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SO i got all dolled up today cause i was told i would be able to go to the bank and pull $out for next school year and buy some shoes. So tell my why my mom is still asleep, the bank is closed. I dunno, i got really upset. I spent all morning taking a shower, putting on makeup, only to be like... stood up. Sounds familiar.

She spent all last night talking to her bf, who was at work. Like... i dunno, maybe i'm over reacting. She decided to make the drive up to Davis, but I have the feeling it's so her bf doesn't drive alone, not for me. Its' just becoming very clear where her priorities lie. Last night, I said i would go to the store and if she wanted to come with. Her answer? No, i have to wait cause i know he's going to call me from work.

 

I dunno why it upsets me so much.

 

&what's worse is I've got no one rooting for me. I'm getting shit for going to college, I'm getting shit for going to costarica. Crap for being skinny and crap for gaining weight. WTF. I can't do anything without receiving any criticism. What's worse is this is coming from my BLOOD relatives, people who are supposed to be supportive no matter what. I can't even be independent OR dependent. I dunno what i'm supposed to be doing to make everyone in a good mood.

 

I'm trying to do the things i love and nobody cares.

 

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Listen:Never There-Cake

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