first snow 2/27/23
I stay at my grandparent's overnight… I always did growing up. Usually, I would sleep on the couch in the living room, and grandpa put chairs for me. She was always afraid I might fall in the middle of the night (even though I always slept by the wall. She’s sick and has a fever, and I get up throughout the night every time she coughs (in case if I need to raise her); then I measure oxygen levels. And then I can’t fall asleep at all or fall asleep at 6 am for another hour. The room that had a fish tank and rugs on the floor now missing all that, and it makes me feel cold. Then time to time, when my strength leaves me, I just want to cover my face and drown in my tears. God, how unbearable it is to be where you grew up and had all those happy moments & memories and to know they will never be the same.
first snow 2/27/23
I stay at my grandparent's overnight… I always did growing up. Usually, I would sleep on the couch in the living room, and grandpa put chairs for me. She was always afraid I might fall in the middle of the night (even though I always slept by the wall. She’s sick and has a fever, and I get up throughout the night every time she coughs (in case if I need to raise her); then I measure oxygen levels. And then I can’t fall asleep at all or fall asleep at 6 am for another hour. The room that had a fish tank and rugs on the floor now missing all that, and it makes me feel cold. Then time to time, when my strength leaves me, I just want to cover my face and drown in my tears. God, how unbearable it is to be where you grew up and had all those happy moments & memories and to know they will never be the same.