Today I went to a live show with these amazing artists. And it was so inspiring. Live music reminds me to keep going and inspires me and in so many different ways. This week I've been very lazy, and I didn't want to take any pictures. But that show tonight put me in the mood to go out and be creative. I'm not putting a picture for yesterday even though it was Halloween. It's going to be my reminder to always keep going foreward no matter how badly I feel like giving up. I have a lot to write tonight so, bear with me please.

 

There's a lot of things I'd like to say so I'm going to list them.

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I believe war has reason and that world peace will have it's day.

I believe love is love no matter what.

I believe music is the world's greatest inspiration

I believe in everyone

I believe this world will survive somehow

I believe that your choices make you

I believe all art is important

I believe I have an undiagnosed mental illness

I believe everyone is capable of spreading there wings and flying. Others have just forgotton how.

I believe that those who can't wait to get married are extremly pathetic

I believe in magic

I believe my wants are like a coin in a wishing well

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I want to live in a flat my whole life in a big city.

I want to grow up, I want to grow young, I want to stay at home my whole life, I want to leave and live my own life.

I want to surrond myself in beauty

I want to be beautiful

I want you to reach out to me instead of pushing me away

I want you to be sincerly happy

I want love

I want to learn all forms of art

I want someone to call and talk with me for hours

I want to go to your house and play guitar hero with you

I want to run through a car wash

I want to recieve letters, and notes, and doodles more often. They're the sweetest gift in the world.

I want everyone to see how beautiful the world really is

I want to experince advenutres

I want to scream all my secrets to the world

I want my father to see things through my eyes

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I don't ever want drugs coursing through my veins

I don't think I'm worthy of anyone special

I don't feel sorry for soilders that die at war or their families.

I don't want to live my life strapped to one place, one person, or one job

I don't believe in god

I don't like the idea of my body rotting away in the ground

I don't want to be the girl that will pick you up when you fall, no matter how many times you don't do it for me anymore.

I don't think there is a significant other for everyone

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I used to think about killing myself

I used to want to swim out to sea until I was too tired swim back in

I used to feel sorry for you

I used to love you

I used to think you were everything to me

I used to feel miserable

I used to cut

I used to wonder about what people would do if I was no longer breathing

I used to be sucidal. I don't think I am anymore

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Big huge spaces are beautiful, but they make me feel so small I can't breathe

I stopped because of you. Your the biggest jerk ever. You make me feel ugly, horrible, stupid, and unworthy of everything. But I will love you no matter what.

I know my sister will be more successful than me. So does my mother.

Parents who expect great things from their children often forget to tell them it's okay if they screw up. I feel sorry for you for this reason.

You are the greatest and sweetest boy I know. Whoever you fall in love with will be the luckiest girl in the world.

My scars are my own, and the fact that I am okay with it now, makes me feel happy.

I stayed in a relationship with you to proove everyone else wrong about you. I was wrong. Very very wrong.

I love the conversations we had over the summer, I don't understand what I did that made you hate me.

I miss kissing you, but I never want to kiss you again

Abostions don't bother me. At all.

I wish I could fly.

Ants are the grossiest things ever.

Feathers remind me that one day I'll be free from all of this.

It's not that I like girls more than guys. It's just I'd rather have a more emotional based relationship with a guy, and a more physical based relationship with girl. :/

Everybody talks about everybody

I wasn't mad that you got her, I was mad she got you

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I think about love

I think about my friends

I think about the "what if's"

I think about the past

I think about the future

I think about things that are important

I think about my actions

I think that if I grow up by just getting by, and going a community college just so I can go to college I will be absoutly miserable

I think about my family

I think about death

I think that you hiding something much bigger than yourself

I think too much

I think about being alive

I think life is easier for men and that makes me try harder

I think about the strange and the werid

I think education is a waste of time

I think about all the apolgies you owe me

I think about school

I imagine.

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I like kisses

I like hugs

I like Hello Kitty

I like my family

I like old and twisted trees. I feel connected to them.

I like music

I like listening to songs that were recorded live becuase everyone is happy and it reminds to keep smiling

I like my friends

I like memories

I like sitting cross-legged

I like polaroids

I like photography

I like sending letters. You know the ones with stamps?

I like being proud of who I am

I like being happy with myself

I like the stary night sky

I like the blue sky full of clouds

I like you

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I love life