Ariel Scott
Last night was a good night.
The air was crisp and past memories flooded our minds.
We know it won’t last.
We know that tomorrow it will all be gone and everything will be as it was before.
But the feeling of freedom that I had at that moment was exhilarating.
Feeling like nothing had changed.
We were still all the innocent and sweet girls we were before.
I wished for a moment that the past didn’t exist.
That no hurt and pain had been afflicted upon the friendship that had existed.
…past tense….existed, because everything changed.
Everything changed when they came into our lives and broke the bonds that
had been there much longer than they had.
4 years of friendship and memories that were torn and broken
by these people we’d known for a short couple months.
Pictures of them flashed in my mind.
Him hugging a girl that I used to know the way he had to me.
Kissing her and making her feel like the world didn’t exist.
That’s the way he made me feel.
I felt safe with him.
If I had known they would someday be together, I would have never befriended her.
Willa was my friend and they took her away from me.
I felt betrayed by her. I hurt because I knew that it was either me or them and she chose them. After 4 years of friendship, she chose a family that we’d known for a couple months.
And Christa, the girl I had trusted and became friends with through youth group, who said she would never go out with a guy like Jeff is now hugging him, kissing him, loving him, the way I had a year ago.
So, no. I can’t forget.
I can’t let go.
I can’t move on knowing that friendship is only as strong as the influence you have over people.
I wish I could let go. I wish things could be the same as they were before, when we used to blast the music in the car and have the windows down feeling like the world had so much to offer.
But I can’t. I can’t not hate them for taking away the person I loved, my best friend, my church, my trust.
Snakes like that deserve nothing more than to burn in hell.
H, E, double hockey sticks.
Last night was a good night.
The air was crisp and past memories flooded our minds.
We know it won’t last.
We know that tomorrow it will all be gone and everything will be as it was before.
But the feeling of freedom that I had at that moment was exhilarating.
Feeling like nothing had changed.
We were still all the innocent and sweet girls we were before.
I wished for a moment that the past didn’t exist.
That no hurt and pain had been afflicted upon the friendship that had existed.
…past tense….existed, because everything changed.
Everything changed when they came into our lives and broke the bonds that
had been there much longer than they had.
4 years of friendship and memories that were torn and broken
by these people we’d known for a short couple months.
Pictures of them flashed in my mind.
Him hugging a girl that I used to know the way he had to me.
Kissing her and making her feel like the world didn’t exist.
That’s the way he made me feel.
I felt safe with him.
If I had known they would someday be together, I would have never befriended her.
Willa was my friend and they took her away from me.
I felt betrayed by her. I hurt because I knew that it was either me or them and she chose them. After 4 years of friendship, she chose a family that we’d known for a couple months.
And Christa, the girl I had trusted and became friends with through youth group, who said she would never go out with a guy like Jeff is now hugging him, kissing him, loving him, the way I had a year ago.
So, no. I can’t forget.
I can’t let go.
I can’t move on knowing that friendship is only as strong as the influence you have over people.
I wish I could let go. I wish things could be the same as they were before, when we used to blast the music in the car and have the windows down feeling like the world had so much to offer.
But I can’t. I can’t not hate them for taking away the person I loved, my best friend, my church, my trust.
Snakes like that deserve nothing more than to burn in hell.
H, E, double hockey sticks.