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You and Me and Veronica Lake

 

BY COLLEEN J. MCELROY

 

 

I used to smoke before they opened

my chest and surgery filled the dark

clouds roiling and rain turned acid.

My best friend died lungs full of ashes

her hula skirts dry grass rustling

in the corner then another

friend and poems scattered on pages

like incomplete love letters

sprinkles from old pipes.

I used to smoke after lost loves

 

and Johnny-come-lately’s

some rings singalling the best

sex or the worst the room

clouded blue under a moon gone bad

tabacco sweat leather apple smell

into sunrise stink of an old shoe.

I used to hold up my finger to find

the moon the end stained yellow

smoke rings dancing above my head

like haloes of broken moons.

I smoked past several husbands

 

and loyal friends lungs charred

black and sliced on a surgeon’s plate

from the burning kiss and coffin nails

voice lost in phlegm blooming cloudy

white to yellow. I smoked afternoons

thinking I think I believe smoking

makes anything possible the sexiest

come-hither look or wise pause

taking you straight to the stroke

of the pen. I smoked with silver

holsters the best tobaccos coughs

 

levelling the field. I smoked

with gangsters and preachers

and mothers waiting for diapers

and fitted sheets oh we were

the best in those days when

the best could be measured easily

by filters and name brands and what’s

up front that counts. I smoked

when glory days were good days

and mystery was repartee in a bar

snappy lines thrown by some old

 

Viceroy leading man to the nearest

femme fatale. I smoke happily

gloriously helter-skelter

and pell-mell. I smoked when suzy

parker was The Face dionne

warwick crooned for bacharach and cadillacs

had fins. I smoked to live

fast love hard die young and rise

again like a fresh face from celluloid

heaven waiting beside a smoky piano

spotlight a blurred moon behind blue clouds

and me singing torch songs forever.

 

 

Colleen J. McElroy, “You and Me and Veronica Lake” from Sleeping with the Moon. Copyright © 2007 by Colleen J. McElroy. Used by permission of University of Illinois Press and the poet.

 

Source: Sleeping with the Moon (University of Illinois Press, 2007)

 

 

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What's in a cigarette?

 

This is the list of 599 additives in cigarettes submitted to the United States Department of Health and Human Services in April 1994.... [NOTE:] One significant issue is that while all these chemical compounds have been approved as additives to food, they were not tested by burning. Burning changes the properties of chemicals. More than 4,000 chemical compounds are created by burning a cigarette.

 

 

SOURCE: quitsmoking.about.com/

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