Chant Lyric
Deep Wound
www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjF9IqvXDjY
www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rd8VktT8xY
I have always believed in life that life is like a mirror to us.
People come into our lives to teach us, some we may perceive as our enemies in the moments of our betrayal or whatever pain this person has caused you. In time and with inner guidance and contemplation I know that those we perceive as our enemies are nothing more than ‘teachers’ in disguise to expose that part of us that is our deepest wounding.
The lessons are painful and these painful lessons are more profound, have a deeper impact dependent upon the depth of feelings we have for that person.
I was accused of being unforgiving and nothing could be further from the truth. I can forgive, but that does not mean I have to tolerate bad behavior from others when I have felt unfairly treated over and over again – everyone deserves a 2nd chance in life and throughout my life I have forgiven more times than most people have deserved and only ended up being betrayed, hurt over and over by the same people. There comes a time in life when you simply have to walk away, remove yourself from their life.
It does not mean you have not forgiven them, it simply means you honor yourself more.
I have fallen hard, because I loved too much, cared too much and it hurts. The kaleidoscope of emotions flood through me like a raging river that at times I feel like I am drowning in.
Love transcends the physical dimensional world and love resides inside of me like a volcano that is capable of erupting into a hot flow of sultry passion with the right man. It is glorious divine presence to have someone affect you so deeply that your love for them is beyond words and beyond comprehension at times. All I know is – it is magical, breathtaking and their happiness becomes your happiness.
To give expression to this Love inside of me is the greatest gift and the greatest blessing ever in life.
Never underestimate the feelings of others and the impact we each have on each other.
When I love it is for all eternity, Love is the most powerful of all emotions accept for the polar opposite – hate which is equally as powerful as Love but in such a toxic negative way.
No matter how hurtful a person has been, no matter how cruel my experiences of them may be, there is this part of me that will continue to hold a part of them inside my heart.
In time the pain and suffering subsides and you move on with your life. The journey is a slow one, because I feel too deeply and the love never dies for me. Yes I may go through negative emotions initially but these toxic feelings subside and all I feel is overwhelming love once more along with heartache.
It is as if all the wounds of the past of betrayal, loss & grief overwhelm me beyond comprehension.
I understand the learning I need to make –I have walked this road so often in my lifetime.
It is as if anything that is beautiful and good in my life is destroyed and ripped out from underneath me in this life.
I have learnt to shut down, withdraw for fear of every feeling so broken again. To shut down is the greatest tragedy of all – so in time you open up again, allow yourself to love again and give your all.
The wounding is deep and relates to my real life, but, this virtual world I have discovered so many times becomes a platform to mirror to you that which you need to heal in your real life.
At the same time – we never truly know who we are dealing within a virtual world.
You get back up in life and you find the courage to take small steps forward over and over again.
You once more find the dim light inside of yourself and through your understanding, patience with yourself - ignite that fire inside of you once more.
Our deepest yearning is to be loved and to be loved in return, it is a pretty simple desire but yet it seems to elude me over and over despite having experienced the most pure beautiful unconditional love that most never experience in a lifetime. I am blessed and cursed at the same time.
Because to live a life now and never experience that beautiful elixir of love again is a life not lived.
I am so tired of not living a life without that deep passionate love.
The worst part is to have tasted it again briefly to then have it taken away from you is the cruellest of cruel of life, or to discover it was just an illusion.
It is like being thirsty in a desert and nothing quenches your thirst
For now – the darkness overwhelms me inside that terrible dark vortex of anxiety, overwhelming emotions, confusion, heartache, most of all loss & grief.
Once more the deepest wounds have been cracked wide open.
What are my lessons through all of this is a constant question. I think I have got it in the past, but still these same experiences have once more hit me hard.
Learning to live with ‘what is’ as opposed to how we wish for things to be. But why taste this elixir once more for it to be ripped out from underneath you? This just torments me for now
It took me several years to heal after the last relationship that had gone to real life.
Just when I believed I had found my happy place in life – another deeply painful lesson comes along. It is as if it has opened up every wounding from the past.
The mysteries of being human continue to delude me. Perhaps my greatest lesson is the Buddha’s quote
Pain is inevitable – suffering is optional
And the root of suffering is attachment
It is difficult to love without attachment – perhaps that is the lesson that is needed right now.
Bless this mess and may I once more find the love and light inside of myself that feels so overshadowed by grief right now.
But then again grief is nothing more than the depth of love you have felt for someone.
Sometimes I wished I did not love so deeply.
For now it seems empty, painful & shallow to be in world and I take solace in using my emotions and energy into my flickr and creative works of others.
