Sometimes....

The best prop are their hands.

 

Last night, I struggled. And, I mean "really" struggled. As in wanting to call it quits two frames into this engagement session.

 

The sad thing was....I was sooo looking forward to this one. I thought I was going to nail it. Unfortantualely, it did not go quite as well as I had planned. Due to multiple factors. Which, I will just save you all the details.

 

Seriously, in the last few months, I have had to endure weather at a wedding with an unexpected snowfall of 8 inches, chased around two year olds in their back yard to capture them, endured hours with crying newborns, survied yet another wedding on one of the world's hottest days ever with a temps of 103 degrees, and, yet, what I thought was going to be a wonderful and simple engagement shoot....failed.

 

So much failure, because I know I am my own worse enemy, that I actually have thought about throwing my hands in the air and calling it quits. Sometimes what started out as a mad hobby of mine, somewhere along the lines has turned into a full time job. A full time job that is now not so much enjoyable.

 

I am thinking I should just call it quits and start shooting just for me. For what photography really means for me.

 

But, at the end of the day, as much as I struggled...I came across this one and it proved to me all over again why I LOVE what I do. And, even though it may not be my best work ever...I am hoping that I still was able to capture the true them.

 

The thing is, I want to be perfect...and perfection is not always going to be there. I get that. But I still want to be good at it. And, yet, it frustrates me.

 

So, I am left once again, chalking it up to yet another experience and lesson learned.

 

I hope anyway.

Done