I'm just a little girl lost in the moment, I'm so scared, but I don't show it. I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down, I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show.
- Lenka The Show
Guess who went to the Halloween Superstore today? I was like a kid in a candy store. It was everything in me not to buy one of every single variety of wig. Instead I settled for five wigs, this awesome top hat, and these killer false eyelashes. Prepare for fun new looks coming from me soon!
On another note, I've been kind of struggling over the past week or so with feelings that are difficult for me to explain. I had more anxiety dreams last night, this time with my parents lecturing me, dead birds, car crashes, and all sorts of frustrating stuff that had me feeling just awful when I woke up. I realized that I think what's bothering me so much is that I'm almost 31 years old and right now I'm feeling like I can't make my own decisions. Not that I don't want to make my own decisions, but I feel like I'm prevented from doing so. For a variety of reasons. Mostly I feel pressure from my parents, from Andy, from all different directions, to do certain things in a certain way. And sometimes that goes directly against the way I want to do things. The way I want to be. And it's frustrating. Anyone understand what I'm talking about? I feel like I'm talking in circles. I still can't really adequately put into words why I'm so unsettled and that pisses me off more than anything. Because I'm used to being able to describe anything very clearly.
*sigh* Enough complaining. I'm still sitting here in my false eyelashes and makeup, so I should probably go wash that off before an unsuspecting neighbor sees me out in the yard with the dog and has a heart attack.
Oh, and I'm including more shots in the comments. Andy's favorite is the first outtake. Which is yours?
365 Days (self portraits): Day 173
30 Songs in 30 Days: Day 20 (The Show - Lenka)
totw: Lyrically Inspired
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment, I'm so scared, but I don't show it. I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down, I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show.
- Lenka The Show
Guess who went to the Halloween Superstore today? I was like a kid in a candy store. It was everything in me not to buy one of every single variety of wig. Instead I settled for five wigs, this awesome top hat, and these killer false eyelashes. Prepare for fun new looks coming from me soon!
On another note, I've been kind of struggling over the past week or so with feelings that are difficult for me to explain. I had more anxiety dreams last night, this time with my parents lecturing me, dead birds, car crashes, and all sorts of frustrating stuff that had me feeling just awful when I woke up. I realized that I think what's bothering me so much is that I'm almost 31 years old and right now I'm feeling like I can't make my own decisions. Not that I don't want to make my own decisions, but I feel like I'm prevented from doing so. For a variety of reasons. Mostly I feel pressure from my parents, from Andy, from all different directions, to do certain things in a certain way. And sometimes that goes directly against the way I want to do things. The way I want to be. And it's frustrating. Anyone understand what I'm talking about? I feel like I'm talking in circles. I still can't really adequately put into words why I'm so unsettled and that pisses me off more than anything. Because I'm used to being able to describe anything very clearly.
*sigh* Enough complaining. I'm still sitting here in my false eyelashes and makeup, so I should probably go wash that off before an unsuspecting neighbor sees me out in the yard with the dog and has a heart attack.
Oh, and I'm including more shots in the comments. Andy's favorite is the first outtake. Which is yours?
365 Days (self portraits): Day 173
30 Songs in 30 Days: Day 20 (The Show - Lenka)
totw: Lyrically Inspired