing new group that is going to be a BIG inspiration and help for me. :)

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