DerrickThePinecone
Sometimes,
a lot of times, I am unable to go to sleep, which explains this upload, to show that I'm always in the light even in the dark! And no, it's not a "problem" whatsoever!
It's 3:19am and this tells this whole story; or at least part of it. I think that often times I am unable to go to sleep because there is this consistent agitation of things flooding around in my brain (to go along with natural nervousness) that I am unable to find a way to wipe the slate clean so that I can drift off into dreamland. My dreams lately have been rather interesting, often making me wish things in the past hadn't of happened and how I should have changed certain events that took place, and how misunderstandings could have morphed into a more perfect study of things that were for the better; that warranted energies for a kinder heart versus that of things that rouses and melts us into tragedy -- but then that's where the many-sidedness of humanity comes into play (and yes, where we're able to "build" onto whatever it was for better purposes) -- where passionate affection, subtle attentions, adorative genuinities often get misconstrued, thus creating something sufferingly-sorrowful (as if a flower screams when plucked from the stalk!); something that finds a way to crawl around in your subconsciousness, shedding its outer-layer, and reminding you of it every so often during those sudden Freudian "floods of memory" (even during r.e.m.), that seems to "stay with you" for the remainder of the day after you've awoken, clinging to you, almost pleading with you to find a way to comfort it, even though there really isn't anything that you can do, except to somehow let it "wear off" like when you get a glob of Krazy glue on your flesh.
But, then I remember to tell myself that these are all mental-caricatures to perhaps use as worthy attention for other things, and that happiness will always be a choice, no matter the situations of past, and that being more affectionate than instructive is the way that I will always be.
By the way, I've been submitting to Galleries lately, so hopefully something wonderful will come from it. My last gallery showing was back in October of '07 at the d&a Gallery in Tel Aviv, Israel. I was invited to go speak there, but I didn't have the cabbage to do so. However, times have changed for the better!
Sometimes,
a lot of times, I am unable to go to sleep, which explains this upload, to show that I'm always in the light even in the dark! And no, it's not a "problem" whatsoever!
It's 3:19am and this tells this whole story; or at least part of it. I think that often times I am unable to go to sleep because there is this consistent agitation of things flooding around in my brain (to go along with natural nervousness) that I am unable to find a way to wipe the slate clean so that I can drift off into dreamland. My dreams lately have been rather interesting, often making me wish things in the past hadn't of happened and how I should have changed certain events that took place, and how misunderstandings could have morphed into a more perfect study of things that were for the better; that warranted energies for a kinder heart versus that of things that rouses and melts us into tragedy -- but then that's where the many-sidedness of humanity comes into play (and yes, where we're able to "build" onto whatever it was for better purposes) -- where passionate affection, subtle attentions, adorative genuinities often get misconstrued, thus creating something sufferingly-sorrowful (as if a flower screams when plucked from the stalk!); something that finds a way to crawl around in your subconsciousness, shedding its outer-layer, and reminding you of it every so often during those sudden Freudian "floods of memory" (even during r.e.m.), that seems to "stay with you" for the remainder of the day after you've awoken, clinging to you, almost pleading with you to find a way to comfort it, even though there really isn't anything that you can do, except to somehow let it "wear off" like when you get a glob of Krazy glue on your flesh.
But, then I remember to tell myself that these are all mental-caricatures to perhaps use as worthy attention for other things, and that happiness will always be a choice, no matter the situations of past, and that being more affectionate than instructive is the way that I will always be.
By the way, I've been submitting to Galleries lately, so hopefully something wonderful will come from it. My last gallery showing was back in October of '07 at the d&a Gallery in Tel Aviv, Israel. I was invited to go speak there, but I didn't have the cabbage to do so. However, times have changed for the better!