Detroitika - Tanner Jon A.
College Desk Buddies - Vol 2
well, the spring has come again. I don't really understand all the shit that happened this year. There was so much disgusting abeyance, worst in about 5 years, where I just couldn't bring myself to get started on even easy classwork.
The first semester was really disappointing. My classes were overwhelming and I didn't live up to them all as much as I wanted to, except for Imaging Science, which I went nuts over. I made an apartment switch for second semester, which improved my quality of life drastically. I had to do Physics this year, which I should be interested in but it just kills my love of math like no other learning setting. Except for electromagnetic radiation. <3.
A new... element of this year was that all the feels, encounters, and thoughts didn't build up to the sharp, worried pain that they did last year. Nah. This semester I'm genuinely rolling with life and it usually feels grand. I've been getting better about being genuine to people... letting secrets go, acting like what I feel like. I got a Partizan-Summer Gorka E and wore it as my winter jacket - windbreaker, something which I fantasized about doing for years, and it felt great to come out in camouflage without it falling into the tacky-stigma sort of wear that's always kept me from wearing any camo in public. What I'm trying to say is that I'm hiding less and less of myself and it's so relieving to cut the shit with... with nearly everyone I talk to.
I only have one more week of being just like this, a facet of personality which won't ever return after my housing - class setup is changed once my year ends. The best note I will leave behind is my recent Rogue One photo. It's almost exactly like Two Last Letters from last year. Each highlighted a hand-painted face which summarized a lot of how I felt in each semester. Two Last Letters captured my feelings from Maggot Brain and the album Echoes, while the Rogue One picture captured my feelings from The Stage and the album Strange Trails. In fact, it was originally going to be named "Hope my wheels don't abandon me now" and the description only the subsequent lyrics of The Stage, but with the other photo turning out so well, the mini-series worked better and I went with "What the Darkness Does" from Lord Huron's Meet Me in the Woods. Truly, there ain't language for the things I feel, but at least I can translate the imagination well into pictures of Lego. Oh god, this description is getting really bad. there there, reader. It's my last year of being a teenager. Maybe I'll become an emotionless twit once I turn 20 and then all the fun angst will dissipate then my life will be the move Office Space and eventually I'll get to have catharsis and smash a printer. ttthhhhhbbbt. I'm so happy with my job for this summer because it's exactly the opposite of that... good god, it's one of the most exciting things I could have dreampt up to do with my education. I was expecting some cubicle (or maybe worse, hipster agile scrum buzzwords) job in software, but nope, planes with cameras. Idk. I'll have just a few days with my complete collection of Lego this summer, then a very limited one, but I'll bring my heavy-duty customization supplies with me and a decent set of bricks. Got so many swords to do. Welp, once more, I'm uploading a huge embarrassing description. dark necessities and all that. I've got good uploads coming when I make it home!
College Desk Buddies - Vol 2
well, the spring has come again. I don't really understand all the shit that happened this year. There was so much disgusting abeyance, worst in about 5 years, where I just couldn't bring myself to get started on even easy classwork.
The first semester was really disappointing. My classes were overwhelming and I didn't live up to them all as much as I wanted to, except for Imaging Science, which I went nuts over. I made an apartment switch for second semester, which improved my quality of life drastically. I had to do Physics this year, which I should be interested in but it just kills my love of math like no other learning setting. Except for electromagnetic radiation. <3.
A new... element of this year was that all the feels, encounters, and thoughts didn't build up to the sharp, worried pain that they did last year. Nah. This semester I'm genuinely rolling with life and it usually feels grand. I've been getting better about being genuine to people... letting secrets go, acting like what I feel like. I got a Partizan-Summer Gorka E and wore it as my winter jacket - windbreaker, something which I fantasized about doing for years, and it felt great to come out in camouflage without it falling into the tacky-stigma sort of wear that's always kept me from wearing any camo in public. What I'm trying to say is that I'm hiding less and less of myself and it's so relieving to cut the shit with... with nearly everyone I talk to.
I only have one more week of being just like this, a facet of personality which won't ever return after my housing - class setup is changed once my year ends. The best note I will leave behind is my recent Rogue One photo. It's almost exactly like Two Last Letters from last year. Each highlighted a hand-painted face which summarized a lot of how I felt in each semester. Two Last Letters captured my feelings from Maggot Brain and the album Echoes, while the Rogue One picture captured my feelings from The Stage and the album Strange Trails. In fact, it was originally going to be named "Hope my wheels don't abandon me now" and the description only the subsequent lyrics of The Stage, but with the other photo turning out so well, the mini-series worked better and I went with "What the Darkness Does" from Lord Huron's Meet Me in the Woods. Truly, there ain't language for the things I feel, but at least I can translate the imagination well into pictures of Lego. Oh god, this description is getting really bad. there there, reader. It's my last year of being a teenager. Maybe I'll become an emotionless twit once I turn 20 and then all the fun angst will dissipate then my life will be the move Office Space and eventually I'll get to have catharsis and smash a printer. ttthhhhhbbbt. I'm so happy with my job for this summer because it's exactly the opposite of that... good god, it's one of the most exciting things I could have dreampt up to do with my education. I was expecting some cubicle (or maybe worse, hipster agile scrum buzzwords) job in software, but nope, planes with cameras. Idk. I'll have just a few days with my complete collection of Lego this summer, then a very limited one, but I'll bring my heavy-duty customization supplies with me and a decent set of bricks. Got so many swords to do. Welp, once more, I'm uploading a huge embarrassing description. dark necessities and all that. I've got good uploads coming when I make it home!