marking the 11th of Rabu Thani - Urs Mubarik of Ghaus Pak (ra)

The Starts and Stops

 

As long as you believe things come to you from your own power and strength and you rely on that,

nothing will come to you from the Realm of the Unseen.

Ghaus Pak (ra)

 

When I studied tajweed, the rules of recitation of the Quran, a few years ago I only memorized the shorter surahs in the end. Then this Ramadan I memorized a longer one. It was Surah Yaseen. Well, almost! I’m shy a few verses. It had been suggested to me for eons but I had not been able to do it. Primarily out of laziness. But in all honesty I was not being granted the ability. Probably because of the laziness.

 

Last month, for the 12th of Rabbul Awal, I wrote a piece through which I learnt that, according to the Quran, the heart, as opposed to the mind, is the seat of intellect and understanding. Just as I continued to learn it, I had also been reciting the Surah Yaseen every day so I didn’t forget it. Now each time I came to the following verse, the thought of the uncomprehending heart crossed my mind.

 

لِّيُنذِرَ مَن كَانَ حَيًّۭا َ

 

It warns those who are alive (of heart) – Surah Yaseen, Verse 70

 

So I knew. The state of my heart was the reason why my spiritual journey was in endless starts and stops. I knew the starts came when I followed the Friends of God. I wanted to uncover the root of the stops. What was making me also not obey them? I asked my teacher, Qari Sahib, to devote a class to it.

 

He began with a verse from Az-Zumar, The Troops.

 

أَفَمَن شَرَحَ ٱللَّهُ صَدْرَهُۥ لِلْإِسْلَـٰمِ فَهُوَ عَلَىٰ نُورٍۢ مِّن رَّبِّهِۦ ۚ

فَوَيْلٌۭ لِّلْقَـٰسِيَةِ قُلُوبُهُم مِّن ذِكْرِ ٱللَّهِ ۚ

أُو۟لَـٰٓئِكَ فِى ضَلَـٰلٍۢ مُّبِينٍ

 

Is the one whose heart God has opened to submit to Him with willingness so he is illuminated by a light from His Lord (the same as the one whose heart rejects God)?

 

So woe unto those whose hearts are hardened against remembrance of Allah.

 

They are clearly lost in error – Surah Az-Zumar, Verse 22

 

“So what is happening here?” Qari Sahib began. “The light from Allah is for the one who surrenders willingly. Islam is submission yes but it is submission with a willingness that matters to God.”

 

“Jo marzi se aaye,” is what he said exactly. “The one who comes wanting to.” It reminded me of a lecture by Uzair I had just finished hearing. He had touched on the same subject so to speak, willingness, but from the opposing angle, refusal. When it was allowed and when it bore penalty.

 

Uzair’s lecture was titled “Quran, Hadith and Hadith Qudsi.” It was one of the best lectures I have heard in my life. I thought I already knew how to define the three but he put it so concisely I was reminded of the words “fasahat” and “balaghat” – the deepest meaning expressed in the least number of words. It was one of the gifts bestowed upon Nabi Kareem (peace be upon him) by his Lord.

 

‏ أُعْطِيتُ مَفَاتِيحَ الْكَلِمِ، وَنُصِرْتُ بِالرُّعْبِ، وَبَيْنَمَا أَنَا نَائِمٌ الْبَارِحَةَ

إِذْ أُتِيتُ بِمَفَاتِيحِ خَزَائِنِ الأَرْضِ حَتَّى وُضِعَتْ فِي يَدِي ‏

 

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said, “I have been given the keys of eloquent speech and given victory with awe (cast into the hearts of the enemy), and while I was sleeping last night, the keys of the treasures of the Earth were brought to me till they were put in my hand.”

 

I memorized Uzair’s definitions: “The Quran, Hadith and hadith Qudsi, all three are the kalam, the spoken word, of the Prophet (peace be upon him). I want to tell you the differences between the three for they are subtle.

 

Let’s start with the Quran: the ilm (knowledge) is Allah’s, the topics (mazameen) are chosen by Him and it is His Words (alfaaz).

 

In hadith the ilm is still Allah’s, the words and topics are chosen by the Prophet (peace be upon him) and the thought is the Prophet’s (peace be upon him).

 

For Hadith Qudsi, the knowledge is again Allah’s, the topic is also chosen by Allah but the words are those of Mustafa (peace be upon him).

 

So the weight, the significance, of the Quran and the Hadith Qudsi is in fact the same. The only difference is in the words. Allah chooses them in the former, Huzoor chooses them in the latter on behalf of Allah.”

 

Midway through his lecture, Uzair touched on refusal while giving the reason people were going to be sent to Heaven or Hell.

 

“Allah uses polarity, opposites, to describe the signs of the two groups of people. He says, ‘If you don’t want to land in Hell, don’t do these two things; don’t be arrogant and don’t be unjust. And if you want to go to Heaven, be humble to the point of appearing weak and don’t be of those who exert power over others.’”

 

Then he delved into the idea of pride. I knew it was the fountainhead of all sin for it was the first sin. Iblis had refused to obey the Command to bow before the Prophet Adam (as) out of pride. Uzair explained the nuances within the concept of refusal using his example. Refusal was allowed in the faith. Or perhaps expected. It was just when it was soaked in pride that it brought God’s Wrath upon one.

 

“When Allah created the Universe, He wanted to give His Trust (amana’t) to it and He asked if there was a taker. For it was a burden.

 

إِنَّا عَرَضْنَا ٱلْأَمَانَةَ عَلَى ٱلسَّمَـٰوَٰتِ وَٱلْأَرْضِ وَٱلْجِبَالِ فَأَبَيْنَ أَن يَحْمِلْنَهَا وَأَشْفَقْنَ مِنْهَا وَحَمَلَهَا ٱلْإِنسَـٰنُ ۖ إِنَّهُۥ كَانَ ظَلُومًۭا جَهُولًۭا

 

Indeed, We offered the burden of Trust to the heavens and the earth and the mountains,

but they refused to bear it and they feared from it but bore it Man. Indeed, he was unjust and foolish – Surah Al-Ahzab, Verse 72

 

‘But they refused,’ the verse says. But did Allah become angry with them? Did he destroy them? No. It is only when the refusal is tinged with arrogance that Allah becomes angry. When Allah asked Iblis why he wouldn’t bow, He even told him that Adam was different from all other Creation.

 

قَالَ يَـٰٓإِبْلِيسُ مَا مَنَعَكَ أَن تَسْجُدَ لِمَا خَلَقْتُ بِيَدَىَّ ۖ أَسْتَكْبَرْتَ أَمْ كُنتَ مِنَ ٱلْعَالِينَ

 

He said, “O Iblis! What prevented you that you don’t prostrate to whom I created with My Hands? Are you arrogant or are you of the exalted ones?” – Surah As-Sad, Verse 75

 

For everything else came into being because Allah said a word, ‘Kun.’ Be and ‘fayakun,’ it is! But in the case of human beings, He says He made him with His Hands. Which He doesn’t have but it is to set his creation apart from all else.

 

But Iblis responded, ‘You made me from fire and him from earth.’”

 

Uzair ended the point on this note: “Human beings are in a state of refusing God all day along. If we were punished for it each time, existence would not be possible. It is refusal with arrogance which causes all goodness to become null in an instant. Be it ours or Iblis’ countless years of worship.”

 

Qari Sahib had once shed light on the daily aspects of pride’s interference in one’s life unforgettably. He was relating one of his favourite incidents from his years in the Madrassa.

