AnicaAnscott
the girl and the fool
Most of the pieces I've created over the past four years convey my ongoing struggle with alcoholism/addiction and my ambivalence toward sobriety. A main reason I "picked up" during this time period (this piece is from January 2014) was because, after nearly 10 years of self-employment as a writer/editor (a job I absolutely adored and made good money doing), journalistic work was drying up dramatically, and I was losing hours to the point where I was faced with not only losing my apartment but having to consider returning to minimum-wage work. Losing the financial independence I'd worked my ass off to acquire throughout my late 20s and 30s was beyond devastating. Alcohol served almost as a sort of "protection" against this reality, granting me distance from the shock of it (albeit temporarily), and---more significantly---served as a defense against the parts of me that blamed me rather fiercely for my "failures" as an adult and believed I deserved punishment . . .
the girl and the fool
Most of the pieces I've created over the past four years convey my ongoing struggle with alcoholism/addiction and my ambivalence toward sobriety. A main reason I "picked up" during this time period (this piece is from January 2014) was because, after nearly 10 years of self-employment as a writer/editor (a job I absolutely adored and made good money doing), journalistic work was drying up dramatically, and I was losing hours to the point where I was faced with not only losing my apartment but having to consider returning to minimum-wage work. Losing the financial independence I'd worked my ass off to acquire throughout my late 20s and 30s was beyond devastating. Alcohol served almost as a sort of "protection" against this reality, granting me distance from the shock of it (albeit temporarily), and---more significantly---served as a defense against the parts of me that blamed me rather fiercely for my "failures" as an adult and believed I deserved punishment . . .