Gamma-Ray Productions
Dm
Well, this is one of my one last little, well, things, regarding a lost love as I'd call it. Then I'm going to try to move forward, and there will be no more subtle photos and/or messages. I'll do my best to focus elsewhere, never forgetting them but no longer focusing on something that won't realistically come back ever again. These days I often try to distract myself at varying degrees of success (the Walter Baker celebration was a good attempt, until the lifeguards demonstrated CPR).
This piano chord is something that exemplifies their personality - charming, beautiful, quirky, different, morning-like, very bright, pinkish in color, and amazing. I play it very often, and whenever I put something together it's always there - like she is. A happy memory that I will never forget.
I know I cannot make up for the hostility and animosity I unleashed out of sudden over-reaction. I know the only way I could fix it is impossible, because the only way is for me to have never known her in the first place, and to have never put her through what I did in that message. Yet I contradict myself by then saying this: That it was the best time of my life until I became an idiot and did what I did.
I'll never forget, though, no matter how hard she apparently tries to. It's like that scene with Jennifer Aniston in Bruce Almighty: Jim Carrey's character turns up in her window when he sees an incoming prayer from her, and sees that she's crying and praying to stop her continuous love for him, to fall out of love with him, so that she cannot hurt from it anymore. It's very sad, particularly when I'm the Jim Carrey character. I can see now why he'd walk in the middle of a road afterwards.
I just hate ruining everyday lives over my inability to predict how people will feel due to my stupid Asperger's. To hurt someone who is so shy and different and unique and gentle is the worst possible thing I have done. But I will not forget, even though I don't deserve to even have ever known them in the first place. I will never ever regret my time and feelings, while they probably do.
They were ultimately the only person in the world I ever felt the closest to. I'll always love them...even if they now hate my guts.
Dm
Well, this is one of my one last little, well, things, regarding a lost love as I'd call it. Then I'm going to try to move forward, and there will be no more subtle photos and/or messages. I'll do my best to focus elsewhere, never forgetting them but no longer focusing on something that won't realistically come back ever again. These days I often try to distract myself at varying degrees of success (the Walter Baker celebration was a good attempt, until the lifeguards demonstrated CPR).
This piano chord is something that exemplifies their personality - charming, beautiful, quirky, different, morning-like, very bright, pinkish in color, and amazing. I play it very often, and whenever I put something together it's always there - like she is. A happy memory that I will never forget.
I know I cannot make up for the hostility and animosity I unleashed out of sudden over-reaction. I know the only way I could fix it is impossible, because the only way is for me to have never known her in the first place, and to have never put her through what I did in that message. Yet I contradict myself by then saying this: That it was the best time of my life until I became an idiot and did what I did.
I'll never forget, though, no matter how hard she apparently tries to. It's like that scene with Jennifer Aniston in Bruce Almighty: Jim Carrey's character turns up in her window when he sees an incoming prayer from her, and sees that she's crying and praying to stop her continuous love for him, to fall out of love with him, so that she cannot hurt from it anymore. It's very sad, particularly when I'm the Jim Carrey character. I can see now why he'd walk in the middle of a road afterwards.
I just hate ruining everyday lives over my inability to predict how people will feel due to my stupid Asperger's. To hurt someone who is so shy and different and unique and gentle is the worst possible thing I have done. But I will not forget, even though I don't deserve to even have ever known them in the first place. I will never ever regret my time and feelings, while they probably do.
They were ultimately the only person in the world I ever felt the closest to. I'll always love them...even if they now hate my guts.