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I have been mulling this problem over in my mind. used Creative Memories Garden Sunset and the font is orange juice and verdana.

 

Journaling:

Claudia was in a Mood. An introspective mood. She mulled over inside vs outside. Just because someone is beautiful on the outside does not mean they are beautiful inside.

 

the intrinsic versus the extrinsic

the inside versus the outside

the young versus the old

 

When I was young I wanted to feel confident, loved, cherished and a bunch of other feelings in ads and how people looked in them. I often did not feel these things inside and I was depressed. I was ugly according to school until I hit about the 7th grade, then I started to look good. I looked really beautiful, so I was model gorgeous, but not so happy, confident on the inside.When I was older I felt more confident, loved, cherished, and a bunch of other good things on the inside. But the outside was not model perfect and I walk around in my head with two tapes playing about how the intrinsic (inside) is good with good things like confidence, security, cherished as they are, but I have to push also for the outside to go back to the skinny, beautiful, whether I throw money or work at the problem as in surgery, clothes, working out and dieting.

 

This is a whole lot of chatter in my head trying to get the inside to match the outside. It is tiring.

 

 

 

Done