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Day 187: Insecure

Day 187/365

November 30, 2009

My insecurities. I honestly have SO many insecurities about my photography...which is why I keep reverting to means of photoshopping (or in my case GIMPing and Paint.neting).

 

I want to photograph truth.

 

I want to be able to upload pictures SOOC and have them be beautiful...stunning.

 

I'm sick of these insecurities.

 

And I feel like the only way to get over this hump is to get a new camera. But I'm not a good photographer to blame it on the camera. Honestly. So I get a new camera, great...if I can't be creative, learn lighting, and technique I'll be nothing.

 

And then I also blame it on the fact that I'm stuck in my dorm room with crappy lighting I can't control. I also have very few "props" to work with...

 

But in the end, it really is me. But I feel stuck...like I have no room for improvement with my camera or my setting right now.

 

Gah...

 

I'll keep up with the 365 because I've come too far to quit. I want to do this for myself...

 

TRF: I have decided to limit myself to one plate per meal (2 meals a day since I don't eat breakfast) and Patricia and I are going to the gym on the weekends.

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