 

“My teacher used to tell us this story of Hazrat Mujjadid al Fisani (ra), a Master of the Naqshbandi path, and his advice to a young man.

 

So he said to his disciple, “Rabb na bani te rasool na bani.” (Don’t become God and don’t become a Prophet!)

 

The student’s jaw dropped with amazement as did mine.

 

“How can I possible ever think to become God or a Prophet?” he exclaimed.

 

“You will see you do it all the time,” Hazrat Mujjadid al Fasani (ra) replied.

 

Then he went on to explain. “‘Whatever I want should happen’ – human beings start thinking like that but it is only Allah Subhan Ta’ala whose Will always prevails. ‘Whoever denies me is munkir, is kafir, the denier of truth’ becomes a regular response, covert if not overt, in times of disagreements but only a Prophet of God can claim thus.”

 

The words were striking. Everyone seemed to want what they wanted to happen all the time. More and more since instant gratification was becoming the norm. I wonder if that contributed to people’s distance from the Afterlife. It was so far away. Who cared what happened then. I confess I found myself in category two most of the time. Nothing I wanted ever came about so I had let go of that. It was the contradiction to ideas that in all fairness weren’t mine but those I had studied, by those who knew nothing most of the time that made me think of them as munkirs and kafirs. It happened instantly and it felt infuriating.

 

Going back to the lecture, Qari Sahib quoted another verse to explain the first one about the heart and willingness.

 

“Let’s go back a step. What is necessary to accept Islam willingly, to surrender one’s self to Allah?” He answered the question himself through the Quran. “Guidance!”

 

فَمَن يُرِدِ ٱللَّهُ أَن يَهْدِيَهُۥ يَشْرَحْ صَدْرَهُۥ لِلْإِسْلَـٰمِ ۖ

 

And whoever God wills to guide, He opens wide his breast to self-surrender (unto Him).

– Surah Al-An’am, Verse 125

 

“Note the sequence in the verse: First comes the Will of Allah (irada) to guide, then He opens the heart to surrender to Him. Then light enters it and it is no longer dark.”

 

I mapped it for clarity: Will – guidance – light!

 

مَا كُنتَ تَدْرِى مَا ٱلْكِتَـٰبُ وَلَا ٱلْإِيمَـٰنُ وَلَـٰكِن جَعَلْنَـٰهُ نُورًۭا نَّهْدِى بِهِۦ

مَن نَّشَآءُ مِنْ عِبَادِنَا ۚ

 

You did not know what the Book was nor the faith but We have made it a light whereby we guide whom We will of Our Servant – Surah Ash-Shu’ra, Verse 52

 

“But why did it become dark in the first place, the heart?” I asked. Was it simply the reverse? No guidance was received because Allah did not will it? What was my role then? That was what concerned me all the time.

 

I was in a continual effort these days to curb my over the top reactions to two categories of people in my life; the ignorant and the sad. Both were unaware of their states. I was acutely aware of mine. Yet my response towards them remained unchanging. It was frustrating. They both drove me nuts. One would think my cognizance of the differences between us would render me some control but my nafs was overpowering. I was desperate to hone in on what aspect of my nafs was so overwhelmingly, enshrouding me so completely. After all “the evil that befell me was my own doing.”

 

“The heart is dark because of the absence of light.” Qari Sahib repeated what he had told me often before. “Where is the nur?”

 

يَـٰٓأَيُّهَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُوا۟ ٱتَّقُوا۟ ٱللَّهَ وَءَامِنُوا۟ بِرَسُولِهِۦ يُؤْتِكُمْ كِفْلَيْنِ مِن رَّحْمَتِهِۦ

وَيَجْعَل لَّكُمْ نُورًۭا تَمْشُونَ بِهِۦ

وَيَغْفِرْ لَكُمْ ۚ وَٱللَّهُ غَفُورٌۭ رَّحِيمٌۭ

 

O ye who believed! Remain conscious of God and believe in His Messenger (peace be upon him) and He will grant you doubly of His Mercy.

 

And He will make for you a (nur) light, you will walk with it.

 

And He will forgive you. For Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful – Surah Al-Hadid, Verse 28

 

“Where was my nur?” I thought.

 

In the Surah At-Taghabun translated as The Haggling, The Cheating, The Mutual Disillusion, Ghaus Pak (ra) explains why something goes right and why it goes wrong.

 

هُوَ ٱلَّذِى خَلَقَكُمْ فَمِنكُمْ كَافِرٌۭ وَمِنكُم مُّؤْمِنٌۭ ۚ

وَٱللَّهُ بِمَا تَعْمَلُونَ بَصِيرٌ

 

It is He who created you. Yet some of you deny the truth and some of you believe in it.

 

And Allah sees all that you do – Surah At-Taghabun, Verse 2

 

In his tafseer (exegesis of the Quran) I found my answer as to why Allah limits ability (taufeeq) for some and renders them without guidance and therefore without light. Ability is confined to kufr, limited to hiding or denying the truth. either because we are inspired by Iblis’ whisperings or succumbing to the desires of our own ego, the nafs. Both of which veil a person from the sun of the reality of Truth.

 

That day I let two words from the beginning of Qari Sahib’s last verse addressed to the believers spin in my head. To be counted amongst them, one had to be a possessor of taqwa and imaan according to the Arabic in the verse. I was familiar with both.

 

Begin excerpt The Softest Heart

 

The exalted category of the Mo’mineen in Mankind, the believers, are in fact unknown to each other and even to themselves. Most people confuse being of the believers with simply being Muslim. It is critical to understand there is a significant difference. Becoming a Muslim, at least overtly, only requires the utterance of a single line, the Kalima Tauheed (Declaration of One-ness of God):

 

لَآ اِلٰهَ اِلَّا اللّٰهُ مُحَمَّدٌ رَّسُوْلُ اللّٰهِؕ

 

There is no God but Allah and Muhammad (peace be upon him) is His Messenger.

 

That’s it! Entering the religion, Islam, has this sole marker. Anyone Muslim who has ever had a female friend or relative marrying outside the faith knows that the utterance of that one line by the to-be spouse is desperately sought by the family.

 

Imaan on the other hand, faith, has no measures that a human can apply and then tick off. For themselves or anyone else! It lies inside the heart where only one has access, its Creator. In the Quran, all the verses in which those who Allah decrees possess imaan start in the same way. Allah calls out to them:

 

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا

 

Ya Ayyoha-Alladina Amino.

 

O Ye who believed!

O Ye who attained to faith!

 

Since everything about the language and the Book pivots on precision, what Allah Ar-Rahman, The Beneficent, says in each of these verses and in what order becomes supremely significant. I decided to study the first address for it would then be the most so.

 

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا لَا تَقُولُوا رَاعِنَا

وَقُولُوا انظُرْنَا وَاسْمَعُوا ۗ وَلِلْكَافِرِينَ عَذَابٌ أَلِيمٌ

 

O Ye who believed! Say not (to Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him)), "Ra'ina" but say, "Unthurna" and listen. And for the Disbelievers is a painful punishment - Surah Al-Baqarah, verse 104

 

With Qari Sahib, I read three tafaseer (exegesis of the Quran) of the verse by Imam Razi, Naeemi and Tibyan al Quran to understand what Allah Al-Quddus, The Most Sacred, was saying in this, His First Saying to the Believers. I discovered the following:

 

“At the time of the first sermons of the Prophet (peace be upon him), some of the Muslims used to use the word Ra’ina which means, “Please excuse us while we understand.” In essence they were asking for more time, leeway, in coming about to his Message. Some of the Jews, when speaking to the Prophet (peace be upon him) started using a word from the Hebrew, also sounding like Rai’na, that was disrespectful and lacking regard. The meaning of that word is to “Hear and be not heard.” Taking advantage of the word being used by the Muslims, they laughed amongst themselves in having the opportunity to mock the Prophet (peace be upon him).

