melody jane (previously iron&melody)
good morning. (I'VE BEEN TAGGED! read the facts, please. i put a lot of time into them!)
:/ quality got messed up in Paint. blehh. oh well. i still like it.
opinions, please?
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hmm, so, i've sort of realized that i've been tagged by about 10 different people...
therefore, i think i needa do that 10 fact deal.
unfortunately, i do not have the time right now, but i'll do it sometime later today.
pinky promise.
10 Facts About Myself:
1. i can never make up my mind. whether it's a matter of what boy i truly love and need, or what mug i want to drink out of for my coffee. this fact also proves the point that i don't know what important things about myself i'm going to list. that is, only 10. but, we shall see!
2. my biggest fear is the future and death. i'm constantly worried that i won't be able to fulfill the life i want to truly lead, (such as traveling, becoming famous, making a difference...) and i'm constantly worried about the bad things that may occur in the future, as well. the pain of death terrifys me, also. i'm always wondering how i'm going to die, and what it's going to be like... i hate it.
however, i believe, they're the same thing, in a way... after all, the future brings death; which is obviously what i fear. but death also brings the future. in Heaven. so, with that being said... there are positive things about those two fears of mine, i suppose.
3. some of the time, i'm not as happy and strong as i seem. i mean, sure, there are definitely times when i absolutely am; but i have terrible cases of nostalgia and dreadful melancholy moments. i usually make the wisest of decisions--particularly in the area of males--and am proud of myself for being the bigger, stronger, smarter person... but after all the proudness i force myself to have disappears, the sensitive, emotional side of me barges in. and frankly, it sticks with me a lot, lot longer. generally, i don't think about it during the day. when i'm busy, and having fun around my friends, that is genuine happiness. it's at night when all of the sad thoughts and depression comes in... which leads to why i also hate sleeping. i pretend it's nostalgia. but really, it's just me being a fool and purposely thinking of past memories that i need to forget... causing me to stay awake and be sad. this fact could basically go on forever, and i could rant about it for a few paragraphs more; but let's not do that.
next fact, please.
4. i often make up fake situations in my head with people that i know, and also random stories and non-existent movie clips. with people that i actually know, they're generally things that i would like to have occur, but know they never will. as for the stories, i sort of visualize it as a movie, and make myself the lead character... it's sort of creepy, when i attempt to explain it, but i'm almost 100% positive i'm not the only one who does it.
5. i can honestly say i am a strong-willed person. my morals are set in stone, as well as who i truly am. i do NOT fear being myself, and sticking to what i believe in. and it's probably my favorite trait about myself, which i am very thankful for.
6. out of all the different things i enjoy doing, if i had to choose only one to do for the rest of my life, i think it would be writing. it's pretty much the only time where i feel like i can truly express myself. i don't know what i'd do without it.
7. i wish i had a little brother. when it comes to little kids, i usually am not that great with little girls. but with little boys, it comes so naturally to me, and i love all of them, pretty much. even if they are total brats, i can almost always get them to behave somehow, and even if i can't, there's still a part of me that loves them, despite how annoying they can be. it's just sort of a connection type of thing.
8. all i really want in my life when i get older, is an amazing family. a wonderful husband, a little boy, and a little girl, living together in harmony and happiness. it's all i ask for.
9. my hair is all natural; but i wish i could say the same about my face. i can be confident sometimes about the way i look. but as soon as all the make-up comes off my face... i feel like a total Plain Jane. i hate my face, it's so boyish, and i hate my freckles. people always say i'm 'perfect looking'... *sigh*. honey, just admit it; my make-up is what's 'perfect looking'.
10. as a last fact, i shall now say that i am truly blessed. i honestly have a good life, with good friends, good home-life, good family, good food to eat, good clothes to wear, talent, encouragement, and even more... despite all the bad things that happen, it could be about a million times worse than what i've had happen to me.
and i need to thank the Lord above for it all, far more often than i do.
good morning. (I'VE BEEN TAGGED! read the facts, please. i put a lot of time into them!)
