October 4, 2011

The Day opens

Warm Bright Safe Guy

Happy Comfortable High

 

Then the heart starts

People in red don’t smile

A man guards his

newspaper and seat

A beautiful young loose

girl Bounces By with red lip

I feel old

 

A man leaves

no goodbye He’s German and Sure

two other young ones mean boys

are talking on sickles or lolly

pop

 

The April Day is almost full

The boredom the walking the

stopping the drinking Cappuccino

coffee

looking

out on the ___________ after a few

sips

Looking Better

I’m Better looking

A 1000 _____________ ________ pass

this ashram good posh

I can hang out

Rich American good looking

smart

taking it in

 

Seeing the Back of a grey

Balding head

Wanting to make sucking

noises

then a Kiss to the center

I saw the face

Different than expected

Walked on

Sat down

Wrote

Then he came

 

______________ night

Policeman __________________

hat

Hungry after ______________

that

Can’t stay

Better

A little

Outside

A radio

No ads

Old song

love

Loss

She’s gone

Afraid I don’t matter

to any one

 

 

Shaking

Shaking

Shook

Inside

Walking

Sitting

lying

No place

for me tonight

the dreadful nightmare

visitor

Restlessness where I am

not stay still

A need to move too

much

too far

Infected

 

 

Hold i

 

I do

That’s frightening too

the morning will come

Hope I sleep before

or after

Needing attention

Afraid to be noticed

Want to be seen

Dizzy in this circle

Poor man

me his wife

for _______________

some of the time

Only

 

 

Yoga mat

near the bed

Waits for morning

upon up in

Away from him

sun

din of streets

Head Noise

talk noise

Noise of subway

getting away

Under ground

_______________ sound

Rumbling

tumbling

The the night is here

 

 

Simple descriptions

 

Eviscerating these pictures

from their negatives

from a future

____________ remain

_____________

to interpretation

too broad for focus

unclear in memory

Confusing

Arbitrary

Sad sentimental

Can only be piled

lost in the camera

Of a ___________ room

 

 

Grabbed if to play

I didn’t know

That he was

A pretty good Grandfather

 

 

Grandpa Louis

a cheerful Sloppy

Whiskered smelly old

man

Would hold my hand

On Rivington St

We’d walk to the corner

he bought me Spaulding red

Pink right size rubber

Balls high __________

Turkish toffee

Whatever I wanted

Went upstairs on the back

_____________ for tea lemon

soft rolls honey cake

the cat jumped for the string

 

 

Wait awhile

get away

Next week might Be Better

 

 

In design computer

 

I am sick of constant goodness

too much anger stops the throat

too much love

waters the bowels

I know it is the only hole to fall

through

A good distraction at the start

A cloying disinfectant gone too far

May Be the only way out

Once escaped my head moves like

the owl

Can see around

All _______________

Collapsed

_____________

 

 

Surprise

Happy to be home

Feeling safe

light

Over the wanting what is

sick

Good choices

Which happen outside

Better than the wanted

choice

Better than perfect

is this peaceful home

 

 

Friends have melted

Youth Fled

Hope dead

I will call a friend

Do some work

the sky will brighten

 

 

What he thought was an

infection is a bruise

What I think is sickness

is tension

What I see s twenty is

ten

Or ten as twenty

All about how lonely I am

Thid morning of gay sunshine

is dismal

this kind man

getting on my nerves

the pleasure of art

Drudgery

A helpful pretty neighbor

s bore

How thwarted I am

G-D Please Bring ______________

Comfort to Sharon alone

In Philadelphia

One Child South

One West

One Here with my

Alone also

A good family

Close

Miles away

Place Grant ___________

enough to go

All the way round

This is the prayer today

Hold the tears

Bring forth the Christ

 

 

Beautiful at 7 AM

the radio soft in back

Rough NY accents __________ talk passing

words closer

Next table

Small Park trees sky building

truck rumble outside

window

well cooked

Kindly served Eggs toast

Coffee Juice on this big

table

Comfy Booth

Friday morning

With G-D’s help

A perfect sunny Friday

Soft song

when I can sit here in light

Drink orange juice all

Enjoying the ____________ of ___________

 

Canned juice

No way it’s fresh

Still

With half Ice water

in this calming place

I enjoy

NY talk

Enjoy

Enough for today

Osho Yoga

Going Back home where I never

was the first time

 