 

One day, upon hearing the utterance from them, Hazrat Saad Bin Muaz (ratu) cursed those who used it and warned them that if he heard the word from their mouths again, he would cut off their necks. They retorted that the Muslims used the word as well so why didn’t he go and kill them. In this moment the verse was revealed:

 

O you who believed, say not (to Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him)), ‘Ra'ina’ but say, ‘Unthurna’ and listen. And for the Disbelievers is a painful punishment.”

 

Majestically, Allah Al-Muhaymin, The Preserver of Safety, steps in for the Prophet (peace be upon him), ending the charade for anyone who claimed at least to believe, by forbidding the address altogether, giving its replacement instead, Unthurna.

 

Thus, the first time Allah directly speaks to His Creation (and those of us who aspire to be counted amongst the Believers one day), He clearly delineates two things: the mark of the Believer is regard for His Beloved (peace be upon him) and anyone deviating from a show of respect for him, compulsory, is deserving of a painful punishment.

 

The following verse from the Quran explains the idea exactly:

 

مِّنَ الَّذِينَ هَادُوا يُحَرِّفُونَ الْكَلِمَ عَن مَّوَاضِعِهِ

وَيَقُولُونَ سَمِعْنَا وَعَصَيْنَا وَاسْمَعْ غَيْرَ مُسْمَعٍ

وَرَاعِنَا لَيًّا بِأَلْسِنَتِهِمْ وَطَعْنًا فِي الدِّينِ ۚ

وَلَوْ أَنَّهُمْ قَالُوا سَمِعْنَا وَأَطَعْنَا وَاسْمَعْ وَانظُرْنَا لَكَانَ خَيْرًا لَّهُمْ

وَأَقْوَمَ وَلَٰكِن لَّعَنَهُمُ اللَّهُ بِكُفْرِهِمْ فَلَا يُؤْمِنُونَ إِلَّا قَلِيلًا

 

Among those of the Jewish faith are they who distort words from their (proper) usages and say, "We hear and disobey" and "Hear but be not heard" and "Ra'ina," twisting their tongues and defaming the religion.

 

And if they had said (instead), "We hear and obey" and "Wait for us (to understand)," it would have been better for them and more suitable. But Allah has cursed them for their disbelief, so they believe not, except for a few - Surah An-Nisa, Verse 46

 

The verse serves another purpose, hugely significant.

 

If from a good act can arise something evil, then to avoid the evil, leave the supposed good act.

 

وَلَا تَسُبُّوا الَّذِينَ يَدْعُونَ مِن دُونِ اللَّهِ فَيَسُبُّوا اللَّهَ عَدْوًا بِغَيْرِ عِلْمٍ ۗ

 

And do not insult those they (the Disbelievers) invoke other than Allah, lest they insult Allah in enmity without knowledge - Surah Al-An’am, Verse 108

 

Thus, in the first verse of 89 verses beginning with O Ye who believed, Allah Al-Hafiz, The Guarding One, sets the foundation of all relationships for humanity as well. Respect is the essential ingredient. Manners and therefore behavior are the manifestation of it. In the absence of either, nothing else is sustainable, least of all love. No other emotion, no matter how pure, can carry a relationship forward without regard, without a sensitivity for the state of another’s heart.

 

As far as teaching His Creation something Himself, Allah Al-Wakeel, The Universal Trustee, in His first lesson commands regard for His Beloved Messenger (peace be upon him) and nothing for Himself per se. Not piety or generosity or patience or gratitude, not softness or kindness, not prayer or any other ritual of worship that He solely receives. The first step in obedience, in being considered a person of faith before Him, is respect for His Beloved (peace be upon him).

 

End Excerpt The Softest Heart

 

And so the verses addressing the “believers” continue one by one, some extremely easy to abide to, others much more difficult. Taqwa had its own layering:

 

Begin excerpt The Softest Heart

 

I understood that it was the lack of purification (tazkiya) that separated my zahir overt from my baatin, inner being, occupying the giant abyss that prohibited the union of the two. There seemed to be two aspects to it. The tafseer of Surah An-Nas allowed me to focus on not just being acutely aware of what they were but of their cleansing: the erasure of the doubts and the paranoia, the elimination of irrational fear. Then my thoughts, my intentions which governed my deeds would emanate from a single point. There would be fusion of the overt and the hidden. Once the clouds of doubt were lifted, then perhaps knowledge could become manifest in deed, not just remain isolated in my head.

 

I came upon the second aspect of tazkiya in a lecture by Uzair. He explained that according to hikmat, wisdom, there are five main motivators of actions for a human being: need, desire, lust, emotion and finally, the soul. They lie in a pyramid-like structure and the layering begins with need forming the base of the pyramid. Then comes desire which dominates need. Then is lust which over-rides desire. Fourth is emotion which prevails over the other three: lust, desire and need. Atop all of them is the soul. If one gains access to it, and it’s a big if, the soul over-rides everything else. That is nirvana!

 

Uzair explained that all humans experienced all four states of need, desire, lust and emotion while alive. Suppressing them entirely was not possible. On top of that I read that ending a desire was itself a desire, hence desire could never be gotten rid of entirely by one’s own self! What was needed was for the four variables to be in a state of balance, to exist within limits, a hadd. I was reminded again of the verses in the Quran endlessly pointing to the ones who only indulge every whim and emotion and remain stuck in a perpetual state of darkness. The punishment was severe: obedience of indulgence rendered one undeserving of aid from where it was essential, God.

 

وَكَذَٰلِكَ أَنزَلْنَاهُ حُكْمًا عَرَبِيًّا ۚ

وَلَئِنِ اتَّبَعْتَ أَهْوَاءَهُم بَعْدَمَا جَاءَكَ مِنَ الْعِلْمِ مَا لَكَ مِنَ اللَّهِ مِن وَلِيٍّ وَلَا وَاقٍ

 

Thus have We revealed it, a decisive utterance in Arabic, and if you should follow their desires after that which has come unto you of knowledge, then truly would you have from Allah no protecting friend nor defender - Surah Ar-Ra’d, Verse 37

 

Hence was made clear that the one who made their likes and dislikes their master, their gods, became incapable of receiving guidance. The thought made me shudder. My weakness predominantly lay in the fourth rung: my emotions were usually running abound unchecked, indulged by me to no end.

 

فَإِن لَّمْ يَسْتَجِيبُوا لَكَ فَاعْلَمْ أَنَّمَا يَتَّبِعُونَ أَهْوَاءَهُمْ

 

If they do not respond to you (O Beloved (peace be upon you)), then know that they follow only their own desires - Surah Al-Qassas, Verse 50

 

For the one who was on a path of spirituality, the dominance of the soul over the rest was the ultimate goal. Listening to the soul, doing what it says, what it wants, that was the way to live in order to be close to Allah Al-Haqq, The One who is the Truth. For the soul was in a permanent state of attachment to Him.

