Day 33 /365**********READ AT YOUR OWN RISK~Not as SCANDALOUS AS A CNN PRESS CONFRENCE BUT ITS WHAT I GOT!!!!****************

You probobly hadn't made the observation of the decrease in comments to my pictures but I have. Some are commenting one or two days after I post~ AS TO NOT BE SEEN (by my enemies) BECAUSE AFTER THAT PERIOD OF TIME WHO'LL LOOK BACK NOW?.... please don't feel sorry for me but it is obvious. I don't want to care what everyone thinks about me or my photos, but I have to break down-be real-and admit I do care... I am only human and so are you. You all care we all care. It hurts my feelings for some reason that noone that use to comment comments anymore. I have sent all my "girlfriends" a message and most have reponded with "Aw hon I' m not mad" "no blame" "no hard feeling" "we KNOW you did nothing no worries"~and for those words alone I am thankful-but then most of them-NOT ALL- don't come visit my stream or if they do VERY few leave a comment. I was talked out of leaving so I am trying to enjoy the pics. I am buying photoShop this weekend just to get some enjoyment from my hobby since most of the appreciation I was getting is all but gone....I know I never did or will be as good as most of you, but at least I can have some fun.

 

I apologize if I haven't been to your stream to visit but I am having severe problems with my RLS not to mention a migraine the majority of the week... I will catch up soon......

 

I want to thank my friends that remain in my group~that means the world to me.

 

For my friends that are gone or for those of you that were never there-if you continue to look and comment THANK YOU. Thank you for PM'ing me back after my heartfelt messages~I truly appreciate it!!!

 

For those of you that are gone-for good-we never could have been friends anyway. Putting blame on me for something I had nothing to do with is shit!!! It's bogus and fucked up and so are your reasonings for not having the balls to comment-say goodbye-or PM me back. So good riddens~don't desire fakies....

 

Thanks to a good friend of mine in my group-she knows who she, I am in complete agreeance that I will not allow this drama to bring me down anymore or let it consume me. I have been doing that for far too many days and this is the last I will say about it. As I said before, I am only human and I have felings~I hurt too when things were said and blamed on me. I said it before and I will say it again ***I DID NOTHING TO HER!!! NO PM"S NOTHING*** In the infamous words of the Piano Man "WE (I) didn't start the fire". I didn't ignite it, blow on it or add paper to it to watch it grow higher.... I am now, however, doucing it with this message.... for all of you who praise people for standing up for themselves and speaking their mind.... don't bother here just to be polite.... do it because you are real - like I am.

 

I want to thank you sincerly if you have stuck thru this week with me. I want to thank you if you continue to comment on my stream and for those who have PM'd me back or on their own-thank you. If you are reading this because you are one of them - Piss OFF!! PLEASE! Enough damage done... I am waiving the white flag.... Can I move on!!!

 

If you continued to read after I told you that you were taking a chance, I appreciate it. I have noone really on here or in the "real world" that understands how I feel on this matter .... hope you can. Also I am sorry to cry on your shoulder but thank you for listening. A special thank you to my friend drinkuntilyoureirish

( www.flickr.com/photos/duyirish/ ) You are the coolest and thank you for being there for me and giving me a shoulder to cry on-you are appreciated more than you know :)

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