The Real Me (237-365)
Can you see the real me? The better question is, do you WANT to?
I wish I could say that I had saved kids from a burning building, or that I had just gotten the losing end of a barroom fight. Nope. The only thing that kicked my ass is my own body, my own mind, my own me.
Having a blood system/immune system disorder, your defenses are sometimes compromised, even with medication. Throw in some clinical depression (also medicated) and the pharmaceutical/mindfuck cocktail can get hairy sometimes.
I'll occasionally get a "reaction", and I know it before I look in the mirror. My lips hurt, my teeth hurt, my skin hurts. They don't last long (usually about a week), but looking like a leper colony escapee doesn't do much for the self-confidence of a single man, and that doesn't do much for the depression (unless you count making it worse as "something")
Yes, I've been to the doctor. They don't seem to have a lot of answers. But it took them almost 2 years to diagnose the lupus, so I'm not surprised.
I'm lucky. I'm sure there are a whole lot of people that would gladly take the occasional skin rash as opposed to whatever maladies they are dealing with. It's just harder to look on the bright side some days.
The Real Me (237-365)
Can you see the real me? The better question is, do you WANT to?
I wish I could say that I had saved kids from a burning building, or that I had just gotten the losing end of a barroom fight. Nope. The only thing that kicked my ass is my own body, my own mind, my own me.
Having a blood system/immune system disorder, your defenses are sometimes compromised, even with medication. Throw in some clinical depression (also medicated) and the pharmaceutical/mindfuck cocktail can get hairy sometimes.
I'll occasionally get a "reaction", and I know it before I look in the mirror. My lips hurt, my teeth hurt, my skin hurts. They don't last long (usually about a week), but looking like a leper colony escapee doesn't do much for the self-confidence of a single man, and that doesn't do much for the depression (unless you count making it worse as "something")
Yes, I've been to the doctor. They don't seem to have a lot of answers. But it took them almost 2 years to diagnose the lupus, so I'm not surprised.
I'm lucky. I'm sure there are a whole lot of people that would gladly take the occasional skin rash as opposed to whatever maladies they are dealing with. It's just harder to look on the bright side some days.