 

فَإِذَا سَوَّيْتُهُ وَنَفَخْتُ فِيهِ مِن رُّوحِي فَقَعُوا لَهُ سَاجِدِينَ

 

And when I have formed him fully and breathed into him of My Spirit, fall, you (the angels), down before him in prostration! - Surah As-Sad, Verse 72

 

Uzair explained that to control need, desire, lust and emotion one had to exercise refraining. And that ceasing from obedience to the motivators of action, that was taqwa. It was to safeguard oneself from what is deemed harmful as well as forbidden, both in physical action as well as in thought. The one who practices taqwa is the Muttaqi whose status is the highest in the Quran. The first verse of the first Surah, Al-Baqarah, states exactly that:

 

ذَٰلِكَ الْكِتَابُ لَا رَيْبَ ۛ فِيهِ ۛ هُدًى لِّلْمُتَّقِينَ

 

This Divine Writ, let there be no doubt about it is (meant to be) a guidance for all the God-conscious (the Muttaqeen) - Surah Al-Baqarah, Verse 2

 

Seems strange to be told something in the very beginning and only get to it in the end! Since, as previously stated, the order of the verses form their significance, guidance from the Quran was only set aside for those who attempted to check their motivators of action thus tapping into the soul.

 

For that rendered them to be receptors of guidance.

 

وَالَّذِينَ اهْتَدَوْا زَادَهُمْ هُدًى وَآتَاهُمْ تَقْوَاهُمْ

 

And for those who are (willing to be) guided, He increases their (ability to follow His) Guidance and causes them to grow in their consciousness of God - Surah Muhammad, Verse 17

 

But I knew taqwa could not be rooted in fear, the word it is translated into most often. Taqwa could only come about from a state of awareness of God that wanted to increase.

 

In that state of resonance with The Divine, far from being a driving force, the fear of retribution, of punishment and Hell was absent altogether. In any case, fear was too easily ignored at will. Indulgence easily and almost always prevailed over it. It could also not be about living a life devoid of sin. Who amongst us was sure they would never commit any kind of wrongdoing ever again? It wasn’t even possible.

 

From all I read and heard, taqwa was being in a state of sincere consciousness of God, a consciousness which caused one to feel ashamed to disappoint Him, to feel ungrateful to go against that which Allah Ar-Rahman, The Most Beneficent, willed. But if it wasn’t fear then what would become the reason to abandon one’s own will for His? I discovered that it would be the awareness, the ability, to be informed about the source of one’s own wellbeing.

 

The only sustainable cause to give up that which was a source of pleasure once, despite being harmful, despite being forbidden, was to differentiate between one’s state of peace and calm versus one of anxiety and distress as result of it. Only when the source of the restlessness was known could it be abandoned.

 

إِيَّاكُمْ وَحَزَّازَ الْقُلُوبِ وَمَا حَزَّ فِي قَلْبِكِ مِنْ شَيْءٍ فَدَعْهُ

 

Beware of what disturbs the hearts. If something unsettles your heart, then abandon it.

 

Therefore to take effect, taqwa could only be rooted in love. If not love of God or His Beloved (peace be upon him), at least love for one’s own self. That is why every spiritual journey only really starts with a discovery of one’s own self-esteem.

 

After hearing the lecture on the motivators of action, I kept wondering when I would be able to listen to my soul? I knew somewhere the secret lay in surrender! Surrender of everything to the care of Nabi Kareem (peace be upon him), the appointed Purifier, and through him, God. It had to be in one’s own surrender as well as that of loved ones, worrying for whom could so easily eat away at one’s peace of mind and harden the heart. For then each and every thing chosen by Allah and His Beloved (peace be upon him) would come into play. Whether it felt difficult or unfair, there was nothing better than that which they would ordain.

 

وَعَسَىٰ أَن تَكْرَهُوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَّكُمْ ۖ وَعَسَىٰ أَن تُحِبُّوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَّكُمْ ۗ

وَاللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنتُمْ لَا تَعْلَمُونَ

 

But it may well be that you hate a thing the while it is good for you, and it may well be that you love a thing the while it is bad for you and God knows, whereas you do not know - Surah Al Baqarah, Verse 216

 

But what surrendering actually entailed, I did not know.

 

Then in the spring of 2019 I landed in Fes per my annual schedule of travel. I chose tazkiya, purification, for the topic of my study. I wanted to learn about it deeply in case I came upon something that I had missed. As it turned out I had missed it all!

 

We started the class with the definitions of purification. All people of faith trying to “do good”, “be good” know two of them. The first is deepening possessed virtue, if any, and striving to acquire positive attributes previously absent. The second is limiting and eventually discarding from habit, and therefore behaviour, that which is forbidden or marked as detrimental, both physically and emotionally.

 

My teacher, Ustad Ahmed, offered a third.

 

“I didn’t know there was third definition,” I said. The surprise in my tone was clear.

 

“Yes there is and it’s everywhere in the Quran.”

 

He paused. I paused too. I read the Quran but it was almost always a forced read (then). I didn’t understand the translations. I didn’t get anything out of the Arabic. I just read it to read it, to “do good” and “be good.” Only when I studied it with a teacher through tafaseer did its secrets become apparent to me, did I learn anything. Ustad Ahmed continued:

 

“The third and perhaps most subtle condition for purification is that one should not praise their own selves, their ego, their nafs.”

 

I stared at the words on the page we were reading. Verse after verse from the Quran was echoing the same.

 

فَلَا تُزَكُّوا أَنفُسَكُمْ ۖ هُوَ أَعْلَمُ بِمَنِ اتَّقَىٰ

 

Do not, then, consider yourselves pure. He knows best as to who is conscious of Him - Surah An-Najm, Verse 32

 

I felt confused but I didn’t know why so I didn’t say anything. On the way home, the words swam in my head. Except they weren’t so much floating as hitting my heart like arrows. How could such a simple statement have such a devastating consequence? There could not be any purification and therefore knowledge could never transfer to deed just because a person ascribed any goodness to themselves!

 

At first I thought the whole idea was terribly unfair. Wasn’t there a clear catch 22 in the first two definitions? If I was actively, perhaps on occasion successfully, trying to acquire an attribute I didn’t possess or deepen one I already had, as well as giving up things I had done for too long just because they were forbidden, how could I not feel like I was worthy of at least a tiny bit of praise?

 

Why wouldn’t I notice the achievement and acknowledge it? Wasn’t I at least entitled to a pat on the back for my effort, if not success if there was any? How could anyone avoid that trap? But rules are rules. If there is one thing I learnt in the years I tried to gain spiritual knowledge, it was that. Either a rule was followed exactly or it was broken to suit one’s own preferences and therefore its altered application never had any effect.

 

The next day in class brought everything home in terms of the real cause behind the prohibition of self-praise. The line was uttered by Iblis before God:

 

قَالَ مَا مَنَعَكَ أَلَّا تَسْجُدَ إِذْ أَمَرْتُكَ ۖ

قَالَ أَنَا خَيْرٌ مِّنْهُ خَلَقْتَنِي مِن نَّارٍ وَخَلَقْتَهُ مِن طِينٍ

 

(Allah) said, "What prevented you that you did not prostrate when I commanded you?" (Iblis) said, "I am better than him. You created me from fire and You created him from clay.” - Surah Al-A’raf, Verse 12

 

أَنَا خَيْرٌ مِّنْهُ

 

Ana khairun min-hu!

 

Five words: I am better than him.

 

In the spiritual theory of knowledge, if you are not practicing something you know and understand as knowledge, then in reality you do not possess that knowledge either.

