Galactic Dreams
Sexual Abuse - Eating Disorder
I know this is a subject that we are "not allowed" to talk about, as it is taboo for most people. If this is you please do not read further as it will just upset you. I know I have never been allowed to talk about this, those close to me forbid me to broach the subject. This is why I have decided to be free here - I can make this decision to have a voice.
I’ve lived for about 20 years under abuse (in my mid-twenties now). I was abused as a child by two different men, they were not aware of each other. I finally broke free from that when I was 17 and spent 2 years being “free” in denial. I met a boy who saw the signs of abuse in me and purposefully chose me to date (he told me this). He was cruel and abusive to me in every way that you can imagine for 5 (almost 6) years. I didn’t know I could get away. I was used to being stuck, I was conditioned to react this way while I was a toddler.
I didn’t even know I was in trouble or needed help until it was too late.
I never reached out for help even though I knew I was suffering mentally and had PTSD by the time I was 15. I didn't know I had an eating disorder for a long time, until people started noticing my ribs sticking out and I was forced into an eating disorder program. I didn't know I was depressed and suicidal until I decided to kill myself a few months ago. I was very effectively living in denial.
But now I am trying to get better - I am going to therapy and working on my mental health. I really want to erase the past. I want a fresh start, one that doesn't include me, an innocent child, on the sexual menu for grown men.
I'm a realist though and I know I have to accept my past and try to live in a world full of people who I do not trust.
It is my hope that other people might see this image and hear my story and gain strength to tell their own - or flee from the people who are hurting them. It is possible to get help. There are good people out there, you just have to look really hard to find them - it is worth the effort.
The statement that is pictured was said to me by the second man to sexually abuse me.
Photographs are © Copyright Galactic Dreams (or others when indicated) and are not in the public domain and may not be used on blogs, websites, or in other media without advance written permission from Galactic Dreams.
Sexual Abuse - Eating Disorder
I know this is a subject that we are "not allowed" to talk about, as it is taboo for most people. If this is you please do not read further as it will just upset you. I know I have never been allowed to talk about this, those close to me forbid me to broach the subject. This is why I have decided to be free here - I can make this decision to have a voice.
I’ve lived for about 20 years under abuse (in my mid-twenties now). I was abused as a child by two different men, they were not aware of each other. I finally broke free from that when I was 17 and spent 2 years being “free” in denial. I met a boy who saw the signs of abuse in me and purposefully chose me to date (he told me this). He was cruel and abusive to me in every way that you can imagine for 5 (almost 6) years. I didn’t know I could get away. I was used to being stuck, I was conditioned to react this way while I was a toddler.
I didn’t even know I was in trouble or needed help until it was too late.
I never reached out for help even though I knew I was suffering mentally and had PTSD by the time I was 15. I didn't know I had an eating disorder for a long time, until people started noticing my ribs sticking out and I was forced into an eating disorder program. I didn't know I was depressed and suicidal until I decided to kill myself a few months ago. I was very effectively living in denial.
But now I am trying to get better - I am going to therapy and working on my mental health. I really want to erase the past. I want a fresh start, one that doesn't include me, an innocent child, on the sexual menu for grown men.
I'm a realist though and I know I have to accept my past and try to live in a world full of people who I do not trust.
It is my hope that other people might see this image and hear my story and gain strength to tell their own - or flee from the people who are hurting them. It is possible to get help. There are good people out there, you just have to look really hard to find them - it is worth the effort.
The statement that is pictured was said to me by the second man to sexually abuse me.
Photographs are © Copyright Galactic Dreams (or others when indicated) and are not in the public domain and may not be used on blogs, websites, or in other media without advance written permission from Galactic Dreams.