Life is a beautiful tragedy . . . Chant Lyric
Deep Wound
www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjF9IqvXDjY
www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rd8VktT8xY
I have always believed in life that life is like a mirror to us.
People come into our lives to teach us, some we may perceive as our enemies in the moments of our betrayal or whatever pain this person has caused you. In time and with inner guidance and contemplation I know that those we perceive as our enemies are nothing more than ‘teachers’ in disguise to expose that part of us that is our deepest wounding.
The lessons are painful and these painful lessons are more profound, have a deeper impact dependent upon the depth of feelings we have for that person.
I was accused of being unforgiving and nothing could be further from the truth. I can forgive, but that does not mean I have to tolerate bad behavior from others when I have felt unfairly treated over and over again – everyone deserves a 2nd chance in life and throughout my life I have forgiven more times than most people have deserved and only ended up being betrayed, hurt over and over by the same people. There comes a time in life when you simply have to walk away, remove yourself from their life.
It does not mean you have not forgiven them, it simply means you honor yourself more.
I have fallen hard, because I loved too much, cared too much and it hurts. The kaleidoscope of emotions flood through me like a raging river that at times I feel like I am drowning in.
Love transcends the physical dimensional world and love resides inside of me like a volcano that is capable of erupting into a hot flow of sultry passion with the right man. It is glorious divine presence to have someone affect you so deeply that your love for them is beyond words and beyond comprehension at times. All I know is – it is magical, breathtaking and their happiness becomes your happiness.
To give expression to this Love inside of me is the greatest gift and the greatest blessing ever in life.
Never underestimate the feelings of others and the impact we each have on each other.
When I love it is for all eternity, Love is the most powerful of all emotions accept for the polar opposite – hate which is equally as powerful as Love but in such a toxic negative way.
No matter how hurtful a person has been, no matter how cruel my experiences of them may be, there is this part of me that will continue to hold a part of them inside my heart.
In time the pain and suffering subsides and you move on with your life. The journey is a slow one, because I feel too deeply and the love never dies for me. Yes I may go through negative emotions initially but these toxic feelings subside and all I feel is overwhelming love once more along with heartache.
It is as if all the wounds of the past of betrayal, loss & grief overwhelm me beyond comprehension.
I understand the learning I need to make –I have walked this road so often in my lifetime.
It is as if anything that is beautiful and good in my life is destroyed and ripped out from underneath me in this life.
I have learnt to shut down, withdraw for fear of every feeling so broken again. To shut down is the greatest tragedy of all – so in time you open up again, allow yourself to love again and give your all.
The wounding is deep and relates to my real life, but, this virtual world I have discovered so many times becomes a platform to mirror to you that which you need to heal in your real life.
At the same time – we never truly know who we are dealing within a virtual world.
You get back up in life and you find the courage to take small steps forward over and over again.
You once more find the dim light inside of yourself and through your understanding, patience with yourself - ignite that fire inside of you once more.
Our deepest yearning is to be loved and to be loved in return, it is a pretty simple desire but yet it seems to elude me over and over despite having experienced the most pure beautiful unconditional love that most never experience in a lifetime. I am blessed and cursed at the same time.
Because to live a life now and never experience that beautiful elixir of love again is a life not lived.
I am so tired of not living a life without that deep passionate love.
The worst part is to have tasted it again briefly to then have it taken away from you is the cruellest of cruel of life, or to discover it was just an illusion.
It is like being thirsty in a desert and nothing quenches your thirst
For now – the darkness overwhelms me inside that terrible dark vortex of anxiety, overwhelming emotions, confusion, heartache, most of all loss & grief.
Once more the deepest wounds have been cracked wide open.
What are my lessons through all of this is a constant question. I think I have got it in the past, but still these same experiences have once more hit me hard.
Learning to live with ‘what is’ as opposed to how we wish for things to be. But why taste this elixir once more for it to be ripped out from underneath you? This just torments me for now
It took me several years to heal after the last relationship that had gone to real life.
Just when I believed I had found my happy place in life – another deeply painful lesson comes along. It is as if it has opened up every wounding from the past.
The mysteries of being human continue to delude me. Perhaps my greatest lesson is the Buddha’s quote
Pain is inevitable – suffering is optional
And the root of suffering is attachment
It is difficult to love without attachment – perhaps that is the lesson that is needed right now.
Bless this mess and may I once more find the love and light inside of myself that feels so overshadowed by grief right now.
But then again grief is nothing more than the depth of love you have felt for someone.
Sometimes I wished I did not love so deeply.
For now it seems empty, painful & shallow to be in world and I take solace in using my emotions and energy into my flickr and creative works of others.
Life is a beautiful tragedy . . . Chant Lyric