shelby gill
Home (3/3)
** of actually like 80 but yeah. Something a little different.
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It's probably no secret I've struggled finding my place after sports. This is what makes my heart full and where I always felt I was meant to be. If anything defines myself, it's this. I try not to post ultra personal things anymore but i can't express how nice and empowering it is to find new and old things to make your heart feel a new kinda happy again.
I lost my sense of self for a long time and sitting in front of a computer 24/7 at college trying to be something I just wasn't good at and ended up resenting, and suppressed the things I loved most for no good reason. I've known what I enjoy my entire life so I don't know why it was so hard for my conflicted adult self to realize/take pride in them when I've always had the confidence in things I loved.
I was super inspired by gritty old Nike ads I dreamt of being in myself and said screw it and went out one foggy early morning and simply did one of the things I love most in front of a camera. I love editorial images so much dangit. Lately I'm just really happy with regaining my sense of self. Not trying too hard to be something I'm not, but existing genuinely as the same old 10 year old obsessed with getting muddy, playing soccer, Spyro the Dragon, fast cars and how they work, action movies, and colorful, impactful images. And my dog. Obviously. 🐺
Home (3/3)
** of actually like 80 but yeah. Something a little different.
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It's probably no secret I've struggled finding my place after sports. This is what makes my heart full and where I always felt I was meant to be. If anything defines myself, it's this. I try not to post ultra personal things anymore but i can't express how nice and empowering it is to find new and old things to make your heart feel a new kinda happy again.
I lost my sense of self for a long time and sitting in front of a computer 24/7 at college trying to be something I just wasn't good at and ended up resenting, and suppressed the things I loved most for no good reason. I've known what I enjoy my entire life so I don't know why it was so hard for my conflicted adult self to realize/take pride in them when I've always had the confidence in things I loved.
I was super inspired by gritty old Nike ads I dreamt of being in myself and said screw it and went out one foggy early morning and simply did one of the things I love most in front of a camera. I love editorial images so much dangit. Lately I'm just really happy with regaining my sense of self. Not trying too hard to be something I'm not, but existing genuinely as the same old 10 year old obsessed with getting muddy, playing soccer, Spyro the Dragon, fast cars and how they work, action movies, and colorful, impactful images. And my dog. Obviously. 🐺