 

In those six weeks while I roamed the city that I love, I realized that all the while I was trying feverishly to be a believer, a Mo’min, I had entirely forgotten to first be a Muslim. Then my friend Tashu sent me an excerpt from a book she was reading as she often does. It was spectacular in terms of shedding light on the process of self-reflection, of what was happening behind the scenes:

 

Maulana Rum (ra) says in The Sufi Path of Love: The Prophets and Saints call people to God and Paradise, while Iblis and his followers call them to Hell. So these two groups perform opposite functions in the world. But all opposites are correlative terms and ultimately manifest a single reality. Hence from another point of view, the Prophets and Iblis are performing a single task: making the Hidden Treasure manifest by inciting people to display their inward natures. Those who follow the Prophets and Saints show that within them the Attribute of Gentleness predominates while those who follow Satan reveal that they are primarily manifestations of the Attribute of Severity.

 

What was the ratio of gentleness to severity for me? I felt like I was at a point where I didn’t want to know anymore, to seek anything anymore. I just wanted to be led and not take a single step in any direction of my own volition. The admission that I knew nothing about everything was a first!

 

End excerpt The Softest Heart

 

Qari Sahib started adding more dots to the design in the verses. Nur, light from God, was the goal. It came when Allah willed guidance upon one. The guidance was bestowed to the one who surrendered, then sought an increase in their imaan and practiced taqwa.

 

“There is something else you should know that Allah is mentioning each time He says the heart is unable to comprehend. He says the ears also cannot hear.”

 

وَمِنْهُم مَّن يَسْتَمِعُ إِلَيْكَ ۖ

وَجَعَلْنَا عَلَىٰ قُلُوبِهِمْ أَكِنَّةً أَن يَفْقَهُوهُ وَفِىٓ ءَاذَانِهِمْ وَقْرًۭا ۚ

وَإِن يَرَوْا۟ كُلَّ ءَايَةٍۢ لَّا يُؤْمِنُوا۟ بِهَا ۚ

 

And among them are those who listen to you, O Prophet (peace be upon you), but we have placed over their heart coverings so they do not understand it, and in their ears deafness.

 

And even if they see every sign, they will not believe in it – Surah Al-An’am, Verse 25

 

وَمَنْ أَظْلَمُ مِمَّن ذُكِّرَ بِـَٔايَـٰتِ رَبِّهِۦ

فَأَعْرَضَ عَنْهَا وَنَسِىَ مَا قَدَّمَتْ يَدَاهُ ۚ

إِنَّا جَعَلْنَا عَلَىٰ قُلُوبِهِمْ أَكِنَّةً أَن يَفْقَهُوهُ وَفِىٓ ءَاذَانِهِمْ وَقْرًۭا ۖ

وَإِن تَدْعُهُمْ إِلَى ٱلْهُدَىٰ فَلَن يَهْتَدُوٓا۟ إِذًا أَبَدًۭا

 

And who is more unjust than the one who is reminded of his Lord’s Messages but turns away from them, forgetting what he has done? We have placed veils over their hearts, so they do not understand and deafness in their ears. If you ask them to be guided, they will never be guided – Surah Al-Kahf, Verse 87

 

Deafness!

 

The verses were overwhelming to say the least. I knew Hell was not a pit of fire for me in the Afterlife. It was a burning right here in this world. It was being deprived of God which was in fact a state of humiliation (ruswai). It was not seeing His Signs, in the world or in the Quran with its layering of secrets and signs. It was not feeling His Presence. It was missing the point of being in the world. It was a perpetual state of denial of truth. By the heart, the eyes, the ears.

 

But it was the ears unable to hear that I found myself fixating upon. Qari Sahib summed it up in a line:

 

“Until the heart changes, listening is useless.”

 

It made sense from an entirely new angle why a person like me who read the Quran for years, took classes to understand its meaning for years, prayed for years and heard sermons for years remained stuck. The heart was still dark so the ears were listening but not. The truth of content in a speech or lecture might be undeniable. In the moment of hearing the speaker the words could induce a calm. The soul would feel happy.

 

Then as soon as the moment ended and life resumed, the dead heart took over everything again. It was like the listening didn’t even happen. I was on the giving and receiving end of that experience for a while. I used to share knowledge through lectures but then I stopped speaking before others and confined myself to writing. There seemed less falseness in that although I wonder about that too.

 

The other aspect of deadness of the heart that I became obsessed with had to do with good deeds becoming null and void. All people I knew, whether they were of a faith or not, especially the Muslims, we all had the impression that a good deed was a good deed and therefore it had merit that was assigned to it which held a reward and therefore would be given to all. Then one day recently by chance I was reading the Surah Muhammad. And verse after verse was stating the exact opposite of that hypothesis.

 

In a state of defiance, good deeds were in fact worthless.

 

ذَٰلِكَ بِأَنَّهُمُ ٱتَّبَعُوا۟ مَآ أَسْخَطَ ٱللَّهَ وَكَرِهُوا۟ رِضْوَٰنَهُۥ فَأَحْبَطَ أَعْمَـٰلَهُمْ

 

This is because they pursue what God condemns and hate what pleases Him. So he made their good deeds come to naught - Surah Muhammad, Verse 28

 

Tafseer e Jilani: “They deny guidance and turn their faces from it. There is no careful deliberation of the Quran’s lessons and advice beneficial in it for them. For the Quran is what connects with guidance and deliverance from the threats of the Day of Judgement so that one returns and turns away from the pursuit of sin. And doesn’t even take a step towards them. But their hearts are sealed with locks so there is no effect upon them from the Quran and its warnings.

 

They followed that which angered God, by turning away from the Path of Truth and not following the followers of the faith. They behaviour was based on their false desires. Instead of following Allah’s Wishes which He has sent upon His Prophets and His Books, they went against them.

 

Therefore it was the Right of God per His Wrath and Anger that the ability to approach the level of rewards for the good deeds was taken from them. So they fall short of the level where their reward is promised.”

 

I was fixated on the words for the translation of “ahbata” in reference to the deeds: “the coming to nothing.” Other words in translations were void, worthless, of no avail, failed, wasted, fruitless. What did it mean? I asked Qari Sahib.

 

First he gave me an example of a Prophet and his son. It was the Prophet Noah (as).

 

“The flood was going to hit the Earth and Hazrat Nuh’s (as) was not amongst those chosen to be saved from it. So the Prophet reminded God of it. What would happen to his boy? And Allah said:

 

قَالَ يَـٰنُوحُ إِنَّهُۥ لَيْسَ مِنْ أَهْلِكَ ۖ إِنَّهُۥ عَمَلٌ غَيْرُ صَـٰلِحٍۢ ۖ فَلَا تَسْـَٔلْنِ مَا لَيْسَ لَكَ بِهِۦ عِلْمٌ ۖ

إِنِّىٓ أَعِظُكَ أَن تَكُونَ مِنَ ٱلْجَـٰهِلِينَ

 

O Noah! Indeed he is not of your family for he was unrighteous in his conduct.

 

So do not ask me of which you don’t have knowledge. Indeed I admonish you lest you be of those who are unaware (of what is right) – Surah Hud, Verse 46

 

I looked up the Tafseer e Jilani to make sure I was reading it right. Allah was telling his beloved Prophet that his son was not of his family since he had rejected his faith. Why was he excluded from being from his clan? “Because the one who denies the truth (kafir) and the one who is a believer of it (mo’min) will not have sustained closeness or affection between them.”

 

The line gave me pause.

 

The relationships I was struggling with were ones where once we had been close. Then somewhere along the path of faith we parted. Now when I hung out with the same people, I was mostly sitting on eggshells that they would say something that would rile me. Not to do with religion but about anything. It wasn’t even so much what they said but the bravado they said it with that disturbed me. For hours later, if not days, I would be struggling with my feelings of negativity towards them. It wasn’t fun being in their company anymore and I had distanced myself from them. It was true. The affection for them was dissipating on my end.

