for myself.

as you probably already know, i don't have my camera. it needs to be fixed and it should take a month. it's been one week already and i miss taking pictures so much. today, as i was going from school, the sun was shining. after extremely long time. the sun showed it's face i barely remembered and it made me happy. first thought was-i wish i had my camera. and it made me sad that i didn't have it.

 

why should not having my camera make me sad? i still see what i see. and it should still make me happy. i realized i take pictures because i want to share them. that's also good, but i don't always take them for myself, i think of sharing it first. i feel like if i don't share a moment, it's meaningless. i don't want to. i want to experience it, without capturing it, without sharing it.

 

so this month, is for myself. i won't be sharing. i share so much sometimes. i won't take pictures of moments, of feelings. i will experience it, i will feel it, i will live it. and for once, i will keep the memory only in my heart, not in a picture, not in a blog post, not in sharing. it will be fully mine.

 

some moments just can't be captured, or shared, or said. it has to stay unknown to everyone, but the one whom it belongs to. this month belongs to me and my heart. sharing everything with Him, in different ways than photography this time.

 

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also, i have photoshop. and i have no idea how to use it, i seriously suck. i hope to get better. picnik was so easy to use and i had my way of editing. it's hard to get used to something new, but i hope to fall in love with it soon. if you have any tips, i'd be happy to hear them.

 

this will be replaced or reedited soon.

 

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