To Reflect
To Reflect
--I have a close friend who just spent his last Christmas with his parents, as each are are being taken from him. One to cancer, the other to Alzheimer's Disease. (my heart goes out to you. i'm sorry...so very sorry. I'll be your friend through and through)
--I have three grateful children for what they received over the holidays. I can't always give them what they want. (for that I'm so thankful and it pleases me to see them not act selfish.)
--I have a brother who chooses not to be in my life or a part of it. He puts no effort into me, my family or others. He's selfish and self centered. (after years of doing all the work myself...I'm finished. for now I have no brother.)
--I've learned that liars are the biggest cowards. (you'll get eaten alive. people read though you. eventually the truth comes out.)
--I have Flickr friends all over the world who are strangers, yet so good to me. I get tastes of them each day on this website and have even met very special ones in person. (for that I'm glad to know you and am thankful you are in my life. thank you for being so giving)
--I have a friend and his birthday is tomorrow. He has had a tough time this year. (happy birthday. you'll be ok. lean on your friends. they will help you through. here's to a better year to come)
--I have been in contact on my FB account with another student that I taught 20 years ago in my first teaching job ever. He's graduating from law school and is married. He thanked me today for what I have done and being a key person in his life to where he is today. He thanked me for going to his HS graduation in '02. (rafael...I'm so very proud of you. the beautiful child you were has turned into a beautiful man. so has jonathan, cassy, lauren and joey)
--I'm in a much better place than I have been in for quite a while with my depression. I have not had any big dips in quite some time. For that I'm thankful and I try very hard to stay in the ok. (I wish like hell i never had or had to fight depression. the black days that steal my heart and soul and rip though me. where i don't know why I'm here in life. it's not something i can control. it just happens. i'd be glad for it to leave me for good and never touch me again. depression sucks.)
--I struggle with things here at home. My work...well being...future. (i wish I could have peace of mind in it all. i have always been at the top of my game in my career. i have never been so insecure with my well being and did try make the changes to make better. this new job is not making things any easier, that's for sure. my thoughts of my future leaves me scared and sad and i pray for something that will be nice.)
--Sometimes I wish someone could take this weight off my shoulders at times. (life sure does get heavy)
--I have goals to set. (triathlons)
--I am thankful that I have such a good relationship with my ex-husband and his wife. They both are such good people and I could not raise these kids without us all being a team. (thank you J & A. I'm so glad that we all are friends. our children see us as a strong unit and are not divided between parents. J...we did ok and our kids are ok and i'm glad our history is written with so much good, even with a divorce)
--2009. Here's to a good one everyone and that you have a wonderful year ahead of you. I wish you all peace and happiness in your lives. I wish you all fulfillment from your family and friends and things that you do that make a difference. (I hope for a better new year myself. i have to keep seeing that the direction i go is for something positive.)
My reflections...
Explore December 28, 2008 #388
To Reflect
To Reflect
--I have a close friend who just spent his last Christmas with his parents, as each are are being taken from him. One to cancer, the other to Alzheimer's Disease. (my heart goes out to you. i'm sorry...so very sorry. I'll be your friend through and through)
--I have three grateful children for what they received over the holidays. I can't always give them what they want. (for that I'm so thankful and it pleases me to see them not act selfish.)
--I have a brother who chooses not to be in my life or a part of it. He puts no effort into me, my family or others. He's selfish and self centered. (after years of doing all the work myself...I'm finished. for now I have no brother.)
--I've learned that liars are the biggest cowards. (you'll get eaten alive. people read though you. eventually the truth comes out.)
--I have Flickr friends all over the world who are strangers, yet so good to me. I get tastes of them each day on this website and have even met very special ones in person. (for that I'm glad to know you and am thankful you are in my life. thank you for being so giving)
--I have a friend and his birthday is tomorrow. He has had a tough time this year. (happy birthday. you'll be ok. lean on your friends. they will help you through. here's to a better year to come)
--I have been in contact on my FB account with another student that I taught 20 years ago in my first teaching job ever. He's graduating from law school and is married. He thanked me today for what I have done and being a key person in his life to where he is today. He thanked me for going to his HS graduation in '02. (rafael...I'm so very proud of you. the beautiful child you were has turned into a beautiful man. so has jonathan, cassy, lauren and joey)
--I'm in a much better place than I have been in for quite a while with my depression. I have not had any big dips in quite some time. For that I'm thankful and I try very hard to stay in the ok. (I wish like hell i never had or had to fight depression. the black days that steal my heart and soul and rip though me. where i don't know why I'm here in life. it's not something i can control. it just happens. i'd be glad for it to leave me for good and never touch me again. depression sucks.)
--I struggle with things here at home. My work...well being...future. (i wish I could have peace of mind in it all. i have always been at the top of my game in my career. i have never been so insecure with my well being and did try make the changes to make better. this new job is not making things any easier, that's for sure. my thoughts of my future leaves me scared and sad and i pray for something that will be nice.)
--Sometimes I wish someone could take this weight off my shoulders at times. (life sure does get heavy)
--I have goals to set. (triathlons)
--I am thankful that I have such a good relationship with my ex-husband and his wife. They both are such good people and I could not raise these kids without us all being a team. (thank you J & A. I'm so glad that we all are friends. our children see us as a strong unit and are not divided between parents. J...we did ok and our kids are ok and i'm glad our history is written with so much good, even with a divorce)
--2009. Here's to a good one everyone and that you have a wonderful year ahead of you. I wish you all peace and happiness in your lives. I wish you all fulfillment from your family and friends and things that you do that make a difference. (I hope for a better new year myself. i have to keep seeing that the direction i go is for something positive.)
My reflections...
Explore December 28, 2008 #388