Medication...now, a person could be...this is what through reflection I figured out. A person could be in such a state that they could be telling you the wrong symptoms they're going through. I'm seeing this hearing this but actually they're not getting enough sleep. They're exhausted...so they can be prescribed the wrong thing not intentionally but they're saying things that...okay this relates with panadol, for example, or okay this person said this so give them something else...you can never know if patients are giving doctors the right symptoms. The medication, perosnally, the first time...I was not active, but I could think for myself, I could cook. But after I wasn't able to be productive and active I needed help, I couldn't think for myself, became antisocial, wanted to be isolated, gained weight. I'd say I'm putting on weight and they'd think oh, well you're not exercising...but there's no motivation to exercise, it depletes you...it changes and reprograms and reconfigures you so you're dependent on the medication. I needed it to sleep. And when you actually don't take it, then you get new symptoms then your body...I was going through palpitations, heavy breathing, felt like head was going to burst...but with that I can sleep. There were times when you took medication and you say I can't sleep you prescribed this to me and I can't sleep or I can't eat...the medication took away my appetite. First I was on meds, put on my weight and libido so they changed it and I wasn't able to eat...and then it affected my joints and tremors...I'd let them know but they still say take the medication take the medication. Night staff would say let the day staff handle it wait for your doctor in the morning there's nothing we can do at night. There's not enough trained professional; the night staff aren't trained on that per se. I can only give you what I see on your file, if there's any issues go and talk to nurse or doctor in the morning. So there's limited resources...it makes you feel like you're not being listened to. Like, how are you telling experts or doctors what you think is best? That's why people with lived experience are blessed because they've been through that, there's more to it then just being given a prescribed medication. If you're not getting enough sleep or eating that'll impact your brain. Then you go back to doctor to say you're feeling like this or that and it's not because of medication and then they add another medication on top of that and you end up with another symptom and end up worse...every issue is okay, does it match this medication and I'm talking from my experience...someone is saying oh I can't go to the toilet so they're just doping the person up...what's really happening inside their body? It's very...inhumane. They just say take this...I say what's this I'm not taking it if you don't tell him so they say oh this guy's a torublemaker let's up the dosage let's inject him...to take control. I remmeber there were some people so assertive and assured that they didn't need the medication and they left a different person...they refused the medication so they got injected or put in isolation. It happened to me, I refused medication and they were very forceful and aggressive...you're looking at...aren't you guys meant to be taking care of us and looking after us?? Why are you hurting us?? Lots of service users in their alpha male-ness and you see them humbled by a medication...like the staff say okay this is how I'm going to deal with you. It's not a tranquilizer, it's sedatives...that calm you down. Some patients are very aggressive and violent, very sneaky...some patients avoid, even I at one point pretended to swallow medication...it causes...it messes up...so it goes hand in hand. Some medications don't work, some do work...we want you to leave, we want you to go back to society and families and be normal again so there are those members of staff. It's a power shift...abuse of power but some are great and caring...some don't like you some really like you...some it's just a paycheck. Nights and days are completely different. Days it's very supportive, help 24/7...there's always help in the mornings but in the night time, not just wards but also hospitals...you call and they ask what do you want man you're always calling, or patients abuse it and say every little thing I need I need I need and I get it gets frustrating and annoying.