amazing bazaar *
and amazing, bizarre ~
dearest friends, magnificent souls ... *
well, am trying to infuse a little humor in this .. as the results of the surgery came in tonight, and they're both amazing and bizarre...
will try to explain, in the least graphic way, what i was just told by my doctor:
when the surgeon took the biopsy of my bone, he kept finding no cells (of either kind) from the lesion to test, only blood.. so he went back in 3 more times, but each time it was the same.
puzzled, the surgeon figured the pathology lab would be able to spin it down and find some cells.. there have got to be cells! ... but the lab couldn't find any cells either.. benign or otherwise..
so... my doctor, who said he is hopefully optimistic yet is not sure what to make of this, is sending me to an oncologist, a cancer doctor for bones, for him to try to figure out the puzzle.
there is only one in the whole state, dr. singer (a wonderful name :)..
it may take awhile to get in to see him, despite my doctor wanting it to be done 'asap', because he is so busy (as, in addition to being a bone cancer specialist, he's also a hand surgeon.. which is also kind of amazing & bizarre :)
that's All okay .. i really have no fear ... because, after the initial wonderment, here's what am feeling in my soul .. ~
Life is a mystery. .. not everything is explainable.
in my heart of hearts, i would not be surprised if they never figure it out ... because.. (and you may think this is bizarre :) ..
i believe its gone ~ and truly believe that You and all my loved ones took it away with your heartful intentions sent to me...
You, with your beautiful gifts... with your healing energies, your generosity of spirit, your selflessness and true kindness... with Love.
*~ may you have these same gifts returned to you a thousandfold in your lives ~*
as soon as i heal a bit more from the surgery .. and can become familiar with my new computer (which is still in the box), i will come to each of your photostreams to thank you personally ... and would then also like to make each of you new friends my contact, hope that will be okay..
am so thankful for You... *
You ~ each of you ~ have meant everything to me during this ordeal ..
You have kept me, tenderly, in the Light ..
and You have allowed me to feel at peace and safe.
because of You, i will continue to feel at peace and safe, no matter what unfolds..
with an enormous warm hug to each of you .. a hug which will last a whole lifetime...
and love on you.. beyond-thanks to you always & always .. alight *
.
amazing bazaar *
and amazing, bizarre ~
dearest friends, magnificent souls ... *
well, am trying to infuse a little humor in this .. as the results of the surgery came in tonight, and they're both amazing and bizarre...
will try to explain, in the least graphic way, what i was just told by my doctor:
when the surgeon took the biopsy of my bone, he kept finding no cells (of either kind) from the lesion to test, only blood.. so he went back in 3 more times, but each time it was the same.
puzzled, the surgeon figured the pathology lab would be able to spin it down and find some cells.. there have got to be cells! ... but the lab couldn't find any cells either.. benign or otherwise..
so... my doctor, who said he is hopefully optimistic yet is not sure what to make of this, is sending me to an oncologist, a cancer doctor for bones, for him to try to figure out the puzzle.
there is only one in the whole state, dr. singer (a wonderful name :)..
it may take awhile to get in to see him, despite my doctor wanting it to be done 'asap', because he is so busy (as, in addition to being a bone cancer specialist, he's also a hand surgeon.. which is also kind of amazing & bizarre :)
that's All okay .. i really have no fear ... because, after the initial wonderment, here's what am feeling in my soul .. ~
Life is a mystery. .. not everything is explainable.
in my heart of hearts, i would not be surprised if they never figure it out ... because.. (and you may think this is bizarre :) ..
i believe its gone ~ and truly believe that You and all my loved ones took it away with your heartful intentions sent to me...
You, with your beautiful gifts... with your healing energies, your generosity of spirit, your selflessness and true kindness... with Love.
*~ may you have these same gifts returned to you a thousandfold in your lives ~*
as soon as i heal a bit more from the surgery .. and can become familiar with my new computer (which is still in the box), i will come to each of your photostreams to thank you personally ... and would then also like to make each of you new friends my contact, hope that will be okay..
am so thankful for You... *
You ~ each of you ~ have meant everything to me during this ordeal ..
You have kept me, tenderly, in the Light ..
and You have allowed me to feel at peace and safe.
because of You, i will continue to feel at peace and safe, no matter what unfolds..
with an enormous warm hug to each of you .. a hug which will last a whole lifetime...
and love on you.. beyond-thanks to you always & always .. alight *
.