 

Two men

One Bigger

Loving man’s man talk

____________ face

Graying full hair

Big thickening body

All good

A table away

the small less sparkly pays

breakfast

the other angry faced

still a _________ ___ ___________

Strong song

Bit of puff in the words

Radio in back

Why a movie in a dark theatre

Easing to the __________ Booth

away

Opposite bodies

Late middle age

Generic Break fast

Opens the half & half

Pick up filtered coffee

Slight gay lisp

Shocks friend eyes looks out &

down

Sits in stop

Soon I will stand & go

Good Good morning

Have a good Day

 

 

Each to her own comfort

__________ _____ ______ self then

others

scrubbed Back couple

Both smooth Beautiful ordinary

Eyes lock

Private in these Public booths

Each complete

Different spots

Conversation

1, 2, 3, 4,

Intact

Separate

Focused Natural

Me in far front

Near the door & outside Here

Please this Plenty

 

 

Traverse the park

Past these ________

 

At great cost

This is as ugly Showy

Showy ugly

Impossibly possible ugly

½ Block

From Beautiful Central Park

Low of profit

Fast return on money

Usual good investment

 

The difference Between a calm

day

One on edge

Is that any good pressure stays

normal in happy days

Speeds up to leave

Sad thoughts behind

 

 

Gathering this day

Running the hours

In front of my eyes

Staying outside

Safe with Manny

In Theresa’s Polish Restaurant

A good white borscht with kielbasa

small cheese blintzes

1/3rd

Inside my stomach

Will have a second

Decaf tea

See __________

Breathe out

Yoga

Am lady Breath Coming

 

 

Every part

Full up

Pus in the head

Dark over the eyes

Complaints from a mouth

this is a ____________

Caught in a wakeful sleep

_________ _________ stupid

An Automation with

Smart eyes

Sharp ears

A numb mind

Won’t shut down

Keeps on shattering

 

 

this free floating is coming up

Fragmented

At least I will go slow

Keep to outside intact

Till the rest regroups

 

 

Bad oatmeal

Loud men

No glasses

Writing near the line

Cannot read this

Maybe with glasses I can

Later is soon enough

Tomorrow I check my health

Change my plans

Miss my glasses

 

too bad

I like to talk to Paul

Now he’s not there

Hung over all the time

Must recheck everything

Forgetting too much

the __________ anchors have

Broken away

 

Selling out the company

no problem

Selling us out

that’s an argument

A we don’t know what’s

going to happen

we know what’s happening

__________ for now in

the

 

 

Even the smell of their

Bathroom is pleasant in its

familiarity

I look in the mirror

think how pretty

Not too hungry

Hungry enough

In this home serving __________

Back from a happy

family weekend

sons

Grandson

No daughter

No daughter-in-law

Husband kind

this adds up

Glad to be home

 

 

___________ have to keep smiling

Keep saying yes

Polite silence

is OK on Both sides

 

 

No thanks

It’s good

I can smile

in bright lite

Black gay talk across the room

All OK

Not me alone

in the dark

At home

Alone

Circle thinking

No start or end

I’m there no way out

Out the door

thinking _________

Now not here

in other words loud clear

 

 

Morelia, Michoacán

 

Cuernavaca, Morelos

 

 

From a

Who are you

to an OK sure

Loan of a Pencil

An antidepressant sitting on

a dark chilly afternoon

Bruno’s Coffee Shop

Tuesday at 5:15

Pause in the newspaper

All dull anyway

taking a cue from my heart

turn a corner

With Pencil & notebook

hearing this on the page

_________ the _________

_________ lightly today

 

 

__________ wanted

trust in G-d

Better than I am

unsolved

Not needy

Here

 

 

Sitting there in the dark

Sad here

All around

Inside

Mean angry daughter

Angry cold stupid granddaughter

What am I wanting for

It’s done

I’m done out there

Might as well move out

With heart pride pushed in

intact still

Just

true to leave this story

Leave a space

Weeds are better than poise

Patience is needed

 

( Arya Niwas )

 

 

( Connaught Pl )

Jukaso Inn

around the corner

from Nirulas

Near Sundar Nagar

mkt there are

Many hotel/guesthouse

mag

for events

luxury bus from

Rajastan house to

________ (Mercedes only)

 

Done