Where Am I Going?

I'm going to keep this update short, the long story is too much, it's terrible and you don't want to hear the whole thing, if I'm able to recover from what's happening to me, which I don't think I will, I'll tell the whole thing one day, but I just wanted to give an update to everyone in what is hopefully just the end of a chapter, but most likely my final post.

 

I wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive, I think everyone got a little scared I did something to myself, and I would never. My little girl is far too important to me to ever go out willingly. Regardless, I don't think I'm going to have much choice in things soon, so I wanted to say goodbye just in case I don't get another chance later.

 

I don't want to go into too many details, let's just say all the difficult things I've gone through in life, all the lessons I learned, all the pain I've felt, all of everything wasn't enough to prepare me for the last year, and now I'm not even sure I'll get to live another. So just in case this is me signing off for good, know every kind word you all ever said to me meant the world, know that it hurts my heart that I may never get to share more of my creativity and life lessons with you, and know my spirit has been destroyed realizing I'm probably leaving this little girl behind in this world without me. As much as I'd love to turn pain into creativity, this pain is too intense, this isn't a sadness I see going away unless by some miracle I'm wrong about what's happening to me.

 

Some stories don't have happy endings. Some start bad, continue to be hard, and then end sadly anyway. Still, I lead a life that was full, and I created a beautiful soul. I just hope I don't crush hers on my way out.

 

I love you Violet.

Done