LOAD3 - i am

Another where I had the concept and the photo ready early, but couldn't execute until 11 pm and not sure it quite turned out like I had envisioned. But it's too late now, off to bed!

 

Legible journaling will go on back:

I am the woman behind the camera, because I don’t like having my picture taken...

 

I am the woman who occasionally hands the camera to my husband because someday he might just want to remember what I looked like (though he always manages to get butt shots or me putting food in my mouth, argh)

 

I am the woman who seldom speaks of her hopes and dreams because she’s not sure if she can handle the disappointment of failure.

 

I am the woman who is realizing that there are things I thought I had time for, but will probably never happen now. Most of those things are very physical. It’s more of a philosophical realization than a disappointment.

 

I am the woman who has never lived completely alone and on her own.

 

I am the woman who maintains the fantasy of running away from home and kids to live in a barn with horses. Or a tiny apartment in the city. I think this is related to the item above ; )

 

I am the woman who struggles constantly with focus/ADD issues which cause others to believe I’m just flaky. I have embraced the label and paired it with Artist. It works for me.

 

I am the woman who is finally realizing that she can be an artist without painting like a photo.

 

I am the woman who has trouble finishing a piece of art because I’m afraid I will mess it up right at the end.

 

I am the woman who is realizing that if you don’t share your hopes and dreams, others won’t be able to help you make them come true.

 

I am the woman who can’t wait until my children are old enough to hear about the trouble I got into in my teens and twenties. Don’t want to give them any ideas or permission right now!

 

 

Done