Gene Sz.
The Guarded
This short series was not planned in camera but just shots taken as they presented themselves. I have also been processing my film randomly as I was too busy (read lazy) at the time to label the exposed rolls. This theme of looking into light just came up during post. looking at the thumbnails, I noticed a pattern. In these I am either subject or viewer, or both. It is like a dream, you ARE all of the characters. i strive for the light but reside in the dark. i look from the outside in but ironically am inside, isolated by the effects of the past, the inescapable causality.I want more, and always have, yet hold myself back. It is this want that has cost me so much, yet it is not avarice nor greed; only a desire to be better, to b a part of something meaningful, to leave this place having said something of value, even if to only a few. It is through this small set of photos that I am able to finally realize and admit that this dissatisfaction with the mundane has taken away everything that mattered from my life.
The Guarded
This short series was not planned in camera but just shots taken as they presented themselves. I have also been processing my film randomly as I was too busy (read lazy) at the time to label the exposed rolls. This theme of looking into light just came up during post. looking at the thumbnails, I noticed a pattern. In these I am either subject or viewer, or both. It is like a dream, you ARE all of the characters. i strive for the light but reside in the dark. i look from the outside in but ironically am inside, isolated by the effects of the past, the inescapable causality.I want more, and always have, yet hold myself back. It is this want that has cost me so much, yet it is not avarice nor greed; only a desire to be better, to b a part of something meaningful, to leave this place having said something of value, even if to only a few. It is through this small set of photos that I am able to finally realize and admit that this dissatisfaction with the mundane has taken away everything that mattered from my life.