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Expectations are still something that I struggle with. While I am aware that expectations of people are natural and even I have expectations of others, i still hard a very hard time with them. As I am progressing through life, the things that people expect of him tend to build. I do my best to try to meet all these expectations, but what I consider my best, is never enough. At this moment in my life I am learning. I will not always be able to preform on every task and do everything right the first time. The area where I seem to fall the hardest is with my art. As I am given assignments for class and by the time i believe i have produced a beautiful image, i end up doing the wrong thing or doing a terrible job. I am very defensive over my work when given a general topic to cover. (Working with clients is a completely different story) I know my artwork does not seem to impress at times, but it impresses me and always ends up how i like it. Isn't that what being an artist is about? Expressing yourself through your work and not from the ideas of others? That's why I love being an artist so much and consider myself blessed to be good at this profession. Without it, I don't know what would bring me through life. Expectations are just hard for me to deal with. I end up getting too much expected out of me and let people down which is something I am not comfortable with. I love making people happy and giving them something to smile about. Letting people down is just one of those things that i can't do. By struggling with people's expectations, I feel as though that's all i do.

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