ultraheidibuttery
finding laughter.
๐What's that phrase: "She who laughs last, laughs the loudest."? Really hoping that's true.
This selfie was snapped over the winter of 2023-2024, after a friend tried to cheer me up, saying things would be OK. "Just have faith, Heidi". Ha! I laugh out loud at that thought today because I truly thought being a good citizen, playing by the rules and obeying the law would work to obtain justice in the family court system.
Fast forward 18 months later... while faith has brought me to find true love, laughter and a deeper understanding of myself and humanity, it has not brought me justice. Neither has hiring lawyers nor speaking my truth in court, self-representing myself, when I ran out of funds and several pro bono lawyers refused to hear my case details.
Many people, after hearing my story, provide mostly useless advice. While sometimes they are well-intentioned, often they are simply nosy and for some reasons I don't relate to, they like to criticize my path and challenge my intelligence. Not my thing/approach, if I were to encounter a person who had been dragged through a real life h$LL by her community and network, but hey, ugly people do, as ugly people do. Gotta let it go.. everything's temporary, anyway. The only thing that is permanent in life is impermanence. It's all about perspective, right? Plus, eventually the truth comes out.
๐At this time in my life, I remain receptive and open to solutions, but the "oh, find a lawyer" advice... gosh, that's so old. To date, I haven't found a brave enough lawyer to even help me get my marital assets, never mind anyone who will step up to the plate for family law. I have added President Zelensky as my wish list lawyer - but I'd take Dr.Dre or Elle Woods at this point - ha!
While I don't owe anyone a deep explanation, I have hired lawyers who have done nothing for me in return for long-term resolutions, even hiring a PI over 19 months ago (who spent more time bragging to me than doing his job). When I initially sought legal advice in October 2023 from lawyers who were in my network: old business colleagues and "friends", they all told me they couldn't help me, even to file simple divorce papers. You could only imagine what a dagger to the heart it was, as I considered many of these people my friends.
๐ฉโ๏ธIn January of 2024, I told folks in my life: I can't fight a corrupt county on my own.... and that remains true to this day. I've concluded that no lawyer has provided me real professional service, because their livelihood is at stake. On a large scale: if I win, they lose. Think about it. All of my previous network contacts (disloyal friends/network) are being served and funded by a corrupt system... big pharm, lawyers, news outlets, tech, US government, big corporations, etc (all white color criminals). Helps explain their awful behavior to me: they'll lose so much money if my case is brought justice and most likely, serve time. ๐At this point, you may think to yourself, as I have, isn't it an opportunity to shine a good light on lawyers, if one stepped forward to represent me? Yeah, but good doesn't appear to exist in this profession anymore. But how much do I know, right? It's not like I've not been preparing lawyer taxes, stuck in long meetings with lawyers and basically tolerating their egos... for more two decades, by now - ha! Funny, but not.
๐When I truly step back and think about all of my community efforts and had I been "allowed" to continue them two years ago, I clearly see why I was such a threat to the Bay Area: my long-lasting solutions would have served and benefited the common people, not the greedy lifestyles of the uber wealthy. These rich corrupt citizens do not want an educated & well-informed community. I mean, gosh, imagine if thier Spanish-speaking staff were to learn English, gain skills and upgrade their lives... who would clean their toilets? So sad ๐, right? But that's how elitists think. And since they operate on fear and intimidation, I needed to go, in the most harassing way possible, so that I don't return. Because I'm an inspirational leader, who may actually solve local problems and gain followers ... oh, better stop her.
You could say they won - they definitely economically squeezed me and imposed a lot of trauma on me, with no regard to the impact on me or my son. It is weird to me how they don't think or acknowledge that one day my son will find out who did or didn't help his mom. But then again, I don't think like these f'd up people think: not caring about anyone but themselves, in the long-run. Here's the thing: they can silence, torment and abuse me all they want to, but children grow up. They eventually discover the truth.
๐ผOver the past two years, I've poked holes in so many industries and ultimately how these corrupt individuals treated me reveals more about their character than mine. As a whole, It's sick, twisted and unfair the way they've used children, patriotism and religion to cover up their crimes. Not just in my case, but so many other people I've met along my journey. But as I've deeply uncovered, the twisted US system was setup to divide, exploit and distract its people. And as we are all a witness to present day: ultimately, this system will destroy its people. (And one more crazy part: social media is a heavily misused tool that adds to this division; if it would have worked to connect people to make positive long-lasting change, don't you think that would have happened by now? Unfortunately, that's not the case - history has proven this. Overall, social media has degraded human progress, not advanced it. At one point, I had faith TikTok could be used to organize mass change, but nope... we are divided more than ever all across the board. In addition, by overly sharing personal information, people are making themselves easier targets.)
