jenn_7
.obstacle.
Twenty years ago i was accepted into the College of Art and Science at Bowling Green State University. As excited as I was, over a span of 4 months leading up to my travels there I had strange nightly dreams! Each night i dreamed that I packed my belongings and set out to school with each and every person I had ever known in my life...hundreds of faces swam before me in each dream...and each location was different, Italy, Mexico, my grandfather's farmland! But each dream left me feeling lost and desperate...unsettled!
The final dream I had was the night before my departure......i was wearing a long, white cotton dress that blew in the breeze. Everyone was in may backyard as i opened the door and stepped outside. The grass was greener than any grass i had ever seen. On the picnic table was a bowl of deep red apples....everyone smiled and waved at me as a I walked past....alone....toward the back split rail fence and the golden wheat field beyond! Slow motion crept over me and I was consumed with dread!
As i approached the garage on the right I stopped breathing......I set my eyes to the back fence....but as I passed the garage there was a man standing there....i could see him in the corner of my eye! And as I placed my hand on the fence rail and began to climb over....his hand took hold of my shoulder......
And that is when I woke up!
The news came the very next morning.....family circumstances rendered me unable to go to Bowling Green! I was bitter about it, letting it define my life for a few years, blaming others...the dream and the clarity of it still haunt me today.....
But I NOW know that each and every one of my obstacles in life are totally imposed by me.....
.obstacle.
Twenty years ago i was accepted into the College of Art and Science at Bowling Green State University. As excited as I was, over a span of 4 months leading up to my travels there I had strange nightly dreams! Each night i dreamed that I packed my belongings and set out to school with each and every person I had ever known in my life...hundreds of faces swam before me in each dream...and each location was different, Italy, Mexico, my grandfather's farmland! But each dream left me feeling lost and desperate...unsettled!
The final dream I had was the night before my departure......i was wearing a long, white cotton dress that blew in the breeze. Everyone was in may backyard as i opened the door and stepped outside. The grass was greener than any grass i had ever seen. On the picnic table was a bowl of deep red apples....everyone smiled and waved at me as a I walked past....alone....toward the back split rail fence and the golden wheat field beyond! Slow motion crept over me and I was consumed with dread!
As i approached the garage on the right I stopped breathing......I set my eyes to the back fence....but as I passed the garage there was a man standing there....i could see him in the corner of my eye! And as I placed my hand on the fence rail and began to climb over....his hand took hold of my shoulder......
And that is when I woke up!
The news came the very next morning.....family circumstances rendered me unable to go to Bowling Green! I was bitter about it, letting it define my life for a few years, blaming others...the dream and the clarity of it still haunt me today.....
But I NOW know that each and every one of my obstacles in life are totally imposed by me.....