Forgiveness!!! (Explored=o)
Resentment is like taking poison every day and expecting the other person to die! (Something someone said on Oprah) I was searching my heart for forgiveness tonight. Imagine you are walking to an event, and your flash jumps the shoe (obviously not tightened in enough) and goes careening across an asphalt parking lot, and one of the people walking behind you says sarcastically, "Good job!" First of all, my heart was already in my throat seeing my $300 flash go sailing, so the nasty venom in the tone and comment was like a punch in the gut to go with it. I was in shock, outraged shock! I reeled around and said, "Wow, that was really compassionate...wow" and shook my head.
I went on to the event, (of course) and made sure I got a couple of shots of my offender. The anger was tearing my guts up as I smiled and encouraged the attendees for the camera. I kept thinking, be YOU, be kind, be above it and let that stinker see you doing so!!! After it was over, and I was in a safe place, I cried. All those feelings were draining, especially, the ANGER. Trust me, I'm no shrinking violet, but it was especially outrageus behavior by this person in light of the event and location.
When I looked at the photos, and got over the fact that indeed it appears my flash had some bad moments which I've never experienced with it, I really looked at her in the shots. My heart started to change as I realized, she must be unhappy with herself, and perhaps most of the things that have happened to her so far in life, and again, I cried. This time tears of compassion and perhaps the desperation of wishing I could help her find the goodness in herself and in life. Since I cannot reach out to her directly, I pray. I pray tonight for her to see and for all of us to see that every day is a gift and a new beginning. You can make a paradigm shift in your life, at any time. I pray also for everyone to be able to FORGIVE! Forgive your loved ones, forgive strangers, and forgive yourself! Life is short. I choose, forgiveness and compassion! I choose to forgive her. I also forgive myself for not tightening the flash completely and for feeling so angry and resentful.
Thanks for viewing and allowing me to share the catharsis I experienced today. =o)
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Forgiveness!!! (Explored=o)
Resentment is like taking poison every day and expecting the other person to die! (Something someone said on Oprah) I was searching my heart for forgiveness tonight. Imagine you are walking to an event, and your flash jumps the shoe (obviously not tightened in enough) and goes careening across an asphalt parking lot, and one of the people walking behind you says sarcastically, "Good job!" First of all, my heart was already in my throat seeing my $300 flash go sailing, so the nasty venom in the tone and comment was like a punch in the gut to go with it. I was in shock, outraged shock! I reeled around and said, "Wow, that was really compassionate...wow" and shook my head.
I went on to the event, (of course) and made sure I got a couple of shots of my offender. The anger was tearing my guts up as I smiled and encouraged the attendees for the camera. I kept thinking, be YOU, be kind, be above it and let that stinker see you doing so!!! After it was over, and I was in a safe place, I cried. All those feelings were draining, especially, the ANGER. Trust me, I'm no shrinking violet, but it was especially outrageus behavior by this person in light of the event and location.
When I looked at the photos, and got over the fact that indeed it appears my flash had some bad moments which I've never experienced with it, I really looked at her in the shots. My heart started to change as I realized, she must be unhappy with herself, and perhaps most of the things that have happened to her so far in life, and again, I cried. This time tears of compassion and perhaps the desperation of wishing I could help her find the goodness in herself and in life. Since I cannot reach out to her directly, I pray. I pray tonight for her to see and for all of us to see that every day is a gift and a new beginning. You can make a paradigm shift in your life, at any time. I pray also for everyone to be able to FORGIVE! Forgive your loved ones, forgive strangers, and forgive yourself! Life is short. I choose, forgiveness and compassion! I choose to forgive her. I also forgive myself for not tightening the flash completely and for feeling so angry and resentful.
Thanks for viewing and allowing me to share the catharsis I experienced today. =o)
***All rights to my images are STRICTLY reserved. Please contact me if you interested in purchasing my images or if you are and educator or non-profit interested in use.***