Detroitika - Tanner Jon A.
College Desk Buddy
Quick desc:
Made this Beryozka camo and Russian helmet a while ago, the green is Citadel paint and, as we know, Citadel's durability sucks. The KAR pouches are part of a commission for MMB.
Scary desc:
welp, this is the desk buddy I took with me after Spring Break, when I made the last photo. I really hope you guys enjoyed that. It's the only real art I feel I've put on here in a long time, something intended more for effect and thought than for showing off something I made to get basic social validation online. That is a lot of what we do, isn't it? That's exactly what this photo is. Let our peers slap a number on a creation of ours, and if it's a good number of faves, we can feel good about ourselves, get narcissistic ayyyy
Honestly I haven't been alright. With the girlfriend months ago went any semblance of regular in-depth discussion, you know, those conversations that are more than small talk, with some other intent than making the other person laugh, and of a failed idealogy built up over a couple years. Hell I have a different ex back home loudly slandering me with half-truths, the true parts of which are unfortunate, the untrue parts of which I am scared to learn the full capacity of, to all and sundry including my mother. Red flags are popping up all over the place to me. I'm dr|nking a little more than usual, I'm reverting to the affinity for Halo Reach's moody & badass ambiance that I held last time I was in a terrible emotional state, I spend a lot of time sleeping, I break down sometimes when I get to a private place after I see *the* one girl -- never a healthy idea to keep, always a false one -- and worst of all, I haven't been able to really, really release it all yet. The tears just haven't come.
What's weird is that this internally-driven feeling, unlike last time, isn't supported externally. It would be a lie to say that I'm at rock bottom because I keep having undeniably great days. I don't want to jinx that by writing it but like, shit. Classes are really hard but I'm learning really valuable stuff, and I'm enjoying social time -- and unavoidably having a lot more of it -- much more than earlier this year. I'm getting serious with coding computer-generated camouflage patterns, and guys, some of these patterns are gorgeous. The very best nights this semester have been when I've made breakthroughs in coding methods to produce the results I want, and when I'm done with my next one, I think I'm going to upload a composite photo of some samples of patterns I've created. I've successfully replicated the randomized checkerboard fractals of Marpat with irregular rectangles like the real pattern, among greater advancements, and this summer I hope to make advancements in macropattern generation to get results like the geometry that, surprisingly, Multicam, Pencott, and US4CEs sort of share.
So, I come to you all tonight somewhere in the middle of the elation and the tiredness. I'm getting super into The Witcher universe. Meddle by Pink Floyd, the whole album, is the best description of the state I'm in right now. (Best other meaningful songs discovered this semester - I highly recommend these - Maggot Brain by Funkadelic, Santeria by Sublime, Ride by Twenty One Pilots.)
I'm learning the science and math of camera and computer display color correction in one of my classes, fundamentals of human vision (which I will always be seeking to fool with my camouflage patterns) in another of my classes, and discussing really damn interesting war&PMC stuff in another. I'm even enjoying my mathematics course! Whoda thunk!
Anyway, I'll be home just a couple weeks from now, and boy, I have a flood of uploads and designs on projects for you all. I'll be working another food service job, this time feat. lots of highschool acquaintances, and hope that will keep me from becoming a hermit through the summer.
Ah here I am. At the end of writing my description. Woo. It's a big scary description. It's got taboo'd angsty stuff! Last time I did this was when the 10-best-figures bandwagon was going around. Should I upload this description at all? All it takes is a click on the Done button, and I look bad to you all, well, probably bad, hopefully relatable. Wooooo. Shouldn't do it. Should do it. Ah fek. Here we go kids GET SCHWIFTY I'M CLICKIN IT
College Desk Buddy
Quick desc:
Made this Beryozka camo and Russian helmet a while ago, the green is Citadel paint and, as we know, Citadel's durability sucks. The KAR pouches are part of a commission for MMB.
Scary desc:
welp, this is the desk buddy I took with me after Spring Break, when I made the last photo. I really hope you guys enjoyed that. It's the only real art I feel I've put on here in a long time, something intended more for effect and thought than for showing off something I made to get basic social validation online. That is a lot of what we do, isn't it? That's exactly what this photo is. Let our peers slap a number on a creation of ours, and if it's a good number of faves, we can feel good about ourselves, get narcissistic ayyyy
Honestly I haven't been alright. With the girlfriend months ago went any semblance of regular in-depth discussion, you know, those conversations that are more than small talk, with some other intent than making the other person laugh, and of a failed idealogy built up over a couple years. Hell I have a different ex back home loudly slandering me with half-truths, the true parts of which are unfortunate, the untrue parts of which I am scared to learn the full capacity of, to all and sundry including my mother. Red flags are popping up all over the place to me. I'm dr|nking a little more than usual, I'm reverting to the affinity for Halo Reach's moody & badass ambiance that I held last time I was in a terrible emotional state, I spend a lot of time sleeping, I break down sometimes when I get to a private place after I see *the* one girl -- never a healthy idea to keep, always a false one -- and worst of all, I haven't been able to really, really release it all yet. The tears just haven't come.
What's weird is that this internally-driven feeling, unlike last time, isn't supported externally. It would be a lie to say that I'm at rock bottom because I keep having undeniably great days. I don't want to jinx that by writing it but like, shit. Classes are really hard but I'm learning really valuable stuff, and I'm enjoying social time -- and unavoidably having a lot more of it -- much more than earlier this year. I'm getting serious with coding computer-generated camouflage patterns, and guys, some of these patterns are gorgeous. The very best nights this semester have been when I've made breakthroughs in coding methods to produce the results I want, and when I'm done with my next one, I think I'm going to upload a composite photo of some samples of patterns I've created. I've successfully replicated the randomized checkerboard fractals of Marpat with irregular rectangles like the real pattern, among greater advancements, and this summer I hope to make advancements in macropattern generation to get results like the geometry that, surprisingly, Multicam, Pencott, and US4CEs sort of share.
So, I come to you all tonight somewhere in the middle of the elation and the tiredness. I'm getting super into The Witcher universe. Meddle by Pink Floyd, the whole album, is the best description of the state I'm in right now. (Best other meaningful songs discovered this semester - I highly recommend these - Maggot Brain by Funkadelic, Santeria by Sublime, Ride by Twenty One Pilots.)
I'm learning the science and math of camera and computer display color correction in one of my classes, fundamentals of human vision (which I will always be seeking to fool with my camouflage patterns) in another of my classes, and discussing really damn interesting war&PMC stuff in another. I'm even enjoying my mathematics course! Whoda thunk!
Anyway, I'll be home just a couple weeks from now, and boy, I have a flood of uploads and designs on projects for you all. I'll be working another food service job, this time feat. lots of highschool acquaintances, and hope that will keep me from becoming a hermit through the summer.
Ah here I am. At the end of writing my description. Woo. It's a big scary description. It's got taboo'd angsty stuff! Last time I did this was when the 10-best-figures bandwagon was going around. Should I upload this description at all? All it takes is a click on the Done button, and I look bad to you all, well, probably bad, hopefully relatable. Wooooo. Shouldn't do it. Should do it. Ah fek. Here we go kids GET SCHWIFTY I'M CLICKIN IT