Plans

So, my portrait of today. I thought it was decent day, but there were things I wanted to get done that I ended up not even attempting... and then I realized that that all too often I never even get to things I want to get done. Sometimes people say that that is the mark of a perfectionist... that they never get out of the planning stages because everything needs to be perfect... but I don't think that's it. I don't think I'm a perfectionist. A world class procrastinator, possibly. Yes, definitely. I avoid things that I don't like to do. I think. I plan. I come up with a plan and then decide that I really don't like the plan and it won't work for me. And then I tell myself that I should go to bed early, get a good night's sleep and get started tomorrow. When tomorrow comes, it is today... and you know how the rest of it plays out.

So, today, after being made aware of the fact that I said "I have no idea what is going on here" way too many times today... but, hey, procrastinator, or not... at least I'm honest and truly, I have no idea what is going on... I went home to avoid the things that needed to be done and ended up further obsessing about my complete inability to accomplish anything. I seem to think that I will one day miraculously find the means to get out of my own way and make great things happen. Yeah... until I realize that it's getting pretty late in the game and I am running out of time. So, I wonder when that will be. All of this worries me. I need to come up with a plan. But first... I'm just going to go to bed early and get a good night's sleep. (See a pattern here.... ?)

Done