:/ quality got messed up in Paint. blehh. oh well. i still like it.
opinions, please?
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
hmm, so, i've sort of realized that i've been tagged by about 10 different people...
therefore, i think i needa do that 10 fact deal.
unfortunately, i do not have the time right now, but i'll do it sometime later today.
pinky promise.
10 Facts About Myself:
1. i can never make up my mind. whether it's a matter of what boy i truly love and need, or what mug i want to drink out of for my coffee. this fact also proves the point that i don't know what important things about myself i'm going to list. that is, only 10. but, we shall see!
2. my biggest fear is the future and death. i'm constantly worried that i won't be able to fulfill the life i want to truly lead, (such as traveling, becoming famous, making a difference...) and i'm constantly worried about the bad things that may occur in the future, as well. the pain of death terrifys me, also. i'm always wondering how i'm going to die, and what it's going to be like... i hate it.
however, i believe, they're the same thing, in a way... after all, the future brings death; which is obviously what i fear. but death also brings the future. in Heaven. so, with that being said... there are positive things about those two fears of mine, i suppose.
3. some of the time, i'm not as happy and strong as i seem. i mean, sure, there are definitely times when i absolutely am; but i have terrible cases of nostalgia and dreadful melancholy moments. i usually make the wisest of decisions--particularly in the area of males--and am proud of myself for being the bigger, stronger, smarter person... but after all the proudness i force myself to have disappears, the sensitive, emotional side of me barges in. and frankly, it sticks with me a lot, lot longer. generally, i don't think about it during the day. when i'm busy, and having fun around my friends, that is genuine happiness. it's at night when all of the sad thoughts and depression comes in... which leads to why i also hate sleeping. i pretend it's nostalgia. but really, it's just me being a fool and purposely thinking of past memories that i need to forget... causing me to stay awake and be sad. this fact could basically go on forever, and i could rant about it for a few paragraphs more; but let's not do that.
next fact, please.
4. i often make up fake situations in my head with people that i know, and also random stories and non-existent movie clips. with people that i actually know, they're generally things that i would like to have occur, but know they never will. as for the stories, i sort of visualize it as a movie, and make myself the lead character... it's sort of creepy, when i attempt to explain it, but i'm almost 100% positive i'm not the only one who does it.
5. i can honestly say i am a strong-willed person. my morals are set in stone, as well as who i truly am. i do NOT fear being myself, and sticking to what i believe in. and it's probably my favorite trait about myself, which i am very thankful for.
6. out of all the different things i enjoy doing, if i had to choose only one to do for the rest of my life, i think it would be writing. it's pretty much the only time where i feel like i can truly express myself. i don't know what i'd do without it.
7. i wish i had a little brother. when it comes to little kids, i usually am not that great with little girls. but with little boys, it comes so naturally to me, and i love all of them, pretty much. even if they are total brats, i can almost always get them to behave somehow, and even if i can't, there's still a part of me that loves them, despite how annoying they can be. it's just sort of a connection type of thing.
8. all i really want in my life when i get older, is an amazing family. a wonderful husband, a little boy, and a little girl, living together in harmony and happiness. it's all i ask for.
9. my hair is all natural; but i wish i could say the same about my face. i can be confident sometimes about the way i look. but as soon as all the make-up comes off my face... i feel like a total Plain Jane. i hate my face, it's so boyish, and i hate my freckles. people always say i'm 'perfect looking'... *sigh*. honey, just admit it; my make-up is what's 'perfect looking'.
10. as a last fact, i shall now say that i am truly blessed. i honestly have a good life, with good friends, good home-life, good family, good food to eat, good clothes to wear, talent, encouragement, and even more... despite all the bad things that happen, it could be about a million times worse than what i've had happen to me.
and i need to thank the Lord above for it all, far more often than i do.