Louise Spence
48.365
And when I look to the stars, I see someone else.
I'm going to do one of those bizarre things where I start typing and just don't stop. Stop reading when you get tired. Okay go.
I actually went and took this today. Not the background (that's from when it snowed) but, anyway.. The only reason I'm saying this is because apart from a select few, no one I know will ever read this, and I wouldn't want them to either. I don't care what they think of me, but they already think I'm crazy without any more help from me, so. Whatever. Anyway. Prepare yourself for a whole load of what is essentially moaning. Since, I thought I should explain the recent moody/uninspired theme to my stream. I don't owe you this, but Basically, I feel pretty awful at the moment. It is entiiirely unexplainable; externally I'm completely happy, I have everything I need/want and the people in my life make me feel like the luckiest girl alive. But I can't shake this stupidly lonely feeling. I'm on the verge of tears all the time, and it doesn't make sense. I'll be in the middle of the common room and I'll just want to curl up and cry. Usually, when I'm upset, school sort of banishes the feeling and I can forget all about it, but I just can't. I don't know what it is. I assume it's anaemia, since I've had it before and it made me constantly tired then, too, but I just got back from the doctors and I have a blood test in a week then a week waiting for results which is another two weeks feeling like this in this stupid little rut of craziness. The doctor, who didn't actually care what I was saying to him, has also given me a form to fill out on depression. No dude, I'm not depressed, just please notice my existance and don't leave this for another two weeks? Ugh. I know it'll go away on its own, eventually, I guess I'm just looking for a quick fix to restore me to the all-consuming happiness I've been feeling for the past six months or so. I miss it.
Anyway. The conclusion of all that is, don't worry, I'll be fine, and my photography will probably suffer for a bit, but I'll be back on form in a little while. Just bear with a few samey, potentially face-less portraits until then, pretty please. I love you guys.
48.365
And when I look to the stars, I see someone else.
I'm going to do one of those bizarre things where I start typing and just don't stop. Stop reading when you get tired. Okay go.
I actually went and took this today. Not the background (that's from when it snowed) but, anyway.. The only reason I'm saying this is because apart from a select few, no one I know will ever read this, and I wouldn't want them to either. I don't care what they think of me, but they already think I'm crazy without any more help from me, so. Whatever. Anyway. Prepare yourself for a whole load of what is essentially moaning. Since, I thought I should explain the recent moody/uninspired theme to my stream. I don't owe you this, but Basically, I feel pretty awful at the moment. It is entiiirely unexplainable; externally I'm completely happy, I have everything I need/want and the people in my life make me feel like the luckiest girl alive. But I can't shake this stupidly lonely feeling. I'm on the verge of tears all the time, and it doesn't make sense. I'll be in the middle of the common room and I'll just want to curl up and cry. Usually, when I'm upset, school sort of banishes the feeling and I can forget all about it, but I just can't. I don't know what it is. I assume it's anaemia, since I've had it before and it made me constantly tired then, too, but I just got back from the doctors and I have a blood test in a week then a week waiting for results which is another two weeks feeling like this in this stupid little rut of craziness. The doctor, who didn't actually care what I was saying to him, has also given me a form to fill out on depression. No dude, I'm not depressed, just please notice my existance and don't leave this for another two weeks? Ugh. I know it'll go away on its own, eventually, I guess I'm just looking for a quick fix to restore me to the all-consuming happiness I've been feeling for the past six months or so. I miss it.
Anyway. The conclusion of all that is, don't worry, I'll be fine, and my photography will probably suffer for a bit, but I'll be back on form in a little while. Just bear with a few samey, potentially face-less portraits until then, pretty please. I love you guys.