i wish i wasn't afraid of rejection.

i never really noticed it until now how afraid i am of it. i've gotten so used to it (the fear) that i barely know that it's there. if you get to know me better, you'll probably see it too; even when i don't.

 

of course most people are afraid of rejection but i don't want to be one of them because it makes me soooo antisocial/socially awkward. when i first meet someone, i don't know what to do because i'm so afraid that the person won't like me. and i really want to just let go of that FUCKING fear and not care whether someone likes me or not. i mean..if they don't like me for who i am then why should i go out of my way and waste my time on people that don't even want me there?

 

I'M AWARE OF THIS YET I CAN'T SEEM TO FIX IT. GOD DAMMIT.

sorry for the excessive swearing.

 

here's on black (try a smaller size for optical illusion-y vision)