 

Ghaus Pak (ra) says that the one who is not happy with you is not happy with God. So, he says, if one is not happy with their Creator, how can you expect them to be happy with anyone else? I inverted the words upon myself. If I was not happy with them anymore, beyond our differences, was I in some way also disconnected from God? If so, I knew the reason. Pride! It was my condescension towards them. At least my hardness towards them eased a little when I honed in on my own self. That was a plus!

 

Then God warned His Prophet to not ask him of which his knowledge is limited whereas Allah’s Knowledge possesses the reality of all. The Prophet Noah’s (as) response to the admonishment is one of my favourite prayers that I try to recite every day.

 

قَالَ رَبِّ إِنِّىٓ أَعُوذُ بِكَ أَنْ أَسْـَٔلَكَ مَا لَيْسَ لِى بِهِۦ عِلْمٌۭ ۖ وَإِلَّا تَغْفِرْ لِى وَتَرْحَمْنِىٓ أَكُن مِّنَ ٱلْخَـٰسِرِينَ

 

He, the Prophet Noah (as), said, “Oh my Lord! Indeed I seek refuge from You from asking of You anything of which I cannot have knowledge.

 

And unless You forgive me and You have mercy upon me, I will be among the lost. – Surah Hud, Verse 47

 

Qari Sahib went back to explaining why good deeds would bear no fruit if the doer of them was in a state of defiance. He gave me an excellent example: “Here in Pakistan, you have to get x marks in order to get admission into medical colleges. If you miss that entry by a single number, one mark, do you get in? No. You do not. All your years of study are wasted as far as the result you sought from them from it. It’s exactly the same thing. You worked, you tried but you did not reach the level that Allah has set in order to be rewarded.”

 

A few verses later again came the voiding of deeds.

 

إِنَّ ٱلَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا۟ وَصَدُّوا۟ عَن سَبِيلِ ٱللَّهِ وَشَآقُّوا۟ ٱلرَّسُولَ مِنۢ بَعْدِ مَا تَبَيَّنَ لَهُمُ ٱلْهُدَىٰ لَن يَضُرُّوا۟ ٱللَّهَ شَيْـًۭٔا وَسَيُحْبِطُ أَعْمَـٰلَهُمْ

 

Indeed those who are bent on denying the truth and barring others after guidance has been manifested upon them, never will they harm Allah and He will cause all their deeds to come to naught – Surah Muhammad, Verse 32

 

And again I read the exegesis of the verse in the Tafseer e Jilani: “They turn away while denying the truth in their zahir (overt) and batin (inner being). They accuse the Messenger (peace be upon him) of lying despite being given clear guidance in the form of the Quran revealed upon his heart and his miracles. But they cannot harm or benefit Allah for He is above it. So their deeds will be made of no value. The blessing they thought they would receive from their deeds is what is lost. For every deed has a reward or punishment.”

 

“But I thought all good deeds held some intrinsic value? How are they going to zero?” I found myself harping on, reminding Qari Sahib that he once gave me the verse that said just that.

 

فَٱسْتَجَابَ لَهُمْ رَبُّهُمْ أَنِّى لَآ أُضِيعُ عَمَلَ عَـٰمِلٍۢ مِّنكُم مِّن ذَكَرٍ أَوْ أُنثَىٰ ۖ

 

Then responded to them their Lord, "Indeed, I will not waste deeds of the doer among each of you (whether) male or female – Surah Aal e Imran, Verse 195

 

“Yes that is correct,” replied Qari Sahib. “But there is a condition for it.”

 

In Surah Al-Furqan, after the verse where punishment, disgrace and humiliation was promised for those who commit adultery, murder, and associate someone with God, definitely the major sins (Gunah e Kabeera), follows this one:

 

إِلَّا مَن تَابَ وَءَامَنَ وَعَمِلَ عَمَلًۭا صَـٰلِحًۭا فَأُو۟لَـٰٓئِكَ يُبَدِّلُ ٱللَّهُ سَيِّـَٔاتِهِمْ حَسَنَـٰتٍۢ ۗ وَكَانَ ٱللَّهُ غَفُورًۭا رَّحِيمًۭا

 

Except those who repent and attain to faith and do righteous deeds. Then for those Allah will replace their evil deeds with good ones. And Allah is Ever Forgiving, Most Merciful - Surah Al-Furqan, Verse 70

 

“Repentance (tauba) and bringing faith (imaan) are the conditions. Then the deeds might be converted. The deeds of those are lost who remain steadfast on the path of denial and die in that state.”

 

إِنَّمَا ٱلتَّوْبَةُ عَلَى ٱللَّهِ لِلَّذِينَ يَعْمَلُونَ ٱلسُّوٓءَ بِجَهَـٰلَةٍۢ ثُمَّ يَتُوبُونَ مِن قَرِيبٍۢ فَأُو۟لَـٰٓئِكَ يَتُوبُ ٱللَّهُ عَلَيْهِمْ ۗ وَكَانَ ٱللَّهُ عَلِيمًا حَكِيمًۭا

 

God’s acceptance of repentance is for those who do evil out of ignorance and then repent soon after. Then they will receive Allah’s Forgiveness upon them. And Allah is All-Knowing, All-Wise – Surah An-Nisa, Verse 17

 

Ghaus Pak says that the key to repentance is that a person feel ashamed and regretful. Regret only comes when the heart acknowledges the wickedness of disobedience. That is the tauba, the repentance, God accepts. This repentance comes from those who have faith but pursue sin. They are unaware of the harmful consequences of their acts and when they do become conscious of their error, they immediately repent and turn towards God. They do not wait till their dying breath.

 

Qari Sahib circled back to the beginning.

 

“The secret behind why this kind of repentance (nearing death) is not acceptable to God is that the tauba, the turning towards God has to come willingly.” But then he stressed, “And it is not for you and me to judge another’s willingness. It is Allah’s Prerogative and His alone.”

 

Ghaus Pak defines the willingness: “Repentance has to come intentionally with want for it to be accepted before God. The expression of repentance that comes out of compulsion (iztarar) and lack of choice (majboori) comes from a state in which the person does not possess the attribute of being a worshipper of Allah and being obedient to Him. Nor is there a desire for closeness to Him. In fact there is no difference between such a person who claims faith and an outright denier of truth who dies in a state of being an infidel. The torment then on the Day of Judgment is their deprivation of God’s Essence and His Rejection of them.”

 

While writing this piece, I shared my findings with one of my most spiritually elevated friends, Rashiqay, who was visiting me from Karachi. As an infant she was in an accident. As a result she lives with a physical disability in one leg and one hand. Then just this year she suffered two strokes. One of them left her in a wheelchair. The other caused facial paralysis. Six months later she was walking again. Her face was more gorgeous than ever. She was one of the most incredible human beings I have known in my life.

 

“The Quran says the reason the heart does not understand is that the person is missing faith and taqwa, which is not crossing boundaries defined by God. It seems the latter is harder…,” the Maulvi (clergy person in Islam) in me was about to drone on.

 

She didn’t even let me finish my sentence.

 

“No,” she said assuredly. “It’s both. They’re equally important.”

I was about to dive into my spiel of why it was not so much the first, since people claimed or at least believed they were of faith, when she stopped me dead in my tracks.

 

“The problem is not that people don’t believe in God. It is that people don’t have faith in themselves. The faith to change, to be different, in believing in themselves, in accepting that everything, good or bad, comes from God and must be borne without complaint. They want to do it. Often they even come across a way but then they just don’t see it happening for themselves. That makes them stuck where they are. They don’t move.”

