Ans van de Sluis
'Me' time
I'm sorry for the sad music but it shows how I feel.
A very personal note. I need to talk now. It's important. I need to talk about how I was brought up, with childhood emotional neglect that is. And of course parentification. The awareness of that came very late. I'm very very much struggling with that. Not the awareness but with chosing for myself instead of the relationship between my mother and me. I have to let go because of her lack of understanding and awareness. It's about mourning because of that. It's not the best time because she had a stroke. So there's the quilt question. But we don't actually 'meet' each other anymore. I always feel a big void and cold inside. I never learned how to bond with people in a healthy way. I never learned how to express my feelings in a healthy way. But I'm seeing things much clearer now and I'm working to find safety and comfort within myself.
So, sending love to everyone
'Me' time
I'm sorry for the sad music but it shows how I feel.
A very personal note. I need to talk now. It's important. I need to talk about how I was brought up, with childhood emotional neglect that is. And of course parentification. The awareness of that came very late. I'm very very much struggling with that. Not the awareness but with chosing for myself instead of the relationship between my mother and me. I have to let go because of her lack of understanding and awareness. It's about mourning because of that. It's not the best time because she had a stroke. So there's the quilt question. But we don't actually 'meet' each other anymore. I always feel a big void and cold inside. I never learned how to bond with people in a healthy way. I never learned how to express my feelings in a healthy way. But I'm seeing things much clearer now and I'm working to find safety and comfort within myself.
So, sending love to everyone