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YAYOM Day 8 Less negative self-talk
The many, many negative voices I've lived with my whole life, that have sometimes taken over everything, lately, they've been unusually quiet. I'm so very grateful for that.
But there is one that is very loud. On bad days, it knocks me off my feet. It is ugly and says that no one loves me anymore and nobody ever will. That no one cares enough to stick around and ask me to hang out.
At this time in my life, there is a small amount of truth to this, that after a few years of being an especially introverted introvert, a hermit really, many people have moved on and have full lives that don't include me anymore. But I'd like to tell this voice that if I continue to seek self-love there will inevitably be people who will come into my life and they will stick around and they will consider me worthwhile and wonderful.
Yes, I sometimes come home and close the gate and I live there for days or weeks. But please know, dear friends of the past, present and future, that you are always welcome to ask to be let in. And if I say 'not right now', please don't give up, because the day eventually comes when I step out and that's worth waiting for. I have to believe that. I will believe that. I do believe that.
YAYOM Day 8 Less negative self-talk
The many, many negative voices I've lived with my whole life, that have sometimes taken over everything, lately, they've been unusually quiet. I'm so very grateful for that.
But there is one that is very loud. On bad days, it knocks me off my feet. It is ugly and says that no one loves me anymore and nobody ever will. That no one cares enough to stick around and ask me to hang out.
At this time in my life, there is a small amount of truth to this, that after a few years of being an especially introverted introvert, a hermit really, many people have moved on and have full lives that don't include me anymore. But I'd like to tell this voice that if I continue to seek self-love there will inevitably be people who will come into my life and they will stick around and they will consider me worthwhile and wonderful.
Yes, I sometimes come home and close the gate and I live there for days or weeks. But please know, dear friends of the past, present and future, that you are always welcome to ask to be let in. And if I say 'not right now', please don't give up, because the day eventually comes when I step out and that's worth waiting for. I have to believe that. I will believe that. I do believe that.