America is most definitely a crazy train out of control and as someone who prefers peace and good vibes, I do not identify as a passenger on this train. I've OVERserved this pitiful and arrogant excuse for a country and I'm done. Opting out like an annoying email subscription...
As gross as these beyond criminals & their cronies are, I find complicit citizens... who let it happen and continue to do so, just as guilty. As part of my personal ethos, I prefer to observe and not judge, but after I've been so harshly set up, judged, criticized and belittled, especially over the past two years, f that - you bet I've ranked people and companies, according to how they've treated me. And if given the opportunity, I could give them personal recommendations that their fragile egos couldn't handle.
๐While it wasn't my initial mission two years ago to help expose the widespread corruption of America to the rest of the world, as a whole, gosh, increasingly it has felt like a shared mission, with the good people. I've been in corporate handcuffs, marriage handcuffs and county handcuffs... stating I'm "done" with this system is an understatement. I'll do my part and comply at this time, until a better day comes along, as I'm a realist, but how disgusting my experience has been in the states. Can't help but think if I were a white male, with resources, how much differently I'd be treated. That's who's really winning in this country and rest of the world, right? Rich, white males, with Americans ignorantly leading the way. I'd also be believed, right? Yeah, I got the message loud & clear. I was hoping to at least be treated like a lady, even in a man's world. Oh well... it's clear that will not happen, at least in modern day America.
Abraham Lincoln said "nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power." Yep, he was right about that, don't you think?
๐So, how does one move forward, in my position, on a day-to-day basis? I choose to lean into positivity & hope and channel my good energy towards myself, a few others, projects and plans for the future. I've got a bada$$ skill set, a big heart and look forward to the day I will be appreciated and able to implement upward long-lasting change in deserving communities. โค๏ธ ๐ Admittedly, I am a bit of a worker ๐ haha, so I can't ever see myself fully retired. Good people, good vibes and good scenery... ah, what a combo.
May you have a blessed week, Flickr community, and find smiles wherever and whenever you can. --Heidi ๐
finding laughter.
๐What's that phrase: "She who laughs last, laughs the loudest."? Really hoping that's true.
This selfie was snapped over the winter of 2023-2024, after a friend tried to cheer me up, saying things would be OK. "Just have faith, Heidi". Ha! I laugh out loud at that thought today because I truly thought being a good citizen, playing by the rules and obeying the law would work to obtain justice in the family court system.
Fast forward 18 months later... while faith has brought me to find true love, laughter and a deeper understanding of myself and humanity, it has not brought me justice. Neither has hiring lawyers nor speaking my truth in court, self-representing myself, when I ran out of funds and several pro bono lawyers refused to hear my case details.
Many people, after hearing my story, provide mostly useless advice. While sometimes they are well-intentioned, often they are simply nosy and for some reasons I don't relate to, they like to criticize my path and challenge my intelligence. Not my thing/approach, if I were to encounter a person who had been dragged through a real life h$LL by her community and network, but hey, ugly people do, as ugly people do. Gotta let it go.. everything's temporary, anyway. The only thing that is permanent in life is impermanence. It's all about perspective, right? Plus, eventually the truth comes out.
๐At this time in my life, I remain receptive and open to solutions, but the "oh, find a lawyer" advice... gosh, that's so old. To date, I haven't found a brave enough lawyer to even help me get my marital assets, never mind anyone who will step up to the plate for family law. I have added President Zelensky as my wish list lawyer - but I'd take Dr.Dre or Elle Woods at this point - ha!
While I don't owe anyone a deep explanation, I have hired lawyers who have done nothing for me in return for long-term resolutions, even hiring a PI over 19 months ago (who spent more time bragging to me than doing his job). When I initially sought legal advice in October 2023 from lawyers who were in my network: old business colleagues and "friends", they all told me they couldn't help me, even to file simple divorce papers. You could only imagine what a dagger to the heart it was, as I considered many of these people my friends.