 

I wonder if she even knew she was touching on a verse in the Quran.

 

مَآ أَصَابَ مِن مُّصِيبَةٍۢ فِى ٱلْأَرْضِ وَلَا فِىٓ أَنفُسِكُمْ إِلَّا فِى كِتَـٰبٍۢ مِّن قَبْلِ أَن نَّبْرَأَهَآ ۚ إِنَّ ذَٰلِكَ عَلَى ٱللَّهِ يَسِيرٌۭ

 

No misfortune occurs either on Earth on in your selves unless it is laid down in a decree before we bring it into being. Indeed for Allah that is easy – Surah Al-Hadid, Verse 22

 

لِّكَيْلَا تَأْسَوْا عَلَىٰ مَا فَاتَكُمْ وَلَا تَفْرَحُوا بِمَا آتَاكُمْ وَاللَّهُ لَا يُحِبُّ كُلَّ مُخْتَالٍ فَخُور

 

“We let you know this” so you do not grieve over what has passed you by nor do you exult over what you have gained. For God does not like the vain and the arrogant – Surah Al-Hadid, Verse 23

 

“Look at it this way,” Rashiqay continued. “You’re born. You have a set of parent. They bring you up a certain way. If you believe in the fact that you want better then you will go out of the house to achieve that betterment. Only when you widen your horizons then can you say, this decision was wrong.

You’ve lived it. Now you can address where it went south. But people don’t like to reverse decisions. Normally you would think that when you something doesn’t work, you try something different. But many people don’t. Think about it. What changed your life for you?”

 

I knew the answer to that. The first time my stuckness had shifted it was because of the Prophet (peace be upon him). It was when, as decades passed, I began seeing the aspects of my behaviour which were unchanging and rendering me misery. Not to mention others. I started studying the exact same aspect entirely missing in mine but present clear as day in Nabi Kareem’s (peace be upon him) person; in his words, his actions, his reactions. I began to study what I had been taught was his Sunnah in Arabic in Fes with my teacher.

 

Through that reading over years I understood the layering of different attributes and their application. It was how my journey of emulation of him began. In starts and stops!

Unsurprisingly in Surah Muhammad I also read that in his emulation lay the antidote for not making one’s deeds void. If one was aspiring for the title of mo’min, believer!

 

يَـٰٓأَيُّهَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُوٓا۟ أَطِيعُوا۟ ٱللَّهَ وَأَطِيعُوا۟ ٱلرَّسُولَ وَلَا تُبْطِلُوٓا۟ أَعْمَـٰلَكُمْ

 

O ye who believed! Obey Allah and obey His Messenger (peace be upon him) and let not your deeds be in vain - Surah Muhammad, Verse 33

 

It was not lost on me that Allah was declaring the nullification of deeds, no matter what they were, as naught repeatedly in the Surah named after His Beloved (peace be upon him).

Then during Rabul Awwal this November, again courtesy of Uzair, I learnt in an entirely new way what the Sunnah of the Prophet was, beyond the narrow manner in which it is commonly defined.

 

“Sunnah is defined as propensity, deed. That is the traditional view. But it has a deeper spiritual dimension. More so that what the Prophet (peace be upon him) did. Let’s start with a verse from the Quran that is well known (ma’roof):

 

لَّقَدْ كَانَ لَكُمْ فِى رَسُولِ ٱللَّهِ أُسْوَةٌ حَسَنَةٌۭ لِّمَن كَانَ يَرْجُوا۟ ٱللَّهَ وَٱلْيَوْمَ ٱلْـَٔاخِرَ وَذَكَرَ ٱللَّهَ كَثِيرًۭا

Certainly, is for you in (the) Messenger (of) Allah an example good for one who has hope (in) Allah and the Last Day and remembers Allah much – Surah Al-Ahzab, Verse 21

 

Now the verse has been translated in the last 50 years with the addition of “his life” in brackets in many instances. Those who know Arabic know that the example lies not in his life, but in his essence (zaat). It’s not in the deed of the Prophet (peace be upon him), it’s in his entire being (wujood).

 

The Sufis give a beautiful example of this: the Sahaba, his Companions, used to wait ardently for Sharia’t (Islamic Law) to come so that they would follow it and become closer to God, be accepted by him. But the Sufis say that while the Companions waited for Sharia’t to come, Sharia’t itself waited for the Prophet of God (peace be upon him) to do something so that it would be granted creation (through his deed).”

 

Subhan Allah! No one seems to hold a deeper romantic sensibility than the Sufis when it came to love.

 

“The Quran is saying the exact same thing in the verse (above). Rasool is uswa e hasna, the best example. Then the Quran also says the same thing about the Prophet Ibrahim (as). And the Allah uses the exact same words. The best example is in his (the Prophet Ibrahim’s) essence, in his being and those who are with him (ma’hu).

 

قَدْ كَانَتْ لَكُمْ أُسْوَةٌ حَسَنَةٌۭ فِىٓ إِبْرَٰهِيمَ وَٱلَّذِينَ مَعَهُۥٓ

 

Indeed, there is for you an example good in Ibrahim and those with him – Surah Al-Mumtahinah, Verse 4

 

And then Allah says the same again a verse later, the best example also lies in “fihim,” “those with him.”

 

لَقَدْ كَانَ لَكُمْ فِيهِمْ أُسْوَةٌ حَسَنَةٌۭ لِّمَن كَانَ يَرْجُوا۟ ٱللَّهَ وَٱلْيَوْمَ ٱلْـَٔاخِرَ ۚ وَمَن يَتَوَلَّ فَإِنَّ ٱللَّهَ هُوَ ٱلْغَنِىُّ ٱلْحَمِيدُ

 

Here is a good example in them for you all, for anyone, who ties their hopes to God and the Last Day.

 

But if anyone turns away, God is Rich beyond Need, the Praiseworthy - Surah Al-Mumtahinah, Verse 6

 

And so the most excellent model is also in those who have their hopes tied to God (yarju Allah) and the Day of Judgement.”

 

I looked up the tafseer of the verse to understand a little more what having one’s hopes tied to God really meant. What was the expectation of the Day of Judgement?

 

Tafseer e Jilani: “The example is in those who is hopeful of standing in the ranks of those who Allah counts as the ones seeking His Pleasure and are in utter surrender before Him. And they believe that on the Last Day they will receive from God all that they have been promised by Him.”

 

Qari Sahib gave me an example of who these “others” were.

 

“Look what happened what Hazrat Ibrahim had a dream in which he saw himself slaughtering his only son. He shared the dream with Hazrat Ismail and what did his son so young say to him?”

 

فَلَمَّا بَلَغَ مَعَهُ ٱلسَّعْىَ قَالَ يَـٰبُنَىَّ إِنِّىٓ أَرَىٰ فِى ٱلْمَنَامِ أَنِّىٓ أَذْبَحُكَ فَٱنظُرْ مَاذَا تَرَىٰ ۚ

قَالَ يَـٰٓأَبَتِ ٱفْعَلْ مَا تُؤْمَرُ ۖ سَتَجِدُنِىٓ إِن شَآءَ ٱللَّهُ مِنَ ٱلصَّـٰبِرِينَ

 

Then when he reached with him the age of sharing his endeavours, the Prophet Ibrahim said, “O my son! Indeed, I have seen in the dream that I am sacrificing you, so see what you think.”

 

He, the Prophet Ismail (as) said, “O my father! Do what you are commanded.

