Finalized

My divorce was finalized today..

The final chapter in a very long book, 37 years.

The emotions are overwhelming.

I'm sad, I love her and miss her and always will.

I'm disappointed, that it didn't work out the way we always wanted it to. Everything I did was either for her or with her in mind.

I'm relieved, the entire process is over, whether I wanted it or not.

I feel guilty, everything we worked for and built together, was divided, and what I ended up with was supposed to be for both of us to enjoy for the rest of our lives.

I'm grateful, for everything I do have, home, job, Joe especially.

I'm comforted, knowing I'm in control of my own existence.

Nobody can pull the rug out from under me anymore.

I'm exhausted, from everything I've been thru the last four decades.

I'm excited, about moving forward and putting myself first and being the best me. We weren't always good for each other, but we were always best together, and aren't good for anyone else.

Done