Livah!
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Photo credit: Melissa Mihm
MUA: Melissa Mihm
Newly dyed hair: Melissa Mihm
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All things considered, I'm still working on my 365, just work has been hectic and I haven't been able to post anything or even less have any time to myself.
I have work in six hours.
Regardless, I went up to Gainseville to visit Missy and to really just feel something again. Getting out of Miami really does that for you. I can say I'm finally in a good place and my life. Both mentally and physically. This was taken a month ago, but that was when I realized it. I realized what I wanted, what I deserved, and who I am. I'm not happy every second of every waking hour, but I'm working on it. I'm learning to be more appreciative and to stop apologizing for things in general. Physically, I haven't really changed. I got rid of that stupid blonde ombre, it only attracted douche bags and honestly, I just want my friends in my life. I've started the gym again and have been consistent as well as eating less (portion control and no fast food). I'm drinking less and trying to keep the smoking down to the weekends if at all. After my birthday I've realized the people I want in my life and who could go hit by a train. Very few make me happy. I don't need any of this negative shit. And sure, when it comes to relationships lately, I've been extremely emotionally unattached, I just feel all men are pussy's. I'm standing on my own two feet again and it's pathetic what I'm seeing out there. I'm not a overconfident person when it comes to things such as guys though, I mean I don't think I'm ugly, but I know what I'm working with and eh now I'm more than okay with it. Vagina's are powerful things. But once again, what I've seen out there makes me sad. I want someone on my level and has ambition and some hope for their future. Just even as a friend it's nice. That's how I've slowly sifted my own friends. I don't want to be surrounded my retards anymore. And even then I would be insulting retards by comparing them to that. I feel like I am ranting, but I'm sure someone reading this out there gets me.
This is going to sound corny, but I think once you're standing on your own two feet and you find a reason to be proud of yourself, everything falls together. God knows I have many personality flaws, but that's okay. I've had to make peace with my brother who I haven't spoken to in over 2 years this last month. Realize that I won't be traveling this summer because money at this moment (or should I say my career and future plans) is more important. And lose sleep so I can maybe have a social life.
I just feel happier.
That feeling comes with major down falls, but I just think of what I have planned, what I've done to be here, and what I'm capable of. I finally don't care.
It's wonderful.
Re-Cap
Photo credit: Melissa Mihm
MUA: Melissa Mihm
Newly dyed hair: Melissa Mihm
<3
All things considered, I'm still working on my 365, just work has been hectic and I haven't been able to post anything or even less have any time to myself.
I have work in six hours.
Regardless, I went up to Gainseville to visit Missy and to really just feel something again. Getting out of Miami really does that for you. I can say I'm finally in a good place and my life. Both mentally and physically. This was taken a month ago, but that was when I realized it. I realized what I wanted, what I deserved, and who I am. I'm not happy every second of every waking hour, but I'm working on it. I'm learning to be more appreciative and to stop apologizing for things in general. Physically, I haven't really changed. I got rid of that stupid blonde ombre, it only attracted douche bags and honestly, I just want my friends in my life. I've started the gym again and have been consistent as well as eating less (portion control and no fast food). I'm drinking less and trying to keep the smoking down to the weekends if at all. After my birthday I've realized the people I want in my life and who could go hit by a train. Very few make me happy. I don't need any of this negative shit. And sure, when it comes to relationships lately, I've been extremely emotionally unattached, I just feel all men are pussy's. I'm standing on my own two feet again and it's pathetic what I'm seeing out there. I'm not a overconfident person when it comes to things such as guys though, I mean I don't think I'm ugly, but I know what I'm working with and eh now I'm more than okay with it. Vagina's are powerful things. But once again, what I've seen out there makes me sad. I want someone on my level and has ambition and some hope for their future. Just even as a friend it's nice. That's how I've slowly sifted my own friends. I don't want to be surrounded my retards anymore. And even then I would be insulting retards by comparing them to that. I feel like I am ranting, but I'm sure someone reading this out there gets me.
This is going to sound corny, but I think once you're standing on your own two feet and you find a reason to be proud of yourself, everything falls together. God knows I have many personality flaws, but that's okay. I've had to make peace with my brother who I haven't spoken to in over 2 years this last month. Realize that I won't be traveling this summer because money at this moment (or should I say my career and future plans) is more important. And lose sleep so I can maybe have a social life.
I just feel happier.
That feeling comes with major down falls, but I just think of what I have planned, what I've done to be here, and what I'm capable of. I finally don't care.
It's wonderful.