The Colors of Winter
Stream of consciousness on a warm winter day...
Realizing that I am happiest driving away in my car, all by myself, with my camera, and my car full of props.... just in case I find the perfect spot (whatever and wherever that may be) ... even if it is only for an hour because there is a multitude of other things that I need to be doing ... and even though, my horoscope, as a Libra, tells me that I there is nothing I dislike more than being alone.... so UNTRUE.... and asked by someone if they could come along and see me set up my props and watch how "the process" works .... and me, wondering... WHAT Process?!! Doesn't everyone work this way?... and thinking that someone watching me do this is probably not going to work out well... and then... thinking that winter hasn't been all that bad... and there is beauty in the monochromatic dark months .... and wondering if the process of letting go applies to things...and people... and thoughts... and feelings ... and, yeah, I can do this ... Just when you think that maybe you are actually getting good at something... something else comes along to remind you that ... no, you're not all that good!! And why doesn't everyone have hobbies? And how can some people be perfectly satisfied just cleaning their house and cooking all day?... and why is there nothing hanging on their walls? And how can some people sit in front of the mind numbing TV for hours on end? I don't care how many channels they give you... there is still nothing worth watching. And if you don't work and you don't have hobbies, what the heck do you do all day? Much of the time, being alone is a good thing.... no one to ask annoying questions and talk your ears off. And silence IS golden. And, finally, ending the day, once again, with the realization that I have a LOT to learn, and I'm never going to live long enough to figure it all out. Yeah... it was a day of deep thoughts. I really should just keep these thoughts to myself.... tomorrow is another day. LOL!
The Colors of Winter
Stream of consciousness on a warm winter day...
Realizing that I am happiest driving away in my car, all by myself, with my camera, and my car full of props.... just in case I find the perfect spot (whatever and wherever that may be) ... even if it is only for an hour because there is a multitude of other things that I need to be doing ... and even though, my horoscope, as a Libra, tells me that I there is nothing I dislike more than being alone.... so UNTRUE.... and asked by someone if they could come along and see me set up my props and watch how "the process" works .... and me, wondering... WHAT Process?!! Doesn't everyone work this way?... and thinking that someone watching me do this is probably not going to work out well... and then... thinking that winter hasn't been all that bad... and there is beauty in the monochromatic dark months .... and wondering if the process of letting go applies to things...and people... and thoughts... and feelings ... and, yeah, I can do this ... Just when you think that maybe you are actually getting good at something... something else comes along to remind you that ... no, you're not all that good!! And why doesn't everyone have hobbies? And how can some people be perfectly satisfied just cleaning their house and cooking all day?... and why is there nothing hanging on their walls? And how can some people sit in front of the mind numbing TV for hours on end? I don't care how many channels they give you... there is still nothing worth watching. And if you don't work and you don't have hobbies, what the heck do you do all day? Much of the time, being alone is a good thing.... no one to ask annoying questions and talk your ears off. And silence IS golden. And, finally, ending the day, once again, with the realization that I have a LOT to learn, and I'm never going to live long enough to figure it all out. Yeah... it was a day of deep thoughts. I really should just keep these thoughts to myself.... tomorrow is another day. LOL!