๐ฉโ๏ธIn January of 2024, I told folks in my life: I can't fight a corrupt county on my own.... and that remains true to this day. I've concluded that no lawyer has provided me real professional service, because their livelihood is at stake. On a large scale: if I win, they lose. Think about it. All of my previous network contacts (disloyal friends/network) are being served and funded by a corrupt system... big pharm, lawyers, news outlets, tech, US government, big corporations, etc (all white color criminals). Helps explain their awful behavior to me: they'll lose so much money if my case is brought justice and most likely, serve time. ๐At this point, you may think to yourself, as I have, isn't it an opportunity to shine a good light on lawyers, if one stepped forward to represent me? Yeah, but good doesn't appear to exist in this profession anymore. But how much do I know, right? It's not like I've not been preparing lawyer taxes, stuck in long meetings with lawyers and basically tolerating their egos... for more two decades, by now - ha! Funny, but not.
๐When I truly step back and think about all of my community efforts and had I been "allowed" to continue them two years ago, I clearly see why I was such a threat to the Bay Area: my long-lasting solutions would have served and benefited the common people, not the greedy lifestyles of the uber wealthy. These rich corrupt citizens do not want an educated & well-informed community. I mean, gosh, imagine if thier Spanish-speaking staff were to learn English, gain skills and upgrade their lives... who would clean their toilets? So sad ๐, right? But that's how elitists think. And since they operate on fear and intimidation, I needed to go, in the most harassing way possible, so that I don't return. Because I'm an inspirational leader, who may actually solve local problems and gain followers ... oh, better stop her.
You could say they won - they definitely economically squeezed me and imposed a lot of trauma on me, with no regard to the impact on me or my son. It is weird to me how they don't think or acknowledge that one day my son will find out who did or didn't help his mom. But then again, I don't think like these f'd up people think: not caring about anyone but themselves, in the long-run. Here's the thing: they can silence, torment and abuse me all they want to, but children grow up. They eventually discover the truth.
๐ผOver the past two years, I've poked holes in so many industries and ultimately how these corrupt individuals treated me reveals more about their character than mine. As a whole, It's sick, twisted and unfair the way they've used children, patriotism and religion to cover up their crimes. Not just in my case, but so many other people I've met along my journey. But as I've deeply uncovered, the twisted US system was setup to divide, exploit and distract its people. And as we are all a witness to present day: ultimately, this system will destroy its people. (And one more crazy part: social media is a heavily misused tool that adds to this division; if it would have worked to connect people to make positive long-lasting change, don't you think that would have happened by now? Unfortunately, that's not the case - history has proven this. Overall, social media has degraded human progress, not advanced it. At one point, I had faith TikTok could be used to organize mass change, but nope... we are divided more than ever all across the board. In addition, by overly sharing personal information, people are making themselves easier targets.)
America is most definitely a crazy train out of control and as someone who prefers peace and good vibes, I do not identify as a passenger on this train. I've OVERserved this pitiful and arrogant excuse for a country and I'm done. Opting out like an annoying email subscription...
As gross as these beyond criminals & their cronies are, I find complicit citizens... who let it happen and continue to do so, just as guilty. As part of my personal ethos, I prefer to observe and not judge, but after I've been so harshly set up, judged, criticized and belittled, especially over the past two years, f that - you bet I've ranked people and companies, according to how they've treated me. And if given the opportunity, I could give them personal recommendations that their fragile egos couldn't handle.
๐While it wasn't my initial mission two years ago to help expose the widespread corruption of America to the rest of the world, as a whole, gosh, increasingly it has felt like a shared mission, with the good people. I've been in corporate handcuffs, marriage handcuffs and county handcuffs... stating I'm "done" with this system is an understatement. I'll do my part and comply at this time, until a better day comes along, as I'm a realist, but how disgusting my experience has been in the states. Can't help but think if I were a white male, with resources, how much differently I'd be treated. That's who's really winning in this country and rest of the world, right? Rich, white males, with Americans ignorantly leading the way. I'd also be believed, right? Yeah, I got the message loud & clear. I was hoping to at least be treated like a lady, even in a man's world. Oh well... it's clear that will not happen, at least in modern day America.
Abraham Lincoln said "nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power." Yep, he was right about that, don't you think?
๐So, how does one move forward, in my position, on a day-to-day basis? I choose to lean into positivity & hope and channel my good energy towards myself, a few others, projects and plans for the future. I've got a bada$$ skill set, a big heart and look forward to the day I will be appreciated and able to implement upward long-lasting change in deserving communities. โค๏ธ ๐ Admittedly, I am a bit of a worker ๐ haha, so I can't ever see myself fully retired. Good people, good vibes and good scenery... ah, what a combo.
May you have a blessed week, Flickr community, and find smiles wherever and whenever you can. --Heidi ๐