 

You will find me, if wills Allah, of the patient ones.” – Surah As-Saffat, Verse 102

 

“He didn’t blink an eyelid. He simply acquiesced to what he thought was his Lord’s Pleasure even though it was for him to be killed.”

 

Uzair returned to the verse about Nabi Kareem (peace be upon him) to decode it; who amongst us was going to gain anything and benefit from this perfect manifestation of Allah’s Essence. He was highlighting the words in the verse which were the same as for Hazrat Ibrahim (as) and those with him: hope in Allah and the Last of days.

 

لَّقَدْ كَانَ لَكُمْ فِى رَسُولِ ٱللَّهِ أُسْوَةٌ حَسَنَةٌۭ لِّمَن كَانَ يَرْجُوا۟ ٱللَّهَ وَٱلْيَوْمَ ٱلْـَٔاخِرَ وَذَكَرَ ٱللَّهَ كَثِيرًۭا

 

Certainly, is for you in the Messenger of Allah an example good for one who has hope in Allah and the Last Day and remembers Allah much – Surah Al-Ahzab, Verse 21

 

“The Prophet of God (peace be upon him) will only be the exemplary model for those i.e. he will only be followed by those i.e. only those will be able to obey him who

 

1. Have their hopes tied with Allah alone

2. Believe in the Afterlife (the Day of Judgement)

3. Are conscious of God often

 

It is necessary to keep these conditions in your mind at all times. If you want to be amongst those who are even allowed his emulation.”

 

Suddenly it was apparent, the reason for the confining of ability (taufeeq)!

 

“Ability is confined to kufr, limited to hiding or denying the truth, either because we are inspired by Iblis’ whisperings or succumbing to the desires of our own ego, the nafs. Both of which veil a person from the sun of the reality of Truth.”

 

I had read the verse from Surah Al-Ahzab about Nabi Kareem (peace be upon him) as the one to emulate many times. I had used it in many of my pieces, more prominently in the preface of “The Softest Heart.” I had not known the same verse was in the Quran for Hazrat Ibrahim (as), nor those who were in his company. When Uzair stressed the need to remember the conditions that allow for emulation, I concentrated on them.

 

Somewhere in those three conditions is where I failed when my actions fell short and I fell into disobedience. Maybe if I could pin exactly where, I could be better in my effort. I had a feeling it was not being in a state of consciousness of God more often, more deeply.

 

Uzair explained the philosophy behind the concept: “So Sunnah is the zaat, the essence of the person. The basis of Sunnah is deed (amal). The basis of deed is intention (niyyat). The basis of intention is knowledge (ilm). The basis of ilm is understanding (shaoor). The basis of understanding is revelation (wahi). Or in inverse:

 

God – revelation – understanding – knowledge – intention – deed – Sunnah

 

So the way that I, Uzair, define Sunnah is that it is the Mercy (Rahmat) of God being sent to Creation through the being, the way of the Prophet (peace be upon him). There is a physical dimension since he was a human being. There is a spiritual dimension.”

 

Then he related a hadith.

 

وَعَنْ عَلِيٍّ رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهُ قَالَ: سَأَلْتُ رَسُولَ اللَّهِ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ عَنْ سُنَّتِهِ فَقَالَ

الْمَعْرِفَةُ رَأْسُ مَالِي

وَالْعَقْلُ أَصْلُ دِينِي

وَالْحُبُّ أَسَاسِي

وَالشَّوْقُ مركبي

وَذِكْرُ اللَّهِ أَنِيسِي

وَالثِّقَةُ كَنْزِي

وَالحُزْنُ رَفِيقِي

وَالْعِلْمُ سِلَاحِي

وَالصَّبْرُ رِدَائِي

وَالرِّضَاءُ غَنِيمَتِي

وَالْعَجْزُ فَخْرِي

وَالزُّهْدُ حِرْفَتِي

وَالْيَقِينُ قُوَّتِي

وَالصِّدْقُ شَفِيعِي

وَالطَّاعَةُ حَسْبِي

وَالْجِهَادُ خُلُقِي

وَقُرَّةُ عَيْنِي فِي الصَّلَاةِ

 

Hazrat Ali (ratu) asked the Prophet (peace be upon him), “What is your Sunnah?”

 

Nabi Kareem (peace be upon him) mentioned 17 things in his answer. Uzair highlighted three:

 

1. Al-hubbo asasi – Love is my foundation

2. Al-aqlo aslo deeni – The power to reflect is the source of my religion

3. Al-shauqo markabi – I ride the horse of longing (towards the meeting with my Lord)

 

“This brings me to when did Sunnah start and when did it end? And did it even end? Scholars think it started when he first received revelation at 40 and ended when he passed 23 years later. But I don’t agree with this. Of course we have the hadith:

 

I was a Prophet when Adam (as) was between clay and water

 

But let’s go back to the Quran to confirm the timeline of his being:

 

وَإِذْ أَخَذَ ٱللَّهُ مِيثَـٰقَ ٱلنَّبِيِّـۧنَ لَمَآ ءَاتَيْتُكُم مِّن كِتَـٰبٍۢ وَحِكْمَةٍۢ ثُمَّ جَآءَكُمْ رَسُولٌۭ مُّصَدِّقٌۭ لِّمَا مَعَكُمْ لَتُؤْمِنُنَّ بِهِۦ

وَلَتَنصُرُنَّهُۥ ۚ قَالَ ءَأَقْرَرْتُمْ وَأَخَذْتُمْ عَلَىٰ ذَٰلِكُمْ إِصْرِى ۖ

قَالُوٓا۟ أَقْرَرْنَا ۚ قَالَ فَٱشْهَدُوا۟ وَأَنَا۠ مَعَكُم مِّنَ ٱلشَّـٰهِدِينَ

 

And lo! God made His Covenant with the Prophets:

"If, after all the revelation and the wisdom which I have vouchsafed unto you, there comes to you an apostle, (the Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him)), confirming the truth already in your possession, you must believe in him and succour him.”

 

Said He (Allah), “Do you acknowledge and accept My Bond on this condition?"

 

They (the Prophets) answered, "We do acknowledge it."

 

Allah said, "Then bear witness (thereto), and I shall be your Witness.”

 

فَمَن تَوَلَّىٰ بَعْدَ ذَٰلِكَ فَأُولَٰئِكَ هُمُ الْفَاسِقُونَ

 

And, henceforth, all who turn away (from this pledge),

it is they, they who are truly wicked!" - Surah Aal e Imran, Verse 81-82

 

Mufassareen have been confused about this verse as to when this moment happened. Was it on the Night of Mairaj when the Prophet lead the 124,000 prophets in Masjid e Aqsa? Was it before the creation of the Universe in the Realm of the Souls (Alam e Arwah)? Because Allah is saying they have to bring faith upon the Prophet (peace be upon him) and help him. But they all came after him so how are they supposed to help him?”

 

Here Uzair made a point that has millions in the Ummah tied up in knots; the asking of help from a person who is a Friend of God, who is no longer in the world.

 

“So if all the other Prophets have died and Allah is saying they have to help His Beloved (peace be upon him), then it means that asking for help from those who have passed is not apostasy, shirk, as so many preach today. In fact their not helping would be wrong as they clearly have been endowed from God Himself the means to help.

 

And if we assume it happens in the Realm of the Souls, then the verse testifies that the Sunnah of the Prophet begins before the Creation of the Universe.”

 

Remainder of piece at: www.flickr.com/photos/42093313@N00/50652933661/in/datepos...

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