What Are You looking At?
As Christopher I was rather quiet, shy and lacked confidence but the day I became Jojo that started to change and now a lot of the time I'm the opposite. I like to be seen and I don't mind if people can tell what I am and do in my private life. I like to think even though they might not know me they are thinking 'There's Jojo' instead of just 'It's that tranny.' But still it doesn't matter what others think that matters it's what I think of myself that counts and thankfully I'm always positive. Never once have I had feelings of despair or wanted to burn my clothes, but I am lucky for as I've said before just beneath the surface I was always Jojo and that makes everything more instinctive rather than just some maddening tug-of-war. Okay I admit I've had problems about sexuality as I am not gay by default but I've always been very sensual and randy and I realised even before I started that should it change me I could live with that because it would be a small price to pay for all of this. Indeed it seems there was no price to pay as I think nature came along and kindly threw in these extra 'forbidden' pleasures and took away the guilt as part of the deal. It did take such a long time for the magic to happen though because I've been Jojo for seventeen years now and I've only just got to the point where I admit to being gay even to myself. This more sexually confident sense of direction gives a great feeling of empowerment and makes a huge difference to how we present ourselves. I remember when I started I put the emphasis on being a nice well dressed straight T-girl as I thought we needed a standard-bearer and got used to getting upset when women I knew used to say something doesn't 'look right'. In a way I can understand it now as there is an art to it for in those days if one puts on for instance a short dress that doesn't work it kind of rings alarm bells, whereas today I can wear something shorter and even too short and always get away with it. Maybe those women have given up keeping me on the straight and narrow for once we admit to what we've become we dress to please the people we want to please instead especially ourselves and it works.
What Are You looking At?
As Christopher I was rather quiet, shy and lacked confidence but the day I became Jojo that started to change and now a lot of the time I'm the opposite. I like to be seen and I don't mind if people can tell what I am and do in my private life. I like to think even though they might not know me they are thinking 'There's Jojo' instead of just 'It's that tranny.' But still it doesn't matter what others think that matters it's what I think of myself that counts and thankfully I'm always positive. Never once have I had feelings of despair or wanted to burn my clothes, but I am lucky for as I've said before just beneath the surface I was always Jojo and that makes everything more instinctive rather than just some maddening tug-of-war. Okay I admit I've had problems about sexuality as I am not gay by default but I've always been very sensual and randy and I realised even before I started that should it change me I could live with that because it would be a small price to pay for all of this. Indeed it seems there was no price to pay as I think nature came along and kindly threw in these extra 'forbidden' pleasures and took away the guilt as part of the deal. It did take such a long time for the magic to happen though because I've been Jojo for seventeen years now and I've only just got to the point where I admit to being gay even to myself. This more sexually confident sense of direction gives a great feeling of empowerment and makes a huge difference to how we present ourselves. I remember when I started I put the emphasis on being a nice well dressed straight T-girl as I thought we needed a standard-bearer and got used to getting upset when women I knew used to say something doesn't 'look right'. In a way I can understand it now as there is an art to it for in those days if one puts on for instance a short dress that doesn't work it kind of rings alarm bells, whereas today I can wear something shorter and even too short and always get away with it. Maybe those women have given up keeping me on the straight and narrow for once we admit to what we've become we dress to please the people we want to please instead